Bianglala (Revision)

11.1 [Rhea] Anger

I still avoid Aga and Mei. Though in retrospect, Mei is actually not wrong. But somehow I refused to just greet him.

"When do you think you're gonna get this?" Zayn asked astonished at my overly selfish attitude.

I shook my head, I honestly don't know until when it's going to be like this.

"You shouldn't be hostile to Mei either, she doesn't know anything about your problems with Kara, but she's also taking on your anger." Zayn was wise.

"Gue says it doesn't mean I'm playing May. But I think your attitude is a little outrageous." Further.

"Yes, yeah, I know. I also don't want to be sent to Mei like gini. But every time I see Mei, I always want to know how upset I am and I don't like that."

"But that doesn't mean you keep avoiding like gini. The problem will not be solved if lo gini continues" said Zayn.

"Yes, yeah, I know. Bawel is very lo. Udah ah, mending you taught me to play guitar from the wise kayak before. Doesn't fit."

I protested against Zayn who kept lecturing me.

Without Zayn advising me like that, I've understood what to do. My ego is just too high. I still feel that Aga should be apologizing, not me.

"Yaudah try to play. I'm the one who really knows if something's wrong."

I quickly plucked the guitar slowly because I was still learning and had not mastered all the keys to the guitar. Luckily Zayn was patient enough to teach me.

"Udah quite lo playnya, but like you need to memorize the location of the guitar key anyway. Let's not play." Zayn gave me input. He was also good at teaching others.

"Yes, if there's time I memorize it's the location of the guitar key. It's hard, because I don't have a guitar. Can't try it alone."

"Bring my guitar back, but don't get chafed. If you get a blister, you have to be real." Said Zayn offering but also at the same time threatening.

I shook my head quickly, rejecting Zayn's offer. It's nothing, if until the guitar blisters, I will also be troubled.

"Gue look around, you two are now very often together."

Hearing a familiar voice, the two of us automatically swiped towards the sound simultaneously. Lyra came to us.

"Private guitar with Zayn. Because of trying out your brother's guitar at that time, I want to learn." I'm legit.

"Why didn't you ask to be taught by Sister Eza yesterday? Now you can definitely."

"Gue's? Studying with Eza? Which is really."

"It's not a guitar practice, but it's a debating exercise later." Zayn Imbuh.

I nodded confirming Zayn's words.

"Yes, too, is Kak Eza the same Rhea tuh kayak cat as a mouse." Added Lyra who seemed to have just realized.

"Yes, I can't get along with "

The three of us, chatting casually discussed many things. From important to unimportant.

I've been with Zayn or Lyra more and more. Even it seems I don't need to avoid Aga or Mei actually, as Zayn said this morning.

And here I am now, sitting alone in the Canteen without Zayn or Lyra. So, I will not be able to escape at any time if accidentally met with May or Aga.

Actually I have no problem meeting Mei, only I have not been able to if I have to meet Aga.

Just as I thought, I finally met them. I just wanted to run away from the cafeteria to see Mei and Aga walking up to me. But the rice has become porridge, inevitably I have to face it.

"Hi, Rhea. You whatpatient? We haven't seen you in a long time, like you're busy?" May greeted me with pleasure.

I forced a smile and tried desperately to hold back my emotions that suddenly came when I accidentally met Aga. I don't know why his stare provoked my emotions.

"Lo what's the news, Rhea? Are you tired of running? That's why we're silent now when we're samperin." Cibir Aga I don't know for what purpose.

I remained silent, but my gaze explained how my emotions were when Aga spoke like that.

"Kara, that. We're here to see Rhea. Don't make your mess."

"Make what, he just deliberately ran away. Free, too childish after all. Just because of a trivial problem until I believe it's this."

Exploded already my anger and Aga in the cafeteria. We argue without caring around, without caring if it will become a spectacle.

"Gue coward? Lo it doesn't know itself. Every day I shuttle, but only because once I do not pick you up and even pick up Mei. Lo immediately angry unclear and diemin us both. Lo is too childish, even Mei goes with you diemin, but she is not wrong." Cecar Aga without pause cornered me.

"Yes, I'm childish. I'm selfish, I don't like you being more attentive to Mei than I am. I don't like Mei taking you away from me. I'm jealous of Aga, g-gu..." My voice glimpsed at the end of the sentence and just disappeared replaced with a cry that I have been holding since.

I've been spilling everything that's been messing with my mind for the past week. But I can't be honest with my own feelings for Aga.

I'm breeding Aga and Mei to see my current fragility. Seeing me cry just because I feel selfish because of my little desire.

"You all please disband."

"Dissolve the chips, go gih. Not under Mr. Eza's orders."

Slowly, the crowd that had been watching us had dwindled. Until when Brother Eza stood beside me, the crowd of spectators had already disappeared completely.

"You're coming with me."

Brother Eza clasped my fingers and took me away from the place. Let me cry in his car.

"Just cry, if your brother can make you relieved. But after that, please don't cry anymore. I don't like it." Said Brother Eza while sticking a box of tissue in my lap.

I don't know how much time I've missed. But during that time, I knew Sister Eza was waiting beside me.

"Please brother, I'm sorry to be so ngerepotin." My great-grandson still feels guilty.

"Why apologize, you're not wrong with me. If you want to apologize, maybe my sister and your best friend are." Said Eza calms.

I remember May. How is he now. I should have apologized the same May, not even serve Aga who is emotional with emotion as well.

"May, aman. He was taken with Zayn. If it's Kara, I don't know. I was just focusing on you."

Sister Eza explained without me asking, as if she could read my mind.

"Now I take you home, yes, so you can rest."

I shook my head slowly, to be honest for now I don't intend to go home. Because if I go home, it will be the same as continuing the second round of debate with Aga and I do not want to.

"Jude, you come with me. But after this the responsibility itself is yes."

I nodded slowly, although I actually did not really understand what Kak Eza meant.

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