Believe me, I'm Still Sacred

Chapter 29. Congratulations to you all

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The highest position of love for man is love for God. If we love God, God will bring us closer to the one we love.

Muslims who love Allah will always try to follow His commandments and stay away from His prohibitions. As mentioned in the word of Allah SWT in Surat Al Baqarah verse 165.

وَمِنَ النَّاسِ مَنْ يَتَّخِذُ مِنْ دُونِ اللَّهِ أَنْدَادًا يُحِبُّونَهُمْ كَحُبِّ اللَّهِ ۖ وَالَّذِينَ آمَنُوا أَشَدُّ حُبًّا لِلَّهِ ۗ وَلَوْ يَرَى الَّذِينَ ظَلَمُوا إِذْ يَرَوْنَ الْعَذَابَ أَنَّ الْقُوَّةَ لِلَّهِ جَمِيعًا وَأَنَّ اللَّهَ شَدِيدُ الْعَذَابِ

It means: "And among men there are those who worship counter-match besides Allah; they love him as they love God. As for those who believe, they love Allah very much."

There is also love for man, in Islam, love for man is also the embodiment of love for God. If a man loves God, he will also love another man. This is what motivates people to do good to others.

The Quran says that God created man to know and love one another. As Allah said in Surat Al Hujurat verse 13, which means “Oh O people, we have created you from a man and a woman, and make you nations and tribes so that you may know one another. Verily, the noblest of you, by Allah, are the most feared among you. Verily, Allah is All-Knowing, All-Knowing."

As in the story of Joseph as and Zulaikha, when Zulaikha pursued human love, God took that love away from him, but when he pursued the love of God, God brought him closer to Joseph. The love story of the Prophet Yusuf and Zulaikha provides an important lesson for us, that the soul mate will not be changed and will not go anywhere. For, if Allah Almighty had ordained a pair of men to be a match, then he would always give way as the Prophet Joseph and Zulaikha were reunited in a legitimate bond.

So maybe Zahwa should learn to be more breastfed with all these painful facts. After hearing the news that Raihan is married to his best friend, it really makes his heart hurt. Because he has a heart, he has a love for Raihan, a love for humans he offers to Raihan, that's why he is hurt and feels pain.

"Zahwa, you're okay, right?" rey asked seriously, as soon as she saw the look on Zahwa's face turning white and her eyes began to dew.

Either I have to be happy or something, but I don't like seeing you cry.

"I-I'm fine, brother." Zahwa immediately wiped away her tears that were about to drip.

Why Mas? Why did you marry Zainab's sister? Why are you giving me false hope? Why did you say last night that you were going to propose to me today? But you are married to someone else.mas Raihan. Zahwa said sadly in his heart.

"We're going home, yeah,"

The dongker-blue hijab girl shook her head, she held back her tears, trying to smile even though the smile was bitter. "We're here to serve Alm. ustadz Arifin..when do we want to go home again?"

"But you-"

"Let's go in, brother, the mourners are already a little tuh!" Zahwa invited his brother into the house which is the same location as the pesantren.

Now I understand why Zainab's brother called me. She is now Raihan's wife. No wonder.

With a strong step, he tried to put aside the problem of Raihan and Zainab.The goal is to treat ustadz Arifin.

Zahwa is greeted by Annisa, Raihan's stepmother because everyone is busy and unfocused. Even Raihan and Zainab were unaware of Zahwa's presence there.

"Please come in" Annisa told Zahwa and Rey.

This girl is so pretty, she looks fashionable, but I think I've seen her before.

Annisa frowned as soon as she saw Zahwa's figure, she felt like she had seen Zahwa before. Annisa never met Zahwa, because Annisa was out of town and never had time to come to the Calabrian family during Raihan's sudden proposal. So he hasn't seen Zahwa yet and only seen it from photos.

Now that Zahwa and Rey have entered the house, they are sitting side by side. As much as Zahwa could hold back his tears, he and Rey approached ustadz Iqbal and offered condolences, not forgetting Rey gave a white envelope to Ustadz Iqbal.

"We are very sorry, Mr. ustadz." said Rey with a sad look at ustadz Iqbal, I showed his condolences.

"Yes, thank you son Reyndra has come here and Zahwa also.." said Iqbal while staring at Zahwa who had been silent.

"Yes, Mr. Ustadz, then I and Zahwa say goodbye first. Assalamualaikum,"

"Assalamualaikum ustadz," Zahwa's voice sounded so raucous and trembled like he was about to cry.

"Waalaikumsalam," answered Iqbal and Annisa simultaneously.

As soon as Zahwa and Rey came out of the house, they passed Zainab who was carrying a swipe that had no idea what it contained. Zainab was stunned to see Zahwa and Rey there. His face paled, his hands trembled, mysterious gestures like being caught making a mistake.

While Rey does not seem to like the presence of Zainab there. I don't know why.

"Assalamualaikum Zainab's brother" Zahwa said with dewy eyes.

"Wa-waalaikum hail Zahwa..."

"Sister, congratulations on the marriage of my brother and mas-I mean Mr. Raihan. I'm sorry I haven't prepared a wedding present for you guys and as you know, the situation now doesn't allow to do that. May you all worship the warahmah and be together until Jannah." Zahwa's prayer was sincere, clutching his hands together in his chest. There was pain on the face of the girl when she said it.

Astagfirullahaladzim! So Zahwa knows everything?

Receiving congratulations from Zahwa made Zainab cry. His hand held Zahwa's hand, and the good friend looked at him with sorrow.

"Zahwa, it's actually me and Raihan-"

Slowly Zahwa brushed off Zainab's hand. His heart and all the jumbled up in there. Tightness, pain, disappointment, sadness.

"Just congratulations to you. Sorry, brother, I have to go home now."

"Zahwa wait!" Shouted Zainab to Zahwa.

"Where's Zahwa?" Rey dyedukan looking for the whereabouts of Zahwa in Rey's car parked. There's no Zahwa there. Rey was looking for Zahwa around the boarding school, in the car is also not there, Zahwa like disappeared without a trace.

"Where the hell are you, Nemo?" muttered Rey fretting, she took her phone in her pocket then pressed the call button on the number "My nemo"

Tut's....Tut's...

Only a connected ringtone could be heard by Rey, but there was no reply from Zahwa. Until he got in the car and found the bag, Zahwa's cell phone was there. "Had he not taken the phone from me, O Allah?" restless Rey is worried about Zahwa.

Rey leaves when she is convinced that Zahwa is not there. He thinks Zahwa may have gone home by himself.

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Rey's guess is right, Zahwa did go home alone but he didn't come home. He took a taxi and did not know where to go, it felt that if he went home he would even make his family sad because he could not resist crying. Zahwa's current feelings of sadness and disappointment were uncontrollable.

Is it natural that a human being is disappointed? Be sad? As long as it doesn't drag on in that sadness. Now Zahwa is going through a phase called heartache.

The girl cried without a sound, unconsciously the taxi driver glanced at Zahwa who was crying and looked like he was upset.

"Neng, do not be sad neng.bapak do not know what the problem is.but do not cry yes, every problem must have a way out."

"Ma-thank you sir," hurriedly the girl wiped her tears, it felt like she was a little embarrassed to be caught crying by a stranger who had just met her for the first time.

"The spirit of neng!" said the middle-aged man while smiling.

"Hehe, yes sir.I'm so embarrassed to be caught crying with you." The girl smiled, sobbing.

"Nothing neng, I do not forbid neng nangis kok.bapak just want to say, sad can but do not pass dissolved in sadness." advice sir driver to Zahwa.

"God willing sir, thank you sir." Zahwa confirmed what the driver said.

Then Zahwa decided to go to his friend named Aini. He will calm himself there and confide in one of his best friends.

Nuraini Asiyah was Zahwa's best friend in college. But they are different majors, Aini majored in management while Zahwa faculty of medicine, part dentist. Aini is from Padang and requires her to stay in Jakarta to get an education.

Aini is surprised and happy to see her best friend visit, but her smile disappears as soon as she sees Zahwa crying."The zahwa? You-"

"Don't..." Zahwa hugged his best friend while crying. Aini could feel something wet on her shirt.

"Zahwa, what's wrong with you?" ask Aini wonder.

"Huahhh..hiks..hiks.." the girl sobbed.

"Go inside first yuk!" take Aini to her best friend. The girl who had the eyes of the belo allowed Zahwa to enter her boarding house.

Aini hosted Zahwa, she brought a warm glass of tea to her best friend. They're sitting on the carpet, because there's no couch. There is only a mattress, a small bathroom and a small kitchen. There is no middle space, so the name is also kosan.

He saw the red face of Zahwa and his swollen manga. "You why cry? I'm surprised you see you cry, usually you don't cry like gini?" Aini was astonished because the Zahwa she knew would not cry like this.

"I'm fine" Zahwa replied, shaking his head, and he kept the cup on the table.

"Is this because of Raihan again?" ask Aini ketus, if you remember the man named Raihan. "No answer means really because of him?" ask Aini again.

"How dare he hurt your heart again and again! A man who looks good doesn't always make you happy, I've told you that."

"I know but I love Raihan," said Zahwa sadly.

"What's the problem now?"

"I..bakalan move on from Raihan mas,"

"Why suddenly? Aren't you the same Raihan agreed to fight?" aini said uncensored to mention the word kak in front of Raihan's name, even though Raihan is older than him. It was because he was upset at Raihan who was ashamed of disappointing his best friend, Zahwa.

With a heavy heart Zahwa said that Raihan was married, Aini was surprised not to play when she heard it and did not expect it to be so easy Raihan turned away. When Aini rambled, cursed, cursed Raihan, Zahwa laid his body on the carpet until he fell asleep.

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When Zahwa fell asleep, everyone was frantically looking for him. They know Zahwa can't do anything stupid, but worry is still anxious. Especially Zayn the brother complex.

Even by late afternoon, the two men were still looking for Zahwa. They covered up Zahwa who had left without word from Amayra. Zayn even lied about Zahwa doing chores at his friend's house.

"Where's sis? Has Zahwa met?" ask Zayn worried about Rey.

"Not Zayn, do you know the names of his friends or contacts?" ask Rey to Zayn.

"Ehm...maybe not really, if Zahwa went to his house?" muttered Zayn confused.

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