Are You Happy?

Sacrifice for mother

*I open blue album

full of dust and wear

I looked at all the pictures

small clean yet stained

I thought I was floating too

lovingly before

Remembering all the stories of people

about my history

they say I'm always spoiled

they said I was always being cheered on

beautiful tone

always lulled from her

the mischievous cry from my lips won't be his pain

The hands are pure and holy

has raised this body

body and whole life he was willing to give

they said I was always spoiled

they said I was always being cheered on

oh mother exists and you will not always be in my heart*

***flashback on

''Ti you want to marry Rastid, it's all her son Ami'' mother holds my hand, patting her on his face slowly.

''Bu Titi is still a child, and I also know I am close to Yudi, Titi Sama Yudi loves each other mom,we plan to get married after I'm 17 years old that means 3 more years, so there's still time for a Yudi to cuddle money for Titi''' marriage'' Titi replied embarrassedly while bowing her face hiding a red hue on her face.

Irma's mother thought and then she said again, But Ami's mother promised to help us Ti, the mother did not feel good to refuse her and we also need her help, Ti, with the help of Ms. Irma we will not have trouble just to eat the nak''bu Irma is still in persuading mode, she feels her body is now not as strong as it used to be,she gets sick more and more and only Titi hopes to survive, in fact she can let Titi go to work in the city but she is too worried about Titi's fate later,who knows what kind of life Titi will face in the big city, it's wrong he even fell into a bad job, not good,if Titi is married to her son Ami at least her life will be guaranteed because of the wealth of the family.

''Mother please think again, at least if you think that mother is important to you then marry Rashid, he is handsome if you do not know, then marry Rashid, I know Yudi is also a good child but I think you will be more assured of his life if the same Rashid'''mom remains firmly in his establishment.

''Where are you going, son?''

''emm. it's bu ee... Titi has promised to meet a Yudi, said a yudi want to invite me to watch the tancap screen in the village next to mom, emm can ya ma'am, because Titi has already promised'' Titi answered fearfully scared while bowing her head.

''go away, but don't go home too late, and you better start staying away from him, and I'll marry Rashid, don't be a dissident child because it's not good, you know that'' said the mother as she passed into the kitchen to prepare dishes for the afternoon.

Titi walks with high spirits because she will meet the idol, although she was worried because of the pressure of the mother but considering Yudi who always makes her heart feel depressed she became a little forgotten.

from a distance where they made a deal already seen the crowd of celebration parties that make the tancap screen as entertainment for guests, even though Titi did not know the family but he was just a passenger watching, just watching, that's not a problem because many people who also flocked Titi to watch.

Titi dizzy looking for the existence of the idol of the heart, and from far away at see Yudi is on the right side of the spectacle place talking to a girl, ehh wait who the girl is, yes, how they seem to be so familiar, I walked closer to a yudi and the girl, but when the girl held the hands of a Yudi and a Yudi quietly.

''aa '' Call me and it looks like a Yudi is aghast at my voice, but strangely the girl is getting closer to a Yudi and clasping her hands.

''ehh Titi you watch too? same who? yudi greets me as if we did not make a deal here, my heart feels cramped, sick.they still hold hands tightly as well as lovers.

whatisthis? how about a Yudi Gini? what does it mean try ?

''emm.. aa why the hell? did you forget to check in with us? who is a? what the hell do I not understand? ''hit Titi with tightness in the chest saw Yudi's affection with the girl.

''ehh you who is using ask nyolot that's the same my girlfriend'' the girl who answered my question, she let go of her hand and pointed her right hand towards me while saying ''Ira's her boyfriend A Yudi, who are you?''

Deggs...

the girl introduced herself as her boyfriend Yudi and Yudi just kept quiet not to deny.

As soon as my tears fell unbearably, I turned around and left, I walked in tears no matter how many people looked at me. when I turned my face towards Yudi because I wanted to know if he was chasing me or not but it was not. he was still standing there with his hand on the girl's lap, she said, he doesn't care at all.

I cried all the way home, I ran to get home, my head started to throb from crying for too long, yes, the journey from the spectacle in the village next door should be taken within an hour walk.

I did not expect Yudi to do that, I was ashamed I was hurt, he who used to always chase me now he appeared to me so easily, without even the slightest explanation.

Braakkkk.the door opened hard and I went in and looked for my mother.

''Ma'am, I am willing to marry her son Ami ma'am, the mother quickly went to Ami's house to determine her marriage''

''loh.' said you want to watch Yudi kok already home, very quickly'' mother looked at me in wonder.

''you cry, why the hell, what's wrong? you didn't come home in Yudi's anther?''

''mommy, don't ever mention the guy's name again, Titi doesn't want to hear, Titi's got nothing to do with the kritin anymore, isn't mom happy that Titi wants to marry her son Ami? yes, Titi will marry him only''

''well if that mother will go to the house of Ami's mother right now, yes you have not cried anymore, there you eat yadi mother has cooked'' said Ms. Irma while she then passed open the door and came out, she rushed away to her prospective besan house.

The flasback