Are You Happy?

Regrets Endless

Arriving at Irma's mother's house the three of them rushed into the house without knocking and then rushed to Irma's room, seen Irma's mother as if she was asleep, then Titi approached and checked her mother's condition, so she could see that she was asleep,Titi stiffened because when touching the body of Ms. Irma felt cold, Titi then checked the forehead of Irma and also cold, Titi's heart began to waste and Titi's heart beat faster,her blood also rippled in her alleged heart, then with a trembling hand Titi grabbed her mother's hand and checked her pulse,

Deggs...

There was no pulse, Titi's heart slipped and his eyes began to feel sore, then he checked the pulse in the neck, and it was also cold and silent, no pulse.

''Ibuuuuuu.. Titi has come mom. let's wake up, Huuuuu.hu... later Titi make favorite food mom...Titi screamed loudly while shaking Irma's body, her cries broke and she immediately hugged her mother's old body which was already cold, her cries were so bitter and reflected a lot of regret in it.

Desi fell down while covering her face with both hands, her crying also broke, she felt her knees limp and head dizzy, she cried until her body was shaken.

Rashid approached his wife and pulled her body and then clenched her tightly, patted her shoulder so that she could calm down a little, and then said

''It's been de you have to be sincere, let your mother go quietly'' said Rashid softly.

''Hhu hu hu.. mas. huaaa. mother left me mas, I have to how mas huaaa..'' sobbing Titi Pilu I both hands Rashid holding Titi's head at the bottom of the ear and then lift it so that he can see the face of his wife, Rashid looked at him channeling support power through his eyes and wiped his wife's tears and said.

''You must be strong, your mother must be taken care of, she must be bathed and tomorrow we must be buried, do not delay your mother''' persuaded Rashid gently.

''I have to go to the Neighbor's house and to the house of Mr. Rt to inform them, you prepare a 'side' cloth to cover your mother''''s body'' Rashid said as he removed his wife's face and then passed to arrange everything needed to take care of Irma's body.

There was a sound of a fart as a sign of someone who died, and the sound of broadcasts in the mosque reported the news later that night the neighbors began to arrive to help all his things the men divided the task, and,for those who can and are smart to teach them together to have a life, for others to install tent tents and arrange chairs for the mourners who attend tomorrow,the women prepare emergency kitchens and cooking ingredients for tomorrow.

Tahlil's voice echoed in a humble manner making hearts grow bitter, Titi and Desi sat quietly in a chair placed beside the table where the bodies were laid, their tears kept flowing unbearably, and the, memories from their childhood to their last moment together with Irma's mother revolve in their heads, the unfulfilled wishes of Irma's mother and the unfulfilled promises of them seemed to make them fall into regret, endless regret.

to the next day after bathing and in the cafeteria Irma's mother's body was transported to the nearest Tpu to the tomb, Titi and Desy also took their mother to her final resting place, they try to be strong so as not to cry again when their mother's body is laid in a pit.

Rashid did his duty as a child in place of Titi to perform the funeral.

After the funeral and prayers were over, they all returned to Irma's mother's house and prepared everything for Tahlilan, usually to be honored until the seventh night of death, after that, he will re-establish tahlilan on the 40th night of death.

The night after the death of Ms. Irma there was only willingness in her heritage house, a bitter smile that contained the pain of loss and do'a do'a that continued to be chanted, she said, and the longing cry of his presence can still be seen on the faces of his two daughters, Ms. Irma.

Tonight is the seventh night of tahlilan as a form of do'a together for Ms. Irma, and Titi was still in the house did not have the heart to leave her sister alone in the house, but Rashid has repeatedly invited Titi home to Rashid's parents and Titi continues to refuse because the do'a event still continues in the title,after the do'a event is finished and the rest of the event has been settled then they sit together in the middle room to discuss what and how Desi's life will be.

''If it may be Desi want to stay with uwa only in Tanjung can not wa? because if you join brother Rashid I do not want to burden them'sahut Desi, he knows that his brother's in-laws are not friendly and tend to be stingy.

''If you want to stay at home kaka also not papa Des, later you can sleep with Risya my sister''' said Rashid gave permission.

''No sis thank you for the kindness of brother, but I'd rather stay with uwa, there are many of my schoolmates so I can play with them'' Desi replied confidently.

''Yes already if it was your decision, but you should tell brother that you need help''' Rashid looked at Desi in surprise, he thought why Desi would not stay at his house, but he did not want to force the sister of his wife, even though in his heart he really sincerely wanted to invite his sister-in-law to stay at his parents' house, quotes his parents' house, as saying, Rashid did not think whether his mother would accept his sister-in-law or not, after reaching an agreement that Desi would stay in the house uwa Tanjung then they all went to rest in their respective rooms.

Rashid sleeps in the room of the former Titi sleeps first while unmarried and uwa cape sleeps with Desi in the room Desi.

the next day they separated according to their goals.

carrying out activities as usual before her death Ms. Irma.

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Titi was sitting on the bed leaning against the head of the wooden bed in the room of Rashid's house, her husband was sitting watching television in the living room, usually he also watched television but that night his mood had not improved, he was still very sad because of the loss of his beloved mother, she could only remember the peaceful face of the mother last time when she found her mother lying lifeless on her mother's bed, the tightness was still so pronounced, Titi's eyes still often arrived glazed, glassy, he closed his eyes while still remaining in a sitting position.

chekelek heard the sound of the door being opened but Titi did not budge, the place was slightly swayed a sign there was someone riding her.

''When you sleep sitting down and not lying down whispered someone Titi is the voice of her husband, she opened her eyes and the gaze of the two of them clashed, she said,rashid's position was so close that Titi could feel the warm breath coming out of Rashid's mouth as he spoke.

''i-iya mas I haven't slept yet just close my eyes for a moment, my eyes are a little sore'' muttered Titi replied with a hoarse voice like someone had finished crying.

''you're crying again yes'' Rashid stroked his wife's cheek to see if there were any tears or not.

''no kok mas I don't cry'' Titi replied then pushed a little body of her husband so that he could lie down and then intend to sleep.

''we have to start working in the fields of the pact tomorrow, our money is running low, we have to start working again, or do you want to rest at home?''

''I'll come with you to the farm, if I get bored in my own house, '' Titi replied quickly, she doesn't want to be left alone at home, not alone there is a sister-in-law and her mother-in-law but Titi does not want to, it is better to follow her husband to the farm even though it is very tiring.