Are You Happy?

when time keeps going

I crouched down while plucking the weeds that began to grow around the navel, I gathered on one side of the outer pusara, then I sprinkled flowers and sprinkled water from the bottle I brought, according to the story of my teacher when I was a child, it is said that the angel will stop giving torture according to the bad behavior of the corpse when the water and flowers placed on the navel have not dried up,so it was like taking a break to rest from the torment of the grave, so I brought the many flowers he had obtained from picking around the neighboring houses and yards, asking permission in advance

then I open the yassin book that I brought, I have taken ablution water when before leaving earlier, then I read the yassin letter until it is finished and then continued with prayer do'a as I can.

Mas Rassyid crouched down beside me and guaranteed my prayers.

after that I felt relieved, I should not be too drawn into grief, I knew I had to rise from this sadness, I had Mas Rashid who I had to serve and accompany, she was very kind to me, and she was always there when I cried.

can I depend on him? may I hope that Rashid mas is where I take refuge?

no one knows what will happen in the future.

we went home after her and cleaned up straight away, then cooked lunch and we ate together, there was my mother-in-law and sister-in-law as well.

And then we discussed the plan to build a house for me and Rashid mas to stay later, because as far as I know my sister-in-law also has a boyfriend and will soon get married, he said,but I don't know who my sister-in-law's future husband is.

Two months later our small house was finished in the building, a house that looked cool in the eyes even though it was only made of wooden walls, my mother-in-law said that if we wanted a big house we had to try to build it from our own efforts and efforts, this house was good enough for me,I thank my mother-in-law so much, I never thought that seeing her attitude at the beginning of my marriage, I wouldn't expect her to wake us up at home.

The day that awaited us today will move into our house, rasyid mas and I woke up early in the morning after the dawn prayer we immediately moved the goods that my mother-in-law had prepared to our new home, our new house was only 3 houses away from the main house owned by my mother-in-law so the process of moving goods was quite fast because it was helped by the neighbors as well.

And this was our first night in our new home, there were some neighbors who accompanied us, indeed we prepared a dish of its worth to entertain them.

malan was late and we all went to sleep, so that tomorrow we could wake up and start a routine in our new home, Rashid intended to take a day off to work in the fields for one day tomorrow.

it did not feel even one year we lived in our new home, now I am pregnant with the fruit of my love and Rashid mas, my gestation has been 4 months.

Mas Rashid was very happy when he first learned the joyous news.he ceaselessly kissed me and did not forget to stroke and kiss my stomach, although I sometimes protest because of the pangs but Rashid still kekeh always do new things that he likes, sometimes I think as sweet as this is the Rashid when his wife is pregnant? was he like that before? I became curious, wanted to ask but afraid my husband was angry, did not ask I was curious, and when there was a chance I really asked him

''Masss.. Can't I ask?''

''Ask me the question, why should I hesitate''

''But do not be angry, ''' hear that Rashid's forehead so wrinkled, what exactly would his wife ask

''iya mas won't be angry''' Rashid replied but actually his heart was doubtful, indeed what the hell is the question that provokes his emotions

''emm what used to be mas, emm first.it.. when Robi in the womb what mas also attitude like this same mother?''

He took a deep and heavy breath then his eyes looked up at the sky of their room, and said

''In the past, I did not have time to do that and Dena also did not like if her stomach was touched, and when I approached him I was immediately kicked out he said I stink. ckkk'' looks pain and anger are clearly drawn on the face and eyes of Rashid mas.

I eventually fell silent because I felt I was wrong to want to know the real past like scraping my husband's old wounds, and somehow I had a feeling of being underwearing.

And it's true

one afternoon my mother-in-law came and said that there was someone who wanted to meet Rashid but the guest wanted to see Rashid, alone and that she was waiting at my mother's house, instead of coming to our house alone, whose guest is it? kok yes strange, we already have our own house but do not want nyamperin to our house even want to meet at the mother's house plus he just wanted to see Mas Rashid only.

''who the hell do you think, why doesn't he come here, and why does he just want to see you anyway?'' I asked while frowning my forehead.

''let's see who'' take Rashid.

'loh mas, mom said I just told you not to come along'' said I, I was actually curious who thought that person.

''papa you come along, I'm afraid it will be long, and you're home alone and I'm worried.''

''no mas no papa?''

''come on''

we walked to my mother's house, Rashid took my hand, and she was like that every time we went anywhere since I was pregnant, when I asked her if she wasn't ashamed of the people who saw her? she said she would be embarrassed if she couldn't protect me, she was afraid I would fall and get hurt let alone have her baby in my womb she became overprotective, even he also does not allow me to lift the goods even though the item is not too heavy, so sweet my husband.

Arriving at the mother's house then we just entered because the door was not closed, we said greetings with an, and there was an answer from inside, the woman's voice, she said, could it be that he was looking for Rashid mas but for what?

''you ''ye? why are you looking for me again?

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