Are You Happy?

what's with my heart?

That day was the day Robi son of my husband was going to be circumcised, we all left early in the morning so as not to be late to that place, their house, they said, yes it is the house of my ex-wife from my husband that we are heading to, there is an uncomfortable feeling in my heart,actually I was reluctant to come along better I went to my mother's house to see the situation but Rashid mas forced me to come even he had bought a nice shirt for me to wear to look beautiful he said.

I never met the ex-wife of my husband, I don't know what it looks like, I heard from people he said his ex-wife was beautiful.

I walked behind Rashid with reluctance and laziness, occasionally Rashid looked back and immediately I smiled so that he did not think that he did not. all the goods we carry are put in bags and carried on the backs of Rashid, he said, so that I do not have any difficulties and achievements and we arrive at that place.

Their house is gedong (a house whose walls are made of red brick piles wrapped in a mixture of cement and sand) because in our place there are still many wooden-walled houses so this type of house is called a gedong house (building)

The house was as big as the house of the Rashid parents we lived in, only this house was neater and there were many flowers planted in pots and neatly arranged,today is a circumcision event and tomorrow is the new feast of ''his celebration.

We decided to come today because the circumcision process was more important than the party.We came with my mother-in-law and sister-in-law.

''ahh Robi see your father has come, let's salim first'' exclaimed his mother Robi the ex-wife of my husband, my husband, Robi approached and greeted her father and grandmother and aunt but she did not greet me, even though my hands have been stretched out, my heart melos, it feels uncomfortable like being bitten by a red ant, but the woman just silenced her son's behavior and even rose a smile on the lips of the woman.

''Robi. nak this father's wife Her name is mama Titi ayoo you salim the same she used to be'' Rashid said with soft sanga to his son, while stroking his head, once in his eyes the longing, was visible, longing that pent up for years, I know he must love his children, who are parents who do not love their children even though circumstances force them not to be able to live together.

''Don't want Robi not to know the aunt''' replied Robi ketus, immediately my face and my eyes heat up because of shame and sadness, why did his son Mas Rashid not want to admit me as the wife of his father? and it's not even polite to refuse me just to shake hands.

''Son't be like that.he's a wife father now, just like your mama who has a new husband''' Rasheed's voice still remains soft, but his face has started to turn red.

''it's not a big deal'' because Robi doesn't want to greet your wife, it's not a big deal' ex-wife exclaimed annoyed that her son was forced to greet me even though he refused.

''already mas no papa''m mumbling slowly while turning away from shame, apparently we are being a spectacle of many people, neighbors and relatives of his mama Robi family, oh shame..

''you can't do that dong, you don't teach Robi what manners? exclaiming Rashid with his gaze pointed at his ex-wife with a high tone that no doubt made more people gather to find out what happened, they whispered whispering about the Rashid mas, he said, some of them knew Rashid because he used to live in the house while undergoing marriage with his mother Robi until he was in campakan and returned to his parents' house due to illness, they did not want to bother taking care of Rashid who was lying in a coma.

''already mas Robi is still a child he does not know what is right and wrong, just let it go first mas'' I said while then reaching for Rashid's hand and holding him so that Rashid's emotions subsided and his usual was always successful.

''Yes, let's go in if you still want to follow Robi's circumcision process, don't do much you do mas'' exclaimed mama Robi ketus.

geez, very strict attitude, so this is the woman who used to be loved by my husband, what was he blind what was being touched how a woman like it to be loved,she is beautiful but is it enough just beautiful, know where they both are?

The circumcision process went smoothly, Rashid gave gifts and even an envelope filled with enough money as a form of responsibility to his son Robi Rashid, after that we say goodbye, I am grateful because Rashid immediately invited us home,I felt like I was short of breath and almost fainted because I was tired and the pressure of the bathin to see and hear the whispers of people around me who had no idea what to talk about, but they were talking while glancing at me and there was even someone pointing at me, it felt really uncomfortable, somehow with my heart.

we got home in the afternoon and I cleaned my body and went to the room, I happened to not need to cook because it was given a kind of ''bless'' (the hand of the party who invited the invited party) if in the city called souvenirs but the difference is composed of cooked food, rice, vegetables, side dishes and even wet cake.

I immediately lay myself in bed feeling very tired, my legs ache all, you can imagine walking for an hour, he said, we even go through a winding path like in the ninja hatori cartoon that climbs the mountain through the valley, I don't even care about Rashid who is bathing,I didn't set up his shirt so he'd take it himself.

when I opened my eyes I was shocked and automatically woke up and shouted.

''you say the mas'' instead of moving Rashid even smiled and whispered, I want you de'''Rasyid whispered, she looked at her husband's face above her and they almost stuck to each other, then Rashid continued what she had started.

finished with the activities of their favorite Rashid cleaning themselves and then back lying down while hugging, there arrived a person who knocked on the door of the house with a loud voice and like a rush.

tok tok...

tok tok..

''ka kaka assalamualaikum.this is me desi ka. ka open the door ka'' exclaimed someone outside the door.

I flinched and immediately went out of the room to the door, I recognized it was my brother's voice, what was wrong .

''What is Des. kok you come here tonight, you are the same who'' asked Titi panicked, because there must be something urgent so that Desi came to the house this night.

''sister's mother's mother''' replied Desi stammered.

Deggs....

''mom why Des?'' Titi asked while shaking Desi's body because Desi was just that.

''There's Des,ayo here enter first then you say what''' Rashid asked, he wondered what exactly happened.

''Let's go home brother mother sick sister he's like he's breathing kak'' exclaimed Desi who accompanied by tears because of panic sad and confused.

''I turned to Rashid and hoped we could go to Mom's house soon.

''let's see what happens to mom'' said Rashid, quick, he closed the door and locked it from the outside and immediately pulled Titi's hand to hold it and immediately left half-run towards Irma's mother's house.

#what really happened!

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