Akara Longs for the Waiting

8 (Zayankara Kai'ulani)

Since Rena's departure, Kai has still dissolved in his mind. Rena's words just now really make the guilt in themselves increasingly out. Without being told, he was very aware that his actions a year ago were wrong. It shouldn't be!

Let alone Meysa, he himself was very hurt because of his choice at that time. A year ago, he was lucky to find Meysa, the Moon he met at the time of the night. They are two people who both intend to entertain the heart, trying to solve problems in the same way and ended up being reunited with each other.

Just like Meysa, her feelings for the girl were huge. It is unexpected that a story that only starts from a type of fingertips can turn into love. Kai feels very lucky to meet Meysa who turns out to have something in common with him, both like writing, making Kai seem to find the right port for his poems, moreover, the response Meysa gave was always incredible. Simple indeed, but it was able to make him feel appreciated because in his world he was always considered strange just because he often wrote verse.

It's not just about the rhyme. Each day exchanging stories through messages makes it feel on the Moon is increasing. Not infrequently both do the phone, do random things just to fill the void. Until the relationship is serious. Start discussing all future plans until the meeting. But at that time the situation was not possible, Kai was still a student who was struggling to achieve a dream. What can a child of that age do other than just putting together wishful thinking and praying. They are not two people who come from rich families and can have meetings at any time if you want. There are many things to be prepared and considered.

Kai can only convince Meysa if he really wants to.

“I love you, Bul!"

“Me too, Tang!"

The conversation over the phone began ringing in Kai's head. Those beautiful memories began to spin one-on-one in memory.

“If you're sure of me, I'll try and fight until we meet.”

“I will wait until then arrive!”

“Bee, let's both pray with God. May what we want be blessed by Him, for I believe in the power of the do'a. No matter how strong our efforts are if He does not approve of our relationship, we will not be fooled, bee. However, no matter how far apart we are, if He approves of it, we will be fooled no matter how difficult it may be. Looks like we should ask God directly, bee, because as good as the instructions are a guide from Him, so that we are both more sure!”

So he said it first when trying to convince Meysa and invite her to fight. Other than the Moon, Bee is the affectionate call they use. I can't imagine how sweet their relationship was at the time. It was only fitting that Meysa was so hurt after losing the Star, even the girl until it was difficult to open her heart again.

“But, if in your waiting there are people who want to be with you. Choose her bee, I can't make you wait, I'm sincere as long as you're happy!"

“Husst, don't say that! I want you, so it's just you!”

However, life does not just go smoothly. Suddenly doubt comes when Kai tries to strengthen himself in the middle of their relationship. At that time, he did not have a permanent job.

“Bee, you still want to hang on and wait for me after seeing how difficult my life is? I'm afraid I can't make you happy when I'm with me."

As soon as Kai asked Meysa when he was back in the difficult phase. College while maintaining the sister shop is his side job, not infrequently he also often helped make interior design, the job that his brother gave.

“Whatever the circumstances, I want to always be with you, bee! Win you from below and witness your success, someday!”

In Pekanbaru Kai lives alone in a distro clothing store owned by his brother who has a family and also settled in the city. Kai lived his daily life like a young man who studied in general. He is not the type to ask parents a little. At that time Kai was really in a difficult phase. Moreover, his busyness on campus and the tasks that accumulate make his head almost broken. He decided to calm down first.

Some days the Star does not accompany the Moon. Kai realizes he is wrong, he should not ignore Meysa, let alone messages and some missed calls from the girl have piled up on his cell phone notification. Not wanting to ignore or not care. It's just that Kai is really dizzy with his complicated life. Since getting to know Meysa and having a virtual relationship with the girl, he usually will spill grievances on her, they always share with each other. However, for this time Kai is really at a slump and does not want to burden Meysa with his problems.

His life is sometimes difficult, but Kai is not a young man who only asks parents. According to him, he is not worth asking for money in parents, he is the type of person who if given to take, if not will not ask.

Ask her about how she could make Meysa happy if this is how she's getting closer. Considering his life was quite difficult, then how can make people happy? This is a turning point for a Kai, his love for Meysa is great, but he is afraid to promise anything to the girl. Since then Kai began to rarely tell Meysa, he was indifferent, as if he did not want the girl. Meysa always questioned her change of attitude, from the ever-obvious to the slowly starting infrequent

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Month :

What the hell are you? If you're bored, don't do this!

Where was my old star? Who said he promised to fight together, why now even lost?

Don't stop us from getting away so you can.

I lost your light in the thick of the night!

Though you once promised that we will be together until the end, but why is this when it is half way!

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Her heart was sliced through every string of messages from Meysa. However, he could do nothing but only condemn the situation.

“Sorry-sorry to me, Bul! Not that I don't love, but I'm afraid to give you hope, my life is hard! I'm afraid for you to wait for something in vain!” lirih Kai at that time.

A message from Meysa came in.

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Month :

It turns out you just need me to be fit again alone, I always try to be there for you but you can treat me like this!

^^^Stars :^^^

^^^You misunderstood, Bee! I had no intention of that at all.^^^

Month :

Bullshits!! Just like you need me when I'm lonely. I also just need you to fill my free time.

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From then on his relationship with Meysa began to be bickering, but Kai could not do anything at all. He no longer persuaded Meysa not to get angry, Kai also no longer explained at length. He only said one word 'Sorry!' every time Meysa sends him a message of heartache.

Not no matter, honestly he was hurt to endure pain. Every day Kai had to hold tight when reading a series of messages from Meysa. Until then, maybe Meysa was tired, the girl no longer sends a message because she herself never replied to him. Even if it is answered most only the word Sorry.

Sick? It poignant? Sure was! The days that Kai went through were getting heavier without the Moon. Even when she was no longer able to contact Meysa, the girl blocked all access to communication between them. Of course, all because of wrong and Kai himself. He started it all, but he was tormented.

A few months after that, Kai graduated, he became an engineering scholar. After that he started looking for work, really pioneering everything from the beginning. All can not be separated from the help of the brother. Kai tried to struggle in the property sector, not infrequently he medapat job to design the interior of large buildings such as apartments, and housing and even design for other large projects.

Kai's life gradually began to change, he could save and help his parents' finances in the village. Kai is grateful for his slightly brighter life change. All can not be separated from the help of his brother and his hard work.

Time has indeed passed. However, time does not make him forget the Moon, a virtual love figure that is still attached to the heart until now. It turned out that he still made the girl his destination, monitoring her through the fake account he created. He was happy to see it even though he was just an instastory spectator without exchanging news like before.

His feelings for the Moon were still the same, he still linked the name as his number one destination. From the beginning of his career, Kai always set aside savings just to meet the girl. Whatever the circumstances and whatever the situation Kai is determined to meet the Moon, he misses the girl he found so desperately that night.

To this day, he came to the city of the Moon. At first he was desperate when he saw the mooring of his heart was holding a baby while chatting with a man in uniform. He almost left, but his steps were blocked. In his heart Kai tried to strengthen himself that whatever happened he stayed and had to meet the girl. That made him dare to greet Meysa first

“You have a child?" Those words just came out of his mouth.

The thing that pleased her the most was when Meysa turned her head in shock and immediately explained everything to her. He was grateful, that meant he still had a chance to have the Moon. Being able to see it directly like this really made Kai's heart beat violently, if he could cry then he wanted to cry right then and there. If he could hug, he would probably embrace the Moon right then and there. However, he can still control himself and knows the limits.

“I Love you deepest for your dearest!" Those words were only able to be spoken from within the heart, through a fairly close distance. No longer through the device or even from the distance of the island and the ocean that stretches.

Faza's kindness when enthusiastically welcoming him really makes Kai happy and memorable. The person he used to know only through Meysa's images and stories is a good figure.

Now Kai is still pensive to think about the famous words of Rena just now.