Akara Longs for the Waiting

18

Kai drove the motor at medium speed towards the complex park. The road is quite easy to memorize, just turn right from the direction of the house, then straight then he will arrive at a small park near the entrance gate, so he does not have to use the instructions from the maps again.

It did not take long Kai had arrived in front of the park, he parked the Rena motorbike beside the buyers who were eating snacks on the edge of the park. From there Kai could see Meysa was indeed with a male figure.

With a steady and confident feeling Kai stepped towards Meysa.

“Meysa!" exclaimed Kai, which made the two people who were chatting seriously turn to him.

Meysa and Erza looked back at each other, the man Kai knew only by name also stood up, followed by Meysa. ”I'm first yes Mey, still no business!" he said that he said goodbye after Kai's arrival.

Meysa nodded. “Be careful, Za! Thanks for the somay and the time."

“Luck Mey, kayak with whoever you are!"

And Kai is still an observer between the two interactions.

“I first!"

Kai smiled back as Erza turned to him while smiling to greet him.

“Remember what I said, Mey!" Before actually stepping up, Erza again reminded Meysa of the input she gave earlier, the girl just nodded. Erza began to leave, then entered her parked yellow sedan car.

Now only the awkwardness that exists between the Moon and the Star. Not together in a long time makes the separation increasingly become a real separator. But it did not last long, because Kai first opened a chat with the Moon who no longer avoid it for many reasons.

“Can I talk to you for a minute?"

Hearing that Meysa immediately sat back on the wooden bench. “Please!" Although with an indifferent face, Meysa still invited while telling Kai to sit down.

“Where have you been?”

“Not anywhere!" sahut Meysa indifferently.

“He hurt? Why don't you go home?" kai asked, he was really worried about Meysa.

“I'm fine!"

Kai closed his eyes with his breath exhaled softly while turning the other way hearing Meysa's short and narrow reply.

“Mey!" kai said gently, the young man's gaze was completely filled with guilt. “I'm sorry if I was wrong with you.” He knew that Meysa was still very angry and disappointed in him.

“You have nothing wrong with me!" Honestly, Meysa's tears were almost dripping at the Star's apology. But he still tried to stop himself from crying.

Meysa was still unable to express what it felt for everything to be finished like Erza said earlier. His heart wanted to say but his mind refused to do so, he was still not that brave.

“I've been wrong with you a lot, Mey!" kai continued with an anxious and regretful look.

Meysa closed her eyes to hold back the feeling of tightness and tried to keep looking fine.

“I know you're just trying to avoid me.” Kai sighed again, Meysa's silence really made her this sick.

A year Kai had managed not to tell Meysa, but during that time his mind was tormented by having to go through the day without news of the girl. All he was forced to do because he was afraid to give any hope, afraid of not being able to fulfill all. But now the conditions are different, Kai is grateful after graduation got a job and some he set aside to come to meet the Moon.

“Mey, can't we be like we used to?"

Meysa narrowed her eyes at Kai's words which made her have the courage to let out her heart after this.

“What?" his sergeant with a face demanded an answer. “Did I not hear wrong?” Even Meysa was smiling cynically. “What was our relationship like?”

Those words made Kai stupefied, even though it sounded striking. However, this is what Kai hopes, communication and expressing the contents of each other's hearts can certainly make the problems that occur more quickly resolved. Even so Kai kept trying to calm down to hear what Meysa said.

“You never know what it's like to heal a wound, treat it until it's completely healed?” Meysa looked at Kai with a sharp look.

“You definitely don't know how it feels to be hurt, you won't understand! And now that you've come to ask for everything back the way it used to be, my wounds aren't dry yet!" meysa shouted a little loudly. Luckily there was no one around the park, so there was no need to worry about anyone listening. Because people really prefer to gather while eating snacks on the side of the road.

“Sorry!" Kai lowered. “I'm really sorry for hurting you, I let you down too much!"

Meysa was indeed so fast to melt every time Kai explained anything, because it was indeed at that time he was too overprotective, too, taking issue every time Kai is slow to reply to his message and doing anything without telling him is always a trigger for hygiene. All because Meysa likes Kai so much plus long-distance relationships often make him bad-minded, while the conditions at that time they have never met.

“I admit I was as bad as you, but I have a reason why you did that, at least you want to listen to my explanation first." Kai said with a pleading face.

“After hearing my explanation, I hope there is still a little gap in your heart for me to go back in and fix all.”

Meysa immediately chuckled at Kai's words. Deep down, he was happy and moved to hear the intentions and hopes of the Star who still wanted a chance to improve their relationship. However, he immediately changed course when he remembered Rena's speech last night and how hurt he was when left alone by this man.

“Kai, Kai,” Meysa clucked while staring at Kai. “Where are you going to go in?”

“You think you're that special, that was I was just pretending. You think I'm still thinking about you after our relationship ends?"

“You can't lie to Mey!" concluded Kai. Not that he wanted to be pretentious and confident, but the info he got from Meysa that night was enough to make him sure that the Moon was indeed closed heart as long as it was not with him.

“I know everything and I'm so grateful that you've done it!"

“Don't be too confident and pretentious!"

“I know, Mey! So for that please hear my explanation first yes, after that it is up to you to want to respond to it in what way, I will accept.”

However, instead of heeding Kai's words, Meysa continued to spout words. It was as if he was retaliating through hurtful speech. Meysa seemed to want Kai to also feel the pain he had been experiencing all this time.

“ But actually all this time I did not have any taste to you, Kai. Do you really think I'm that special, so you're looking for me here just to ask my heart back?"

“Originally you know Kai, I used to just mess with you, even after you lost my usual news!" Meysa smiled fakely. Behind that painful smile was a huge wound. His heart and mind were at war condemning what he had just said. Lying to yourself just because you want revenge and obey your ego.

“I used to just pretend to love the same, so you can accompany my emptiness.”

Kai was completely unaffected by Meysa's words. Although their relationship used to be stretched by distance, but he was used to it and often faced Meysa at times like this. It's just that now the situation is different, they are dealing with each other for real. Regardless of what Kai had done, he tried to understand Meysa's attitude. To Kai, it was only natural that Meysa was angry.

“I know what you're doing just to make you look like a bad guy, right? I know how you are and unfortunately you failed, Mey! Feelings can't be lied to, don't lie to your feelings!" kai said trying to warn patiently and gently.

“Who is pretending?" meysa said.

For a long time he had not shown this kind of attitude, arrogant and annoying. Usually he only behaves like this in front of people who are regretted and at this time he is indeed expressing emotions to Kai. Although he did this time in the midst of worrying about whether he had chosen the right decision, was his attitude towards Kai not excessive? Remembering the Star willing to come all the way just to make an apology and want to explain everything well. He should have listened to that explanation, not even acting like an antagonist like this.

“Don't make any conclusions, you don't know me that well, and I'm not as good as Meysa you knew a year ago!”

“I know you, I also know what you are!" sergeant Kai is still on his feet and has not given up.

“That short time is not enough to make you know me well!" concluded Meysa who had previously spoken adapted to the language Kai uses, as the language they often use first.

“But it feels like the short time we have carved together is enough for me to know that you are good!”

Patient stock already Kai prepared, he will not be ignited emotions just because of something like this. Meysa is his goal, apologizing and explaining everything is what he is obliged to do. Because Kai knows he's the most guilty here.

“Maybe you can use this mask, but you can't trade your little heart!" Kai's face looks sad.

“Not everything you can do without a heart, you have a small heart that makes your good instincts appear! You are indeed a good person, from the past until now you have always been good!" kai asserted. Meysa was no longer able to speak. Because from the beginning Kai can always break every argument.

“Already!" Meysa stood up and prepared to move, making Kai swiftly come to his feet and observe Meysa's movements.

“I'm tired, I want to go home! The point is you do not need to apologize or explain anything because all this time our relationship is not as special, all this time I just pretended to love you. Even after your departure I was absolutely fine!”

“You're not that important!"

“Yes, I want to go home first. Don't forget to go home too!”

“Mey!" Intercept Kai as Meysa was about to step away.

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