Akara Longs for the Waiting

71. Ended Up Here

“I beg you to give me a chance bee, I can't without you!"

“I really love you!"

“I know I'm wrong, I'm selfish because I haven't had time for you!"

Meysa just silently heard a long speech from the man across the phone.

After being able to disable his phone for a day and a day to avoid Kai and after being activated Meysa immediately made to be careless when seeing incoming messages from people who have often disappointed him.

There have even been more than dozens of incoming calls from Kai that he ignored since last night. Meysa, who spent a full day at Rena's house, watched the mappaci procession before her best friend's H-1 wedding, never held a phone. On this late night, Meysa, who had just returned from Rena's house, decided to pick up Kai's phone which he had ignored for two days and two nights since Kai repeated the same mistake again, repeated mistakes become a problem in their relationship.

And, when appointed Meysa decided to end all. He is too tired if he has to be stressed every day because of the same problem.

Kai, who certainly does not want it to happen, continues to apologize, begging Meysa not to end the relationship they have built for more than three years since they first met.

“Udah kai, what else would you like to maintain?!" said Meysa who tried to speak with a cold head. He is no longer like Meysa, who is always angry and demands that Kai always prioritize and give him news. Now he looks indifferent to what Kai said. If he was so quick to melt, now his heart is frozen because it is disappointed with the same mistakes continuously.

The constant repetition of events makes Meysa realize that he cannot force the will to make things work as he wants. One does not have to be as he wants to be forever. This incident made Meysa realize if someone who is really prioritized does not need to demand an effort and demand his partner to pay attention. If they are true love and affection, of course they will be noticed without having to beg as he has been doing all this time.

“I realize that all this time I've been demanding too much, I'm always thirsty for attention and want to be prioritized."

“Bee!" lirih Kai shook his head, He could not hear Meysa's words.

“Call me for asking a lot of things if I am not that important in your life, until whenever I will not be able to get all that because maybe in your heart there is no me!" lirih Meysa's. His chest was tight, but his tears were like they were dry, nothing had hatched when he felt like he wanted to cry.

“Bee, no I think like that! I was wrong, but what you said was not true!" sela Kai's. Indeed, at a time like this he realized his mistake, he was confused by himself who always repeated the same thing and ended up hurting the girl he loved so much.

“I know I was wrong, but please don't think like that. Even until now my feelings for you are still the same, nothing has changed!" he tries to convince. ”Just maybe my way is wrong, I don't know why something like this should happen again in a day!" said Kai. He didn't want Meysa to keep thinking like that. Because really, no matter how busy he is, his love for the girl remains the same. It will never change.

“Huuuhh!"

Making Kai look down with tears in his eyes when he heard Meysa moan long. He knew Meysa was already disappointed in him. Kai realizes this is one form of hurdle in their relationship.

“But why Kai?"

Kai, who was looking down while pressing his nose, immediately tried to focus when Meysa asked again.

“Why do you treat me like an unimportant person, not a priority!"

“And I never asked for anything but news!"

Kai nodded painfully while propping up his forehead using his hands. What Meysa said made her guilt even bigger.

“But why should it be so hard to do it. Though our relationship depends only on that, Kai!"

“Even I always try to understand your busyness! Is it wrong that I'm angry because you didn't tell me?" meysa jolted with a shriveled forehead holding back miserably.

The barrage of words coming out of Meysa's mouth made Kai mute. Meysa's question is like a slap that resuscitates her.

“Even every time you repeat the same thing I always understand and forgive!"

“Which one more thing I don't love, huh?" sergeant Meysa was puzzled by the slight elevating of the voice.

Meysa took a deep breath, trying to calm herself down. Her chest was so tight it revealed all.

Her heart ached considering how Kai had not given her the news all day but that night she could go to the party. Moreover, it was the birthday party of someone who had once made her jealous.

Once again Meysa smiled bitterly, He took a deep breath and again said. ”And thank you for that too I can be aware!'

"Bee!" lirih Kai's. I hope Meysa stops. But the girl who was already disappointed seemed to not intend to continue the relationship that repeatedly had made him crowded.

“I'm self-aware, I'm not worth that much in your life!"

“I resigned, Kai!"

“Freely I tried to wait for you, trying to defend the relationship that every day makes me sick and disappointed but you even love like this every day!" meysa's words sounded so heartbreaking.

“I can wait for you at any time, but I can't bear the pain of being disappointed because of your attitude!"

“I surrender!

“Bee, please, stop!" cut Kai. But Meysa who does not care continues to release all of his heart.

“I surrender all the same God!

“If we are destined to be a match, God will surely unite us and bring us closer!"

“But bee!" sidelines Kai again from behind the phone, his voice sounds sad holding back tears.

“Please appreciate my decision!" concluded Meysa who does not want to be contested.

Making Kai nod at meysa's decision, it didn't feel like the man's tears just melted away. He knows his mistakes are so mounting, even Meysa can no longer tolerate them all.

Kai took a deep breath. Not wanting to force does not mean he no longer loves Meysa, but Kai just does not want to hurt Meysa more by continuing to incite the same disappointment. Kai tried to appreciate even though his heart had to hold back the pain.

Kai closed his eyes repeatedly at Meysa's words, he took a deep breath before saying “OK, I appreciate your decision, but please don't remove or block my wa." Pinta Kai honestly can't do that.

Kai doesn't want meysa to block everything they used to communicate.

“I want to always know how you are, please don't block me! I hope you agree!"

Meysa took a deep breath in hearing Kai's words. He smiled bitterly, the man was so quick to agree to all the decisions he made. It made Meysa realize, Kai was always like this. Never even tried to defend, if in the past every time Kai became a person who easily resigned and agree with all his words, certainly Meysa will say 'Oh so your efforts are only this, so you are just this, even you are easily resigned and do not want to try to make me!' as soon as Meysa said whenever Kai showed a resigned attitude. However, this time he no longer provoked Kai with such words in order to be defended. His disappointment this time was quite great and Kai's repeated mistakes were enough to make him aware.

Meysa then took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. “Please, I won't block you!" decided. ”We are not children anymore who if there is a problem must play block, I also want to release without revenge. I'll try my best!" meysa agreed.

While Kai continues to look down while massaging the base of the nose. It's tough to be in this situation. But he also does not want to impose the will, not because it is not laagi love. It was just that he realized, the wound that was scratched on Meysa was already too deep. He was even ashamed of himself constantly repeating the same mistakes despite being apologized.

See you at the best point according to fate, bee! May God take care of you for me, I love you! So darling! Lirih Kai inwardly from behind the phone still connected to Meysa. It's just that they are still both silent, dissolved in each other's minds. With Kai continuing to look at the memorable photos when he met Meysa a year ago.

Waitme! O Allah protect him, guard his heart when I can no longer keep and hold his heart. All I leave to you. Look at my seriousness that has been trying hard to justify it. You know best, You know what is in my heart, how much I want it and all my efforts to make it my halal lover!

Kai still muttered while staring at Meysa's photo.

Unexpectedly, the relationship that has been established for almost four years must run aground in the middle of the road. From behind the phone Kai and Meysa are still both silent while holding back miserably.

The most regretful party here is of course Kai, because he is the cause of the blessing of their relationship this time.