A Hope Above the Wait

20. Ayan is Ijaz

A few days later, Jasmin was seen sitting on a chair in the room occupied by Samira. A brown book was seen in front of him waiting for Jasmin to write an outpouring of heart.

Moments later, the white and delicate hand moved the hand with a pen in the hand.

With tears, he wrote....

It is not the heart in the bars, which is occupied by one man. Not a mind that is gambled with a decision but only an illusion of hope that bears fruit.

Confusion of the heart to set a goal, a beautiful goal that produces a light. Light upon a wound caused by a word.

When the moment has come, then the time to go must happen. Where there will be a parting that shackles, between the same hearts equally wounded.

After writing that sentence, a drop of tears fell on one of the books before him. Realizing that, Jasmin who was writing the sentence immediately slowly wiped away her tears that soaked her eyes, then he closed the book and went to the room he had with Samira in the house of the Word.

"Jasmin" called the Word after he saw the woman he loved coming out of the bedroom.

"Mas," Jasmin replied with a small smile then he walked slowly closer to the Word. However, when he was near the Word he actually passed through the Word by lowering his head.

Realizing that, Firman just kept silent with a look of eyes looking at Jasmin.

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Time passed by so quickly, it was seen that the man Jasmin loved had come with a bouquet of flowers for Jasmin. At that time, Jasmin was in the garden of the house of the Word, seeing Ayan's arrival to the house of the Word, Jasmin looked very happy. He then hugged Jasmin tightly, on the other hand saw Word coming out of the house looking happy and he also brought a flower for Jasmin.

Seeing Jasmin and Ayan embrace, Firman looked very sad. He was angry and upset but somehow he felt that he should not feel it.

Arrive suddenly......

Firman sees flashbacks in the past where he sees the closeness between Ayan and Jasmin, but at that time what is seen in his mind is invisible and still a secret in the living Word.

It was screaming for the sake of screaming at the Word and he wriggled around in pain by holding his head and hitting his head. Seeing that, Jasmin and Ayan went straight to the Word and helped the Word, and, but somehow at that time Firman refused to be helped by Jasmin and insisted to walk alone with a sense of sakita is very unusually greedy considering a glimpse of the shadow of his past. 

However, at that time Ayan and Jasmine still help the Word, but when he was held by Jasmin and Ayan, because of a very tremendous pain to make the Word banging his head against the wall. Seeing that, Jasmin cried hysterically. He tried to separate the Word from the wall.

At that time, Ayan was also confused he contacted the doctor and tried to separate the Word from the wall to help Jasmine.

After several times banging his head against the wall, the Word arrived immediately unconscious and fell into Jasmin's embrace. Jasmin who saw that, he immediately hugged the Word tightly with tears flowing down his cheeks.

Not long after the doctor called by Ayan also came, at that time Word was lying on the bed with unconsciousness. Ayan was beside Jasmin who was standing near the Word. At that time Ayan's hand was seen hugging Jasmin who looked sad with what had been seen by his eyes.

"Mr Jasmin, please help this incident not to be repeated again. Because this is very dangerous for Mr. Word's life!" say the doctor who checks the Word after he finishes checking the Word.

Hearing this, Jasmin and Ayan nodded their heads indicating that they understood what the doctor was saying. After that, Ayan also drove the doctor who examined the Word out of the house to go home.

When Ayan and the doctor were out of the house, the doctor reminded Ayan again that what happened today did not happen again in the next day. Ayan, hearing what the doctor was talking about, nodded his head as a sign that he understood what the doctor was saying. After that, the doctor also left the house occupied eh Firman.

In the room Jasmin sat beside the Word holding one of the Word's hands before him. With tears flowing down her cheeks, Jasmin held onto her gently.

"Why can you do that, Mom? Why?" jasmin asked in sorrow and tears, holding the hand of the Word.

A little while later, Ayan came to the room occupied by the Word. Seeing that, Ayan just kept silent with his eyes that seemed to be turning red as if he was holding back the sadness in his eyes. It happened because he felt that the woman he loved still loved the Word.

Seeing Jasmin's sadness, Ayan really shed tears. He looked very sad with what he had seen, but at that time he still covered his sorrow in front of Jasmin.  

Just then, with a slow step Ayan approached Jasmin. When he was near Jasmin, he held onto one of Jasmin's shoulders with tenderness and a face that looked like one was holding back his grief.

Realizing that his shoulder was held by Ayan, Jasmin only looked sad and his eyes were filled with tears.

"Everything will be fine, the Word will be fine. You have to be sure of that" said Ayan gently and then he took his hand off Jasmin's shoulder slowly and after that he turned to leave Jasmin waiting for Word. Realizing that, Jasmin grew sadder, he immediately stood up from his seat and chased Ayan. When he was near Ayan, he held Ayan's hand gently and with tears running down his cheeks.

"I won't leave you, nor do I want to leave you. I just want to rest for a moment, feel a wait you've ever felt! I see, there are three hearts tied together here, but... One heart bond is already fragile and will soon be severed."

Hearing that remark, Jasmin really could not say a word. He just remained silent with his eyes looking at Ayan who was also sad at what Ayan had said.

"What do you mean you say that?" jasmin replied with confusion and sadness. He then brought his body closer to Ayan and he held Ayan's cheek gently while sticking his forehead to Ayan's forehead. "Listen to me, our bond will not be separated from each other. The bond of our hearts will be forever awake, I cannot possibly keep you in the same feeling.. Just like I felt before, I won't be able to do it!."

The roar of tears kept flowing soaked Jasmine and Ayan's cheeks. Sadness over his love that the Word must separate, occurs. The fear of loss felt by Jasmin.

A while later, he moved his hand that was holding his cheek close to Ayan's hand. When he felt his hand was near Ayan, Jasmin held Ayan's hand very tightly with her forehead still attached to Ayan's forehead.

"I beg you not to go" Jasmin pleaded with great sadness.

"I'm not leaving, maybe this is Jasmin's destiny. I feel, my mistake in the past that I did to you. "said Ayan then he stopped his words for a while and sighed heavily. "Now this is the punishment!."

Hearing that remark, Jasmin looked surprised, his eyes widened and he looked speechless. He just kept quiet by stepping back away from Ayan, it happened because he was aware of the words spoken by Ayan. He realized that the person named Ayan was the male Ijaz whom he had once loved.

"Ijaz.." Jasmin called Ayan in a soft, quivering voice. He doesn't feel like he believes that. However, at that time Ayan actually convinced Jasmin that the man in front of him was Ijaz.

Hearing that Ayan continued to say that he was Ijaz, Jasmin who was sick of hearing that out loud yelled at Ayan to shut up and not say a word.

Hearing that scene, Ayan remained silent.

Seeing Ayan speechless after hearing his snaps, he rushed over to Ayan and pulled the collar of the clothes Ayan was wearing.

"That's enough! It is enough that you mention Ijaz here, if you are indeed Ijaz. A man I once loved, why did you come back into my life? Why?" jasmin asked nicely and was still low-pitched. Seeing that, Ayan remained silent and did not say a word.

"WHY?!!!" jasmin snapped and pushed Ayan and removed the collar of the clothes Ayan was wearing. Ayan who received the urge just kept quiet and accepted the urge with resignation, without trying to calm Jasmin down.

"Why?" jasmin said after he pushed Ayan from his presence.

Seeing Jasmin who was angry with him already looked calmer, he approached Jasmin and held Jasmin's hand, but at that time he refused. Ayan who realized the right was constantly trying to hold Jasmin's hand, but still the same Jasmin continued to refuse.

Realizing that, without saying, Ayan immediately hugged Jasmin tightly with a drop of tears that soaked her cheeks. In contrast to Ayan, receiving a hug from Ayan, Jasmin looked increasingly sad and he was getting hysterical.

He thrashed to release himself from the embrace of the Word by saying that he did not believe that the person in front of him was the man he had loved in his past. However, reality cannot be changed, now Jasmin must accept the fact that the man named Ayan is the Ijaz man who gave a wound in Jasmin's heart.

As Ayan hugged Jasmin, she softly hugged Jasmin.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry I hurt you again. But this time I promise, what happened in the past is the work of Ijaz, not Ayan. Ayan will only treat what has been scratched, although Ayan knows that the scratch will not be able to easily disappear!."

Hearing this, Jasmine remained silent and cried. At that time his hand seemed to want to return the embrace of the man, but it was not he did, I don't know what made Jasmin stop what he wanted.

Feeling that Jasmin had calmed down, Ayan let go of his embrace and he held onto both of Jasmin's arms.

"I beg you to trust me, I am indeed the same person. But I'm not Ijaz, Ijaz is dead. He died the day you married the Word!."

Hearing that remark, Jasmine was still silent and did not say a word. He just looked at Ayan's eyes, which were filled with tears.

Seeing that, Ayan moved his hand and grabbed Jasmin's hand. When his hand was in Jasmin's hand, he moved Jasmin's hand towards his chest.

"For Ijaz, there's no Jasmin in this place, but... For Ayan, for the sake of her love she must be willing to wait, to wait and write words to string the hope of the heart to the person we love!" ayan said with sadness and eyes that kept looking at Jasmin.

Jasmin who realized that he was just silent with tears that kept flowing down his cheeks. Then, slowly he brought his body closer to Ayan, after he was close to Ayan he attached Jasmin's ear to Ayan's chest.

It was then for a while that he fell silent with dreamy eyes to hear Ayan's heartbeat. Ayan who realized that he could only be silent and could not say a word. He only tried to endure his grief in front of Jasmin.