A Cold Frozen Hearts

Eps. 45 Why not trust me

“There is a saying of love, I will find you wherever you are, ten years, a hundred years, or a thousand years will pass. Although, I must wade through time and space, I will come before you,”

“Those who believe in reincarnation believe in the everlasting flow of true love to put deep love at the bottom of their hearts. Keeping someone he loves most at the bottom of his heart, hiding a deep longing, and hoping to meet at a later time in his future life, praying to the Creator of nature, continuing to take care of him until the end of his time,”

“Do you believe about that?”

Nayla was reading a book under a tree near the beach. Raysa was sitting while leaning on the shoulder of the girl. They are enjoying the beauty of the sea ahead there, the wind that blows adds to the impression of comfort and romance between them.

“About what?”

“Reincarnation,”

“Hhm. I wish it was like that, but I only believe in the current time that goes by. Things like that, whether there is or is not after we ourselves who live it one day we will believe,” said Nayla while putting her reading book.

“We do not need to think about it, because it is a secret of nature,” Nayla said again. “Because we won't believe, if it doesn't happen to ourselves,”

The man was stunned for a moment, as if confirming Nayla's words.

“Why does Aufal like you so much?” ask Raysa suddenly.

“Do you need a reason to like others? Hm. Do you also have a reason to like me?” nayla asked back, for her the question was taboo to discuss.

“I like you, because I like you. Why do I need a reason,”

Nayla laughed a little.

“You don't know why, why ask me. Liking someone doesn't require a reason, even if he or she was your enemy before. When you really like it, no need for what it does you'll still like it,”

“He told us, about your health,” Raysa said as she grabbed and clasped the girl's hand.

“That damn guy, sucks. If I see him again I'll hit him,” Nayla said annoyedly.

“Are you not going to tell me about your health, and keep it a secret to me? If it wasn't for that guy saying it, your brother and I wouldn't know about your condition,” Raysa said. “Did I not trust enough?”

Nayla was stunned to hear that, she knew if the man asked such a question.

“In fact, two years ago you didn't show any expression, even though you knew I had feelings for you. Or... Everything you write in your novel, is just a word that never meant anything to you? And you never liked me,”

Hearing the words that had just come out of the man's mouth, made Nayla's heart so strange, sick, it felt so hard to explain.

Nayla got up from her seat, then left the man under the tree with a difficult look to explain.

Before actually leaving the man, Nayla still said a few sentences to the man.

“Since the beginning I didn't ask you to believe what I wrote. Because for some people it is just a work of fiction, but for those who know the moment it is not just a work but as a memory that does not want to be erased by time,”

“If you didn't believe me in the first place, you wouldn't have to look at the arrangement of the book, wouldn't have found the ring, and wouldn't have caught up with me on that cliff. Hearing you say something like that makes me assume that you really don't believe about me liking you.”

Raysa still remembers what Nayla said. The girl's words, clearly ringing, never even a single word was forgotten by her.

He thought, she's the stupid one or the girl blames mistakes on him.

From the beginning he read every romantic word in the novel, and he examined what was happening inside the novel. Like the arrangement of the book in the form of the word “I love you,” and the ring planted under the tree. It was strange, he believed that, and foolishly he asked that as well.

Nayla sat down while sipping a cup of coffee, several times she sighed very roughly. As if, something was stirring in his heart.

Given the events of yesterday, somehow he could not explain the real reason directly, when what was written in his book was really an expression from his heart.

Raysa was cooking food for the girl. After earlier the man helped her while she was at her adoptive parents' house.

Although he fad, approached and tasted the food in the spoon held by Raysa, he felt his heart beat but he did not want the man to know about his feelings. Because he realized, if he was with the man was only a contract lover.

When his feelings say if the man in front of him began to like him, but many times he dismissed about the possibility.

Contracts that cannot be violated by.

When Raysa was getting ready in her room, Nayla compiled the books forming the word “I love you,” surely the man did not know it.

On his first date with the man, he was very enthusiastic and used the excuse to experiment in the crowd to cure the disease.

The reason why he hid his expression, was because he was afraid about his feelings and the man was about to terminate their contract.

Three years, not a little time when his heart was empty, when betrayed by Aufal. As the man came and shared his warmth, his frozen heart melted and warmed. He did not want to lose the man, but clearly he knew about the secrets and promises the man had made.

His heart was as if it was sliced open, very sick and painful at the same time.

The moon is floating, although not yet perfectly shaped.

“Since I've noticed you sigh,” said Aufal suddenly while giving a blanket to cover the girl's body.

“Do I really not look like I like it?” nayla asked the man who had just arrived.

“Do you have a fight with him?” ask Aufal back.

Nayla was silent, as if confirming.

“I've known you all this time, I see very clearly in your eyes there is only him at that time, even though you guys are dating only limited to contracts, there is sadness at the same time,”

“But, I admit that you're so good at hiding how you feel about her, and I know the reason. The reason is only one, you are afraid of getting hurt when you confess to him if you love him while he does not like you, especially with the arrival of the girl,” said Aufal stroking the girl's hair.

Nayla looked at the smiling Aufal. Kurnia and Raysa are listening to what Nayla and Aufal have to say.

“You don't want them to know about your condition, because you don't want to burden them. You want to bear everything yourself, and not share it. You feel like you were like two years ago, there's no one by your side, but this time it's different. You can use me to the fullest, you have Raysa, brother, Father and Mother, even friends who care about you,”

“You can complain to us. Don't suffer yourself,”

Nayla could only look expressionlessly at the man.

“Hey why are you looking at me like that?” ask Aufal. “You scared me,” Aufal said again.

“Huh!” again the girl breathed.

“Hey, come. I'd really like to be mad at that guy, who was supposed to be shot at that time was Raysa, but you nudged his shoulder and made you take that bullet in your body,” said Aufal in a high tone and full of annoyance.

“Don't talk like loud,” said Nayla as she covered the man's mouth with her hands.

Raysa and Kurnia who were eavesdropping heard instantly shocked.

“You sacrificed your life to receive the bullet, but he doesn't believe you. I'll make a calculation with him, I'll cancel the divorce, let him suffer. Very annoying,” said Aufal while tightly clenching his hand.

Nayla hit the man on the head.

“Are you stupid? Want to break your promise again?” nayla asked in annoyance. “You must not break the promise again, I will return to the room,” Nayla said as she left Aufal.

“I want to teach him a lesson. You can't ban me,” said Aufal.