A Cold Frozen Hearts
Eps. 32 About It — Raysa

More and more, this heart is pounding unbecoming.

— Alan Aditya Raysa —

“Do you really love that captain?”

Suddenly, my heart beat quickly at the question. It was as if there were thousands of volts of electricity stinging in my body. I could only be silent on hearing what the girl was about to answer.

“Tell me do you love her?”

Aufal repeated his question, as if curious about the girl's answer.

“Love? Maybe!” answer Nayla.

For some reason, the answer made my heart not hear the answer. I tried to hold my left chest, as if to calm down.

“No, not possible! But, maybe I'll really love her. I'm just summarizing what happened in the past with you, and won't repeat the same mistake,” Nayla said.

“Wait... Please wait a minute,” again the man does not allow Nayla.

Nayla paid no heed to what the man had told her.

“At least, let me explain to you,” I heard what the man just said. “Not keeping you by my side is my fault,” said Aufal again while hitting and kicking the tree before him.

A sad, angry, clear look on his face. It was as if there were thousands of regrets surrounding him. What made the girl so special to him made her so miserable.

The night wind blows so cold, adding to the silence of the late night. The sound of crying sounded. Depressed sad, full of emotions.

The back of a woman who was sitting crying under the sky tonight.

“You want to be an impromptu kuntilanak here?” I asked while putting my jacket on Nayla.

She wiped away her tears as I sat beside her.

“I heard your conversation with Aufal,” I said.

“Eh!”

The expression was shocked because he did not realize that I heard the conversation between the two of them.

“Me and Wawan were traveling, so we accidentally heard what you guys were talking about,” I said explaining to him.

“Ah so yes!”

He didn't seem to matter when I found out about his past.

“Why are you crying here? Do you still have feelings for her?”

“Feelings? Impossible,” said Nayla.

“Keep if not that..”.

“I only remember Dad when talking about the past. My relationship is not like what you heard, it's harder than that,” Nayla said.

“Goal... The answer you gave Aufal... Solved..”

“Ah it. I'm not right, I just made him give up,”

The deg!

I who heard the direct answer from him did not like the answer.

“When we are insulted all out by someone we value, you will take action that will maintain your self-esteem. Right no,” said.

“I was with him like that. She was like an island across the ocean far away from me, when I found a cross, and got a hitch when I approached her. Then, I will turn around, especially when the obstacles ahead are traps set against us. Fight or give up. That's the only choice given. But... I have a principle, I do not want to be the second person in married life let alone him who gave up first,” he said again.

He told me a lot about his relationship with Aufal, even though he used logic without directly telling me the problem. Maybe he didn't want me to go deeper into his life. I was a good listener for him.

“His mother once said to me before her wedding day. That whatever I do to survive, I will be made to give up continuously. I still believe that I fight and fight. Until, I received a message if she got married and it was her choice,”

I saw his face when he said that. Something I've never seen before.

“Because of that... Whatever happens, I don't want to involve feelings. Loving nothing more than friends and family, living with a cold heart is better than being hurt,”

“Seeing you fight for him, I really hope that he used to be the same. That your feelings will not change, that your promise will be kept,”

I fell silent not answering, until I switched the conversation so as not to dissolve in the atmosphere.

As if he was away from her, there was not even a friend with him. He was sitting in a circle with the little ones while giving lessons.

A smile I had never seen before, she was so open with children. Several soldiers were looking at it, including the doctor—Aufal.

The face that usually looks stiff, now smiles and laughs loosely as if there is no separation between him and the children.

I'm still wondering why he's hated and shunned, I just heard from his team about his gossip.

When they finished the activity they wanted to hold a massive dinner. So many are busy preparing for the necessities, whereas he just sits while typing on his laptop and listening to songs.

I can only observe it from a distance from my weapon telescope. Sometimes he closed his eyes, then opened his eyes and played his fingers, as if he was making a scene in his brain and then typing it.

“Hell invites us to join,” said Kurniawan who saw me aiming at Nayla.

“If you like it, just say it. After that, we fight,”

“What are you saying? He told me that he didn't like me, but heard directly from him as if I didn't like him,” I said while making a joke.

I saw his footsteps so staggering that I jumped from the three-story tower.

“Yaaaaaa...” the sound of her screams made people look at her, even those who had wanted to leave the place, choosing to be quiet.

“Why did you leave when you saw me? Is that a scare I'm in your eyes?” ask her with a raucous voice.

“What's my fault with you, why are you staying away from me? I'm not bothering you, I'm not talking to you. But why do you hate me?”

I tried to get closer to him, his face was so sad.

“I... I didn't kill him,”

I was surprised to hear what he just said. To kill? Kill who? What does he mean, what is this that makes them afraid of him.

“I didn't kill him. They want to rape me. They want to rape me. “I'm just defending myself. They took me on the roof of the campus building, they beat me, they grabbed my hair,”

He said it while crying telling what was in his nature. I just kept quiet hearing what he wanted to say.

“But suddenly, the senior girlfriend came. They quarrel. The other senior brother tried to calm the two of them down but they accidentally made the man fall from the top of the building. And the senior was getting into a fight with his girlfriend making his girlfriend accidentally stab him with a knife. I was just helping her, so that the blood would not come out,” Nayla explained in tears, some of her classmates were recording what she said.

“But you guys think of me as a psychopath, just because I always stay away from those who approach me. I have my reasons. The reason is because I don't want to love someone anymore, then choose to marry someone else,”

“I want to be friends with you guys, but you guys are scared of me,” he shouted.

Suddenly his eyes looked at me.

“Oh. There's my girlfriend here,” she said as she staggered over the influence of alcohol.

“Why are you drunk?”

“I drank the water that bottle,” he said as he pointed at a bottle.

Kurnia, look at the contents of the bottle.

“It's Alcohol,” Kurniawan said when checking the bottle pointed at by Nayla.

“My head is dizzy..” said Nayla.

BRACKET

“I'll take you to your tent,” I said as I hugged her unconscious from drinking alcohol.

———————— To be Continued ———————

"This story is entirely fictional, Character Name, Place, Organization, completely unrelated to the real world,"

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A Cold Frozen HeartsEps. 32 About It — Raysa

A Cold Frozen Hearts
Eps. 32 About It — Raysa