A Cold Frozen Hearts
Eps. 33 How Many Secrets You — Raysa

I began to waver, and began to want you always by my side.

— Alan Aditya Raysa —

The cold face when drunk, more showing its nature. When she said that she did not want to get married for fear of betrayal, it felt like there was such a deep sadness in her heart.

“I always envy those who are in a relationship all the way to getting married. Maintain their relationship,”

Her tears flowed down her cheeks. His face was red, because he was drunk. He told me something that was no stranger to me. It was as if I felt like what he was talking about was me.

I laid her on her bed. His face was very different when he looked at it at a very close distance.

“Did he really fall asleep?” a voice came from behind me and he was Aufal. “I just came to see it. If it is like that, I will come back,” Aufal said again.

“Wait... Can we talk to you for a minute?” my many.

“Alright, what do you want to know?”

“Everything about him,”

“I think if you've got into his heart, until he wants to talk to you about being. Hm,” the man looked at me with a gaze that was mocking me. “She's a cheerful girl, quickly get along with many people. That's all I know,”

“You'll know, if you knew him so closely, why I wanted so badly to fight him back. Even though, I was surrounded by many women, until now only filled my heart just him. Although she always rejected me and gave me no hope of improving my relationship with her,”

“How were you guys..”.

“She chose to cut ties with me, either on social media or just asking for news. I just found out what happened during these three years, when he said it earlier. He's a private person of any kind if he thinks he's nobody to him, including; me. Even if I asked him to tell me about his problem, he wouldn't say it. Thats her. Once there is distance, it is difficult to make it very close again, including trust,”

“Thank you for saying it,”

“I heard him tell me about why I took the option of marrying another woman, not entirely wrong, back then I had no other choice. I chose her or I had to save my family, and my situation back then really had no choice but to hurt her. But, I wasn't given a chance to explain to her,”

“I warn you. You can't make her cry,” said Aufal. “One more time, if you choose to let go, then you will regret many times over from my regret,” Aufal said as he left me.

“Sorry? What does it mean?” I asked myself what that man's last words meant.

I sat beside him, thinking about Aufal's words about the sleeping girl. Until, I had unknowingly fallen asleep in his place.

The whispering made me wake up, and I immediately left her sleeping place.

I tried making porridge and soup for him, and told the team members to deliver it.

A document and a call for me to the Main Headquarters, it turns out that this call is related to him. It felt like I had just been engaging myself continuously with him, yet strangely I didn't mind doing so.

While reading the document, I realized that I was dealing with a very dangerous person.

“Do I ask him?” tanyaku.

I did not see the frightened expression on that face, as if he was so calm. I'm just, watching TV and seeing the case on TV.

“I heard you wanted to reveal your identity. No problem?”

“You're worried about me?” her question made me misbehave.

“No... Um. Actually yes,” I replied stammeringly.

“Ppffftttt..” Nayla laughed.

“I laugh at me again?”

“I've thought of some ways that you can quickly cure your illness,”

At a time like this, he was thinking about how to cure my illness. It was as if he had found a way to solve his problem.

The simple clothes were now wrapped in his body. I was momentarily fascinated by him.

“To be honest, the man liked him,” my murmur deepened.

I see so many reporters and cameras coming together as if he really wants to reveal who he is to everyone if he is a writer who always wants to know himself.

For a while, I saw the figure of a strong and broad-minded girl as she spoke to many people. His words, as if not afraid of the criticism he will receive, or so many comments about him.

“Actually how much do I not know about it? Makes me curious, even though I heard some stories about him from the general. Even the general knew about him,” I sat up while looking at him who closed his eyes when he asked for spicy food.

“He will not ask for spicy food if he does not think of something or the state of his heart is good again,” Editor Lee told me.

“How do you know him?” I asked the middle-aged woman.

“I released him three years ago, with a voice recording, not long after he came out his friend brought a vedio remake of the incident. Three days after that, I resigned from the police force and became its Editor,”

“Why..”.

“I don't want to get involved far. At least I caught the culprit and released someone innocent,” the woman said. “I once had to go back to my team and ask to handle the second case,”

I looked towards the girl. A girl who really can't be guessed.

“I don't know why he allowed you to be next to him. I tried several times to get her closer to some men including my own sister, but she always refused,”

“How about his parents?”

“You better ask him directly. I don't want to say it. And thank you for being next to him,” Editor Lee said.

I chose not to drive her to her house, but chose to take her to my house.

Her hot-cold body made me unable to sleep because of having to lower her fever. I've heard him rummage a few times, about this and that.

The frightened look on my face made me not have the heart to leave him alone. Moreover, when she grabbed my hand so scared as if she was having a bad incident.

I checked his forehead, tried to feel if his fever had gone down or not. Fortunately, the fever had gone down making me go to the kitchen to make him porridge.

“Cooking for the first time for a girl,” my murmur is deep.

Sometimes I tease her, asking about her situation. Although it was hard to make her smile.

“What is this girl, really have no feelings anymore?” I'm beating up again.

“You're not afraid of me? Take me to your house, I can kill you,” he said while enjoying the porridge I cooked.

“Ppft,” I laughed hearing what he said.

“This is the third time I've been in the interrogation room in the police department,” he said started telling me about himself.

“At that time, group assignments on campus. I was invited to go to his house to do the task, it turns out there is not doing the task but partying. When I got to my friend to take me in, he was the first male friend I trusted but I was trapped. He invited me into a room, I rebelled, he threatened me with a knife. The clothes I was wearing were torn with a knife, the knife had two eyes, until when it was thrown it stuck in the door. I defended myself, accidentally leaning on him and wounding himself with a knife on the wall. The room was full of blood, and it was the second time I went to jail,”

“Luckily, he did not die, and admitted if it was his fault because of the influence of the drug,”

“Not having friends for me is better, than having many people whereas no one can trust,”

“Just get one extra nickname, won't change anything. I'm used to it. In the taunts of punggut children, illegitimate children, teasers, ******, and thieves, so many other nicknames are okay. Provided, I don't do it,”

This was the first time I told him about him. My heart is so sad to hear the story.

———————— To be Continued ———————

"This story is entirely fictional, Character Name, Place, Organization, completely unrelated to the real world,"

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A Cold Frozen HeartsEps. 33 How Many Secrets You — Raysa

A Cold Frozen Hearts
Eps. 33 How Many Secrets You — Raysa