
I pondered in my own room remembering the thing I had said to Althara at the top earlier. I hugged my legs on the chair and stared out the window.
Why I feel sad, I feel all this is wrong. I haven't had an answer to my question in years. I should still hate Althara, but why when I meet her again the feeling of hate is as if it will be lost asking me to forget everything. This is wrong, I cannot be weak like this, Althara must accept the reward for all that she has done.
My phone rings on the table.
Rey.
“Hallo”
“Hay Rey”
“Where are you out of?”
“I finished the road last noon”
“Ooh. I last saw you at the resto but it turns out you had a holiday”
I frowned at me.
“So you can find me at home?”
“Ngga, discharged from my resto directly to the office there work”
I remember Althara saying that Rey was heading to my house. And I think Althara knows my schedule from Rey.
“Hallo” call Rey.
“Iya Yes Rey”
“Who did you play with?”
“Sama temen”
“Where's cement? I saw Riani at the Lunch” work resto
I don't know why I was so upset to hear Rey's words. I frowned at me.
“You think I'm just Riani?”
“Ngga ng that, I mean not that All” Rey sounds panicked.
“Sorry I'm just worried about who you went with?”
Well, I have to worry about Rey, I did go with Althara.
“Eh tar, where are you from? Long time very hahah”
Althara was there ?
“You again where is Rey?”
“I'm at Cafe Fadil Al, all the more at get-together”
All means Althara exists.
“Oh yes already, I want to go to the bathroom first huh Rey”
“Oke Alhena, good night”
“Goodnight Rey”
Tomorrow.
I started working again with my job at the restaurant.
“Al we eat first yuk”
“Bentar Ri,gue is still busy input this data”
“Alolah al eat first” Riani shake my arm.
“Iya yes benar”
Then I followed her outside the restaurant.
“Al, how are you and Rey?” He asked when we were eating our burgers.
“Why?”
“Gue is just aja, I also come to mind problem lo”
Riani makes me sad to remember everything.
“Gue also do not know how to ri, I feel so guilty hiding this all from Rey, but I do not know how to start the story with him. On the other hand Althara has already stretched my closeness with Rey”
“Terus?”
“Gue has tried to point to Althara if I am fine without him, but why when I see the face of him who is disappointed I even feel if this is one of”
“Lo still love her al”
I shook my head to fend off the prejudice that Riani had said.
“Lo can't deny it” said Riani.
“My pain has given me the affection I have to him ri”
“Lo sure it?”
I looked at Riri in confusion.
Riri looks nervous, he also seems to think of something.
“Al, I ask you to make a move on tuh from the beginning, from the beginning lo story about your problem with Althara. But until now you can't move on right ? Until finally Althara back again you still can not move on. Why do you give him the opportunity to explain first everything is al, after that it is up to you want to stay in him or accept him again”
“I don't want to!” I said with firm conviction.
Riani sounded out her sigh. He was already annoyed to see my stubbornness that could not be in his opponent anymore.
I don't want to hear any explanation from Althara. No matter what reason he gives, he shouldn't have left me like that. At least he gave a little explanation from the beginning although it would look painful, but it would be more I accept and then forget than he hung up his excuses for 6 years.
A few days passed. On this holiday I had made an appointment with the novels in the bookstore to visit them. I haven't visited them in more than a week. And I've been really longing for the new novels neatly arranged on every shelf.
I began to comb through the novel book that was downstairs quietly. I read every synopsis and if not interested I return it to its original place.
Then I climbed the stairs to go to the 2nd floor and started looking for new novels there, if there is a good one I keep it in my shopping tote bag.
A tall person stood beside me, visible by the tail of my eyes. I ignored the man and continued to focus on finding the novel in front of me.
“You how much longer are you going to muter-muter here?”
The man surprised me. I held my chest that was pounding.
“Althara do you do here?” My annoyance.
“This is a public place right?”
“Iya I know this is a public place, why do you kagetin I rich gini?”
“I've been waiting for you from earlier”
I was silent no longer asking. Why is he waiting for me ?
My face still looks so upset but I try not to care about it and go back to looking for a novel.
“I'm sure if this bookstore has not closed you will continue here until there is an officer who kicked you”
“Then?” My cynics.
“I'm hungry”
So astonished I was that he bothered me just because he was starving. I stared at him sharply by folding both of my hands.
“Then ?” Ask me again, this time cynically.
“aku to eat”
Althara completely regained her initial suit, looking annoying.
“Yes if you want to eat live eat alone do not need me bribe?”
Althara was silent not answering. I left her standing there but ended up following me.
I keep trying not to ignore it. Let him follow me until he's tired, I won't care.
I occasionally glanced at him who had started reading books.
Memories of the past now reappear in my memory. He used to accompany me to look for novels in bookstores exactly like this. But in the past with love and happiness is not with this annoying and cold nature.
After I finished searching for the book I handed the tote bag containing my novels to the cashier. Althara put her book of choice with my grocery book.
“Satuin aja mbak” said then Althara shifted my body.
He paid for all his groceries. Once the payment is complete Althara takes her shopping bag and takes it away.
I was confused to see my grocery book taken away without permission, making me have to follow where my book will be brought Althara.
He walked into the mall right next to the bookstore and sat down at one of our favorite junkfood restaurants. By ordering the same food as before, without asking if I wanted to eat any other food.
Althara and I started eating burger packs with extra cheese. We were silent, nobody spoke. I can only follow what he wants without talking a bit, I don't need to chat with him, let him do what he wants, but it won't make me shudder to come back easily to him.
Althara's phone rang. A message came into his cell phone.
He smiled to receive the message. He keeps his cell phone back on the table.
“We went to Dufan” and his words made me choke.
“Uhukk.uhukk” I directly took my drink.
“What?”
“We to Dufan”
“You what?”
“You don't know what place Dufan is?” Her question is cynical.
I frowned at me.
“Ngga, I don't want to!” I was annoyed firmly.
“I didn't ask for your approval for you to come”
“This request or order?”
Althara seemed to be smiling thinly. I just realized the sentence I just spontaneously made. Such a sacred sentence was addressed to Althara if she had forced something.
“Both” replied Althara.