7 Days With Althara

Should I forget about it ?

Night in my room.

I threw my bag over the bed, threw myself on the bed and held my hands there, staring at the ceiling inside my room and seeing the star bead beads stuck there that would light up if the room was dark.

I like stars, I like them very much, even almost all of my things are star shaped and have stars. Including this necklace I was wearing, this star was only half of it, and the other half was in Althara, because he was the one who gave me this half-star necklace 4 years ago before he disappeared.

I so remember her back, I so remembered the words he used to “don't ever change remain like this, become Alhena I know whatever happens”

I still think about that phrase, what does Althara mean is this ? He wants me not to change even if he leaves me ? It is crazy indeed his desire, how could I survive his love with this state ?

The next day I went back to work with a mood that still felt empty, but would be a little forgotten by my busy work.

Someone was standing in front of me while I was busy in front of my computer.

I know it's a customer.

“Please mas there is something I can tire...tu” my voice was held back when I saw the customer in front of me.

Rey.

“Hay, busy again huh?” Ask her, it surprises me.

“Hah ? Oh yes” I was surprised because I was confused by his question as if we already know each other.

“Mas not yet served yes, I briefly call the waiter first, DEAAA!!!” I shouted to the employees in the kitchen.

“Udah, I've been served, my table is over there, I'm here with my friends he said while pointing to his favorite table yesterday.

That bunch, are these male friends that Riani told me about yesterday.

I nodded in confusion.

“Yesterday we just met for a moment right?”

“Hah ?” My spontaneity is still clumsy.

“Hahahhah, why every time I ask you just answer with hah aja ?” This is funny to him, but awward to me. Because I did not know her at all and did not intend to get acquainted in this state.

“You're like a new employee here huh ? Because I'm like I just saw you here”

“Ngga, I am an old worker here, only I rarely serve customers like yesterday, so maybe mas just saw me yesterday”

“I really answered her” ledek her while smiling.

“Avoid, I just want an acquaintance with you” I smiled shyly to him, and returned to compartmentalize the computer in front of me, hoping he understood that I was working.

“Okay, like you are busy again, I'm sorry, bye al” and he went to lift his hand, I smiled and nodded my head.

It was really weird that he thought of me.

“Al, you have absolutely no interest so make deketin Daniel?” A sudden question made me stare at him cynically.

“Don't start deh ri, the cave again gamau discuss it” ketus me and go back to continue eating my burger.

Riani looked at me with a piteous look.

“Al, when do you want to go kayak gini?” His words that I still don't mind, pretending not to listen to him.

“Lo torture yourself if you like gini continue, times you have to try to open your heart to others, yes if you feel like you have really forgotten the past lo”

“Rii, please” I'm really lazy to hear it.

Riani silently looked at me.

“This is not the time for us to discuss about it okay, mending now you run outin lo food because we have to go back to the Restaurant, there again rame we can not be long outside” said I with ketus and back to eat. I heard Riani's breath.

I knew Riani meant well, she was very worried about me with what I was going through, she was so considerate and just wanted the best for me,but I don't know how I can start to open my heart to others, if my heart is still hoping for Althara to return.

Then I thought about what Riani said.

‘Until when will I continue like this?’

Coming home from the resto I did not drive my bike home, but to a place at the top. To caffe ‘milky way’ or in meaning is galaxy milky way. A place where we can see billions of stars there. This will always be my favorite place even though there are too many painful memories that I will remember.

The waiter came to me with a tray in his hand.

“This coffe latte mbak please” the waiter keeps the coffe on my desk.

I smiled kindly at him.

“Tumben really mba here her malem bang”

at least once a month I always come here, and make me a regular visitor of this cafe for several years.

“Iya resto again rame earlier” replied me with a smile he bowed his head and left me.

I took my big cup with both hands, felt the warmth of this coffee in the palm of my hand and sipped it little by little to feel the pleasure of coffee latte getting into my throat and warming my body.

I looked again at the beautiful city lights before me and remembered a sentence.

‘Kalo in the cloudy night sky there are no stars, you can see the view of the city lights, consider this aja the stars, just as much and darkly flickering right?’

My eyes are wet again remembering Althara. It was so painful, it was too hard for me to forget all the good memories with him. It was so beautiful, that I couldn't open my heart to anyone else. I loved her so much even today. I'm so sick of loving her so much, I'm so sick of my love being abandoned when I wish we were together forever.

I really hope that a miracle will come, and hope that the stars I look at every day can convey my passion to him, I was so sure that the star I saw every night was the same one that Althara would see even though I didn't know which part of the world she was on.