Why We Married?

Numbness

Tok tok...

"Him!" Call mommy.

I didn't answer.

"Let's eat boy!!"

I didn't respond.

Tok tok...

He knocked again on my door.

"Honey. Come outside!!" His insistence.

I don't give a shit.

"You can be angry with your mom and dad. But don't damage your own body for not eating for days!!"

I kept quiet while looking at the ceiling of my room that looked creepy every time I blinked.

"Well!!"

My mother sounded like she was stroking my bedroom door.

"Don't be like this baby, don't torture me with guilt!"

But I don't give a shit. My whole body was like it had been taken away from my body. I cannot feel the world with it. The world has struck me as my footsteps skinned this reality.

"How long are you going to keep yourself there. Anya!!"

I closed both my eyes.

"Mother please don't be like this!!" Persuade continues.

But in vain, I did not even feel that there was a voice across the door. All of his persuasion seemed to sound like a beetle buzzing in my ear.

"Mother will prepare dinner downstairs, so get out before the food gets cold!" My mother eventually gave up and left me alone.

I took a deep breath and opened my eyes.

I don't know how much time I've spent in this place. I couldn't even look at the clock or open my window to feel the sun.

On the day of that shocking confession, I unconsciously ran around without direction until my legs ached and my body was tired. I was in the middle of nowhere that I did not know, and was found by Hendri's men who were in charge of finding my whereabouts after 4 hours stuck aimlessly.

I refused to follow them and threatened to hurt myself if they dared to take me home to the apartment. They finally gave up and complied with my request to take me home to my parents.

When I arrived at my parents' house, I immediately went berserk and cried in front of them both and said everything I wanted to say about all this unfair treatment.

And they finally said the truth, if it is true that they both sold me to the Yuaga family under the pretext of a better future if married to a conglomerate family.

Unfortunately, they don't think about my feelings that will suffer when I'm no longer useful if the terms of this marriage are met.

I don't know who to blame because indeed from the cost of treatment to my tuition fees are too high, my parents will not be able to bear it all alone, he said, moreover, they are only government employees who receive basic salaries that are only enough to meet our daily needs.

Both my parents agreed to arrange this contract marriage because of the benefits that will be obtained in the future. They had no choice but to sacrifice my innocence to obtain that benefit. They don't know if in this situation, I'm the one who suffers the most. That I am the most tormented for being used.

For years they've all been hiding the truth from my life. Without me knowing that for most of my life, I have been used by the people I love. I am used in the name of a better future. On the basis of material that my parents could not afford.

And now those facts hold me back. Makes me trust no one but God's plan.

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"Mrs!!" Hendri's voice echoed behind my bedroom door.

I don't know how many times he's visited me, maybe every day at the same time and the same offer. He wanted me to show myself in front of him on the grounds that he wanted to talk about something important.

But even if I never want to see him let alone discuss something he will talk about. Because whatever will be discussed later, I feel every word and also the intent of the speaker will hurt me.

Tok tok...

I flipped my body and smothered my ears with pillows.

"I know you don't want me to come!" She shrieked in a loud voice, "but this time I won't leave before you come out and meet me!"

I clenched and tightly closed my two ears.

Whatever, he wants to wait for me until the new year though. I'm not gonna open this door to see him.

But after a week passed, it turned out that Hendri was more resilient and stubborn than what I imagined.

He stayed in front of my room for that long without ever shifting other than to poop. He ate, rested, and also slept in front of my bedroom door without ever feeling saturated.

Kriee.....

In the middle of the night, I opened the door of my room at my own will.

And at that time I also saw Hendri sleeping soundly in front of my room with a mat and a sleeping pillow belonging to the mother and a warm blanket belonging to the father. She also wears sleeping pajamas and next to her is a private toiletry that she seems to have prepared from home.

And so was the big suitcase, the sleeping lights that lit up next to it, and also the teddy bear that he was hugging. It seems like he was very intent on being here until the new year, to the point of making the hallway in front of my room a comfortable place to live in.

I exhaled a long breath while massaging my own temple to find this scene. If only I hadn't wanted to see him, maybe Hendri would have transported all his belongings and moved into my parents' house.

"Hey..Henry!!" I crouched down and shook his body.

Hendri immediately woke up and opened his eyes.

"Let's talk!" Take me while standing up and pass her just like that towards the middle room.

He couldn't help but be concerned about seeing my condition as terrible as it could be after not seeing each other for a few weeks. Because now my body is old and unkempt like someone who almost suffered a mental disorder.

"Why did you come here!" I said coldly while throwing my face away.

Hendri silently stared with an agitated look, he did not even dare to lay down his body to sit face to face with me.

"I want to convey something to the Madam!" His reply subdued his body, which meant a respectful and condescending attitude as he often did.

"I'm not your master anymore. So why are you acting like that and calling me Madam!!"

Hendri suddenly gasped in a bent position.

Maybe he was surprised to find a cold response from my words. Because indeed during his time with him, I never even treated someone badly let alone hurt with words.

"I'm sorry, Madam!" The reply was still in that position and did not show his face to me. "But whatever your current position. Madam is still my master!!"

Brainskkk.....

I couldn't stand it anymore and hit the table. I got up from my place and went straight to him.

But as I expected, Hendri was not surprised at all when facing me. He didn't even get out of his place when I got close.

"Say what do you want?" I said, "what else does Archie want from me!"

Hendri looked at me with an indecipherable flat face. But behind that cold face was a warm gaze.

"Mrs!" Answer in a soft voice.

Hendri embraced both of my shoulders like a father who wanted to calm his tantric son.

"I would say if Madam is in good shape and can control her emotions!" He told me to sit back on the couch.

And strangely, I immediately calmed down and complied. I don't know what the magic is, but as Archie said the other day. Hendri is like a spring that is able to extinguish the fire as big as anything in front of him. Want as complicated as any situation experienced by Archie, Hendri was able to overcome it only overnight.

And that happens to me too.