Why We Married?
That Burden
"Well!!" Archie.
But I didn't rub it and silently stood before Laila's tomb.
"It's late in the afternoon, just a little more!!"
But I didn't move a bit. I couldn't take my eyes off the tombstone that said his name.
Archie stroked my back, trying to ease the pain and regret that was raging in my chest. But however I tried to divert this sadness, the thought of a time when I shouldn't have involved Laila in that matter was devastating to me.
My tears have run out, dried up, can no longer flow. If I force it, my eyes will hurt, hurt, and get hot. Three days and three nights I kept crying incessantly. I once tried to distract myself by sleeping, but when I woke up and realized this reality. My tears are flowing again.
I want to run and hide. Shutting yourself off from all this harsh reality. But like I did, however I avoided it. Fate and fate always come to me, finding me even though I am at the end of the world.
Archie was embracing me with his warm body, for a long time I had not felt this body embrace me after that incident. Three days and three nights anyway, I never spoke a word to Archie, nor did he. We both kept something that we could not reveal about this incident. For Laila's painful death. For Arya's guilty statement. The disappearance of Libiru. Of this mess. For our own suffering. We don't want to talk about it, even for a small talk.
"Thanks!!"
Archie looked at me. His eyes are puffy and surrounded by eye bags that hang. Staring at me with deep.
"Have you ever considered this!?"
Archie just shut up. He was too tired to even answer.
I'm assuming after the incident, he never slept for three days and three nights. He was kept busy with these three things. But he still took the time to go to Laila's funeral even though her body and mind were weakened.
"Did you ever think this would happen to any one of us!?" Ask again.
Archie did not answer but continued to look at me.
"What happens will be the same, if from the beginning we know that Libiru is the culprit!!" My speech.
The wind blew from our side until our hair and clothes fluttered.
Archie gave a tired snort, and stared at the tombstone that read Laila's name on it.
"Maybe, if we knew from the beginning that he was the culprit, we could both.." I stopped and took my own hand.
Archie took a long breath.
"Sorry cave!!" The answer.
"I don't understand why good people leave us so quickly. Whereas the savage humans were allowed to linger!!" I'm babbling.
"Sorry cave!!" The answer is again repeating the same words.
"You know what, Archie?!" I knelt beside Laila's grave and stared at the tombstone once more from a short distance away.
"He told me to hold on. I heard that after he breathed his last with a smile."
Archie knelt down beside me.
"Sorry cave!!" Answer again for the umpteenth time.
"How could he say that to me, when he was about to leave!!" My next.
"Sorry cave!!" Reply continues.
"Why are you sorry. Do you think this is all your fault.."
"Everything is wrong cave!!" Spontaneously cuts.
I shut up and bowed down.
"Sorry cave!!" Archie embraced my body as the tears fell from my eyes again.
It hurts when these tears come out, but it's my way of holding it back so it doesn't fall. These tears are so hard to shed.
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Tok tok....
"Mrs. Are you inside!!"
"What's up Hendri!!" Answer me while opening the door.
Hendri looked at me with a restless look.
"Mrs. Sir's on the run to the hospital!!" Panicked words.
At the hospital where Archie was treated.
"It looks like Mr. Archie has quite a severe anemia!!" Said the doctor in front of Archie's room door in the hospital.
"Anemia, my goodness!!" I say it while scooping my own face.
I was so overwhelmed by the problems I was having. Unknowingly, I forgot about Archie and did not think about his health condition.
"It seems, Mr. Archie is exhausted from lack of rest so that the pinsan. Moreover, the cause of anemia can also be caused by periodic insomnia." Obviously the doctor explained the cause of Archie in the treatment.
I held my own head because I felt guilty. Archie never said or revealed that he felt depressed over these problems. But actually compared to me, Archie received the most pain. He took more blows than anyone, he endured it alone, swallowing it raw.
Even though he looked cold and not dizzying about everything that had happened, he was actually shouting in his heart, and keeping all those wounds to himself.
"Archie, you fool!!" I said while rubbing his head.
He was lying on the bed asleep. I've never seen him sleep so well like this during marriage. His mouth was left open, so that a snoring sound that sounded quite clear filled the entire room.
"Stupid. You're such a fool!!" Say it again while kissing her forehead.
"Sorry Madam!!" Call Hendri from the entrance. "Do you need anything to bring here!?" Ask.
I kept quiet for a moment and stared at the ceiling for a long time.
"Looks not. Thanks Hendri!!" Answer me while shaking.
He smiled and lowered his body to get out of here.
"Where is Sakurai!!" I asked before he left.
"Young Master is going to the blood donor!!" The answer.
"Donor blood!!"
"Ahh.iya.it seems like the doctor forgot to say that this hospital ran out of blood stock B because of the delay in delivery from PMI. So since their blood types were both the same, then Young Master happily donated them to Master." Hendri.
"Ahh..unfortunately my blood type AB!!" Reply regretted.
I looked at the restless Hendri looking at his Master.
"Hendri, what's your blood type?" Askaqua.
He flinched for a moment and smiled like someone caught on.
"My blood type is also B, Madam!!" The answer is polite.
"B!!"
He smiled and turned his face away.
"If your blood type is also B, why not try to donate your blood as well as Sakurai!!" My speech.
"Ahhh..I don't want to be madam, it's just that." later she was even more strange while rubbing her own back neck.
"Just!?" I'm curious.
"I.fear the syringe Mistress!!" Cengengesan.
"Huh!!" My response.
"Hehehehe!!" She's shy.
Then if he's afraid of needles, how can he be expressionless when guns are pointed at his temples.
