Why We Married?

This Feel Part 2

I don't know why, but I feel like lately Archie's been avoiding me.

He would come to the hospital to see me when I was asleep, or deliberately arrive at rest, so that he did not have to linger in the hospital.

After that, all I need is myself. But even one day he never stayed in the hospital for long. Is it because he's busy taking care of those people and he doesn't have time to keep me company.

Sucks. Until when will he continue to behave like this.

"Ahhh.sorry, may I ask you something!!" My words stopped him from putting drugs into my infusion.

"Of course Madam. Say it!!" Answer the nurse kindly.

I wiggled around, and whispered nearby.

"Is this a drug that can put me to sleep?" My toot.

He looked at me with a surprised look and then nodded.

"Ahhh..I would like to ask for a nurse's help!!"

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"Please enter Sir, but it seems like Madam has been asleep for a long time!!" Hendri welcomed Archie's arrival.

I pretended to be soundly and comfortably asleep on top of my bed to fool Archie. If he keeps coming at a time like this, I won't know what's going on with him.

It's a good thing that the nurse was willing to work with me to not put in the medicine that would put me to sleep. Otherwise, I won't be able to meet Archie again in a conscious state.

"Lu wait outside, the cave will rest!!" His orders to Hendri.

There were footsteps of Hendri who left this room.

And now it's just the two of us.

She lay down by my side and immediately hugged my body comfortably. A strong roaring breath roared through the corner of my forehead. I miss this hug, I miss the smell of baby powder, and also miss the warm embrace of her body.

Since when was the last time we slept together like this, it felt like it had been a long time since these problems came.

"Well!!" He called my name. "How are you today, huh!?" He asked while exhaling tired breaths and rubbing my back.

I continued my acting by sleeping.

"There's a lot of people who want to cave bullshit to you. But there are also many reasons that can not be called cave. Gua don't know where to start, but certainly don't want to see you suffer!!" Her speech.

What he just said. Why did he say something that made me angry again.

"Sorry cave that you have to wait for your new sleep here. But really..."

Archie's closing his arms to my body.

"Gua can't meet you directly. Gua can't see you suffer constantly because of the cave!!" Sobbed.

Both of my eyes opened when I heard her words. He didn't realize anything because my head was facing towards his jakun.

I can't ask her directly what she's saying because I'm pretending to be asleep right now. I also did not want to make him feel uncomfortable because of his desire to not meet me directly.

Damnit. What else is this. Why else would he hide something from me.

After saying that he no longer said anything and continued to be by my side all night.

When morning comes, as usual. He left here before I woke up. He left no trace of anything like never coming to see me. And all I could do was embrace her shadow like a woman in the camp.

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A week later I was discharged from the hospital after undergoing several wound treatments. The infection has improved and the stitches have dried up. Doctors advise not to do heavy work and also eat nutritious foods along with adequate rest. Although I am happy because it has been declared healed, but not with my mind.

To the end, all that accompanied me was Sakurai and Hendri. He hasn't seen me since the last time he was here. When I asked Hendri, the answer was always the same: he was busy with his work.

That was how busy he was to forget me. Hasn't he been the most fussy about my health and safety. But why is he acting now.

What's going on is actually. Why is he like this to me.

A lot of negative things about him are raging in my head. Is he tired of me. He already has a new woman. Did he show me. Does he hate me. Did his circumcision wound suddenly return to infection. Did he show me off because I was no longer useful.

Is, is, is.

"Agggghhhhhhhm...Damnit. Why did he do this to me. B!!" My words were suddenly squealing alone in the middle of the public while squatting down.

The people walking by in front of me looked at me with astonished looks. Patients from which mental hospital escaped, thought they might.

But I don't give a shit. I feel like I have to vent my frustration wherever I am. Because my head seems to want to explode.

"What the hell!!"Suddenly someone greeted me. "Welcome up weird!!" Further.

"Here you go to the cave!!" He walked past me like he said he didn't know me.

"Just the one you want, the payday cave!!" Tora told me about the restaurant menu.

"I'm not a laper!!" Reply cynical.

"You really are ga laper!!"

I'm shaking.

"Judah drink a drink, you're aus right!?"

I'm back to shaking.

Tora gave up and took out the menu again that she offered me. Then look at the menu for a while and order.

"Gua samain food that same pesen cave your food. Get caught!!"

But I didn't answer because my mind was going the other way.

"Lu how are you?" Ask again trying to catch my attention with pleasantries.

"As you can see. Do I look okay now!!" My answer immediately raised the question.

"Sorrys. Gauga gainta cave!!" He seemed to regret asking. Because he saw for himself how I was doing, and must have heard what had happened to me the other day.

The food finally came and filled the table. Beyond my estimation, it turned out that after being confronted by good food suddenly my stomach became hungry.

Without further ado I directly devoured the food that was in front of me regardless of Tora's flat gaze. He might feel like I'm completely insane.

"Udah full of you?" Ask in a cynical tone.

I nodded while drinking a drink.

"So tell him it's not a laper!"

"That's how the human body can change!!" I'm quibbling.

Tora shook her head while slapping her eel.

"Because you are already full means the cave can make you talk dong!!" He said as he pulled something out from behind his backpack and gave it to me.

It was a wedding invitation paper. And there were written the names of Ruana and Rio.

"This?" I can't continue my question because it's too sudden.

"Pregnant mood!!" Answer Tora.

I fell silent and did not continue my words.

"Ruana is pregnant with her son Sabiru!!" Further.

I subconsciously smothered my own mouth and stared at the invitation paper.

"The doctor said his gestational age had reached twenty-four weeks. And soon the cave will have a bangs." He laughed stalely.

I don't know what to respond to it anymore, but I definitely don't believe this news.

"With his current condition, the cave is not sure he can survive until his son is born, but the cave believes that he will live happily." Tora clenched her hands tightly until her nails plunged into the flesh, because the feeling of denial could not be removed. His words did not fit the conditions.

Tora looked at me who had been silent in a bad feeling. Then he stood up from his place and smiled.

"Don't forget the dateng. The cave also makes other children come!!" He said while forcing his smile.

"Yes. I'm definitely coming!!" My reply.

He immediately went out from before me without saying anything, because now he was holding back his own feelings for the calamity that befell his family.

I got out of my chair and stood before his back.

"Torra!!" Call me by shouting.

He stopped but did not turn around.

"We're all coming. Definitely coming!!" I shouted out loud.

Tora raised her hand up and made an O.K sign, after which she left without ever showing her face to me again.

I looked at his wide and sturdy back, he walked gallantly. But at every step like a giant that rules the earth, there is an invisible ship anchor. Tear it down, burden it. But not once did he stop.

Some say the figure of a first child is a reflection of their parents. The eldest child's love for his younger siblings is a rusty umbrella that protects the moths and the flowers. Invisible, warm, providing comfort, sometimes fragile but also strong at the same time, bright, and also sloping.