When That Sense Is Present

45, The flow of time while trying to rise up

Throwing away that disappointment was not easy especially accompanied by feelings that hurt his pride. It took a great effort to be able to look back, eyes that would look at him with a sneering aura. Not all sneered, but there were also those who stared at compassion or pity.

" I don't need to be pitied nor do I want to be blasphemed. I want everyone to look at me normally. I'm grateful that you guys don't care about how I feel right now'' that's what Antyka wants to tell the people around her. Be it his brother, friends or employees.

He hurriedly entered a medium-sized office. An officer greeted him kindly.

" Please sit down Mom, Mr. Farid is coming soon" said the official who invited him to sit down.

His eyes swept all over the bed area that looked a little messy. Looks like this room needs to be rearranged.

"Sorry to wait a long time" Saapan and the heavy voice of a man broke Antyka's daydream.

"It's okay sir, I've also just arrived" Antyka nervously stood up. Be friendly with the office owner.

"I'm Farid" The mature man stretched out his hand. His sharp eyes stared at Antyka's ayu face. Even scan from top to bottom. He sat back down without letting go of his eyes.

" I Antyka sir.., I have brought a catalog that can be used as a reference father. Antyka handed over the catalog to Mr. Farid. Antyka immediately showed her professionalism. He knew the man in front of him was interested in his appearance. Such a look was already commonplace he got from male clients .

For a moment the man seriously opened the sheet by width of the catalogue Antyka gave.

Closed it. Doesn't seem interested. He prefers to stare at his interlocutor intensely.

" I want a new design, in the form of superiors and also subordinates. I want a model that is simple, comfortable, and also strong or durable.do not forget the company logo should look dominant. We will wear this shirt for the field. I also want the base color to be dark" Farid said as he continued to stare at Antyka.

"Oh yes, we will make a special design. Can I have a photo of your company logo?"

"Of course"

After getting permission from the owner, Antyka immediately photographed the company logo and he saved it.

"Diminum used to be Antyka" said Mr. Farid kindly. Antyka sat back down and drank the juice that had been provided at the table.

"In two days I came up with a new design that you asked for"

"Oh yeah, I can't wait for the result. Brother Antyka has been in this business for a long time? It looks like Antyka's mom is very young, but her efforts are already quite big"

"Three years sir, I'm just continuing my mama's business"

"Have married?" suddenly a personal question was tucked between his business chats. Farid was still waiting for Antyka's sudden silent answer.

"Already sir" said Antika does not want to discuss personal matters anymore .His heart was already quite sick with what had befallen him.

Seemed a disappointed look on Mr. Farid's face.The man breathed a rough breath. Farid's movement was read by Antyka. Antyka did not expect much with her project this time around. The client makes a little careless. But he is still being professional.

"Is that so..? of course women as beautiful as mba Antyka must have wanted" Farid chuckled "We meet again two days later, mba Antyka. It's a pleasure to work with beautiful women" Farid told Antyka

"Then excuse me" Antyka pleaded for resignation after all their talks were over. Antika carries a bag and also some catalog books to leave Farid's office.

" Mba Antyka..., how about we have lunch together?"

"Sorry Mr. Farid, I'm hunting. Maybe next time" Antyka subtly refused. It is impossible that he rejects in the light of light . He would not offend Mr. Farid

"okay.., next meeting I will charge Antyka's mba promise "Say Farid with a meaningful smile .

While walking out Antyka passed by several employees who worked in this office. He nodded kindly as he continued on his way to the parking lot.

Antyka threw her body on the car seat. Closing your eyes for a moment expels fatigue. This time he was really tired of dealing with a creature called man.

It was very hot weather. Antyka drove her car quietly. His gaze focused towards the highway which was quite stretchy. The sound of music from the car tape gives a sense of calm.

It has been a month since the failed marriage. Antyka stumbled back into self-styling. Strengthening yourself to meet again with people who might know him or even people who know about the incident.

Antyka parked her car at her father's restaurant. He met with the restaurant manager and received some reports that he had to check. The two discussed to develop a new menu that is currently trending.

"Our chef is already making experiments for our new menu. Yesterday, I and a few people tried it. If Miss Antyka has time to taste it. The chef will be readying soon. Before we really sell it"

"Tomorrow to prepare, I will come in the morning" Antyka promised. And his heart murmured that tomorrow there would be no drama between Caya and him

"Well, ready ma'am"

"Then I go home first. I'll check the report at home"

Antyka brought some daily report sheets from her restaurant. It's almost afternoon he'll be home soon. He missed the light.

"Momy, are you home?" The light immediately approached Momynya who had just entered the middle room. The light extended his hand. But Antyka actually spread her hands while kneeling so that their height is parallel.

"Dear, momy miss Caya" Hugging Caya is a medicine, a medicine that can calm his feelings and emotions. Inhaling the fragrance of Caya's body which became the aroma of therapy.

"Momy, cape...?" the pretty face in front of Antyka asked with a plain mimic. Antyka looked at her daughter's face and shook her head.

"Capek momy is missing because she has met Caya" Antyka said as she broke their arms and kissed Caya on the forehead.

Caya followed Antyka's steps into the room. As usual, she would wait for Mommy to finish her bath.

"Where was Caya's school?" asked Antyka after she finished wearing her pajamas

" So Caya learned to make collages"

"Seru dong?" Antyka while laying her body on the bed with Caya.

"Yes Caya's hands are sticky with glue" said Caya while laughing showing her sticky hands. " Caya picked up Daddy home, Caya's truck ate at mommy's restaurant but did not meet mommy there"

" Momy again met a client, Caya" Antyka said, saying she did not have to meet with Alif. Reluctance there is resentment and also feelings of inferiority if you have to meet Alif again. For almost a month he managed to avoid meetings or interactions.

Antyka hugged Caya again in her arms. Devouring feelings of affection and wanting to continue to pamper his daughter. Until the sound of the house bell rang loudly several times. Caya looked into Momy's eyes and the little girl let Antyka wear her head covering

" Momy ahead first yes, there is a guest Caya" Antyka rushed out of her room.

" Mr. Alif...." Antyka was surprised not to play. He almost closed the door back reflexively. But Alif's sturdy arm held him.

" It could be via message, it doesn't have to be here. I'm tired" said Antyka while trying to close the door.

" Caya Daddy's coming" cried Alif loudly attracting Caya's attention. Sure enough not to wait long Caya had appeared and saw Antyka was trying to close the door.

"Momy, Daddy's hand will be clamped to the door" Caya's screams half sob. Antyka finally gave up. Alif can freely enter the house and hold Caya.

Antyka went into her room and locked the door. He let Alif be with Caya. Even in the room Antyka still held back anger. I don't know all the bad luck that befell him as if he was venting on one suspect, Alif.

"Have you had dinner?" Ask Alif to his daughter. And Caya shook her head. Alif put down a plastic bag from earlier he tenteng. "we eat with him? there, call momy"

Caya obediently knocked on Antyka's room door. His little voice called out to Mommy.

"What's Caya?" antyka

"Hungry Caya wants dinner with momy and Dady" whined Caya.

"Caya.., momy's not hungry yet. Would you like to eat with Dady?" rayu Antyka to her daughter. She avoided meeting her ex-husband.

"Mommy let's eat, later can stomach pain if delaying eating. Isn't that right, Caya?" Alif. Very presumptuous, Alif was already standing close to Caya, creating a warm atmosphere so that Caya did not see the aura of hostility between Momy and Daddy

Caya took Antyka's arm to the dining table. He was a little surprised when he saw the dining table that had been filled with a menu that was not made by bik Asih.

"So Daddy who brought momy, Daddy still remember momy's favorite side dish" Alif said a familiar snob to make Antyka's eyes bulged. But Alif cuek took a seat right next to Antyka.

"Feel momy don't want this, Daddy forgot?" Antyka replied to Alif's behavior. He denies what Alif said.

"Oh yeah...Do you know that lying is a sin? But momy you're just kidding. You know, right ?" Alif doesn't want to lose.

"Pray momy first, Daddy if you want to eat. It was not that chatting continued" Caya seemed to start to feel an unpleasant aura of hostility.

They started the dinner like advice from their daughter calmly. Every now and then Alif glanced at Antyka, and every once in a while Antyka cleared her throat to signal to Alif that she knew Alif was staring at her intensely.

Caya asks Alif not to go home first. Both of them entered Caya's room. A few seconds later Caya fell asleep. When Alif was about to leave Caya's room, Antyka came. Alif put his index finger over his lips.

"Saya has slept momy" said Alif still pretentious familiar.

"Is it a toothbrush?"

"Already"Turned Alif while leaving Caya's room following Antyka's steps.

"Please go home!"

"I'd like to talk to you for a second"

"We have no business anymore, no need to be pretentious" Antyka said

"Momy. What if we were like this every day?"

"Dream, don't fantasize too much. Go home...! or I'll report Luthfi, if you do anything unpleasant in my house"

"Sister Luthfi will not believe. He's just gonna tell me to stay here"

"Basic crazy" Antyka chuckled very upset

" Anty, you're okay, right? I'm sorry I haven't seen you in a month. So I'm coming tonight. Before I came here I went to Luthfi's house. Mama complained of pain in her knee"

"Tomorrow I take my mom to the doctor. Mr. Alif doesn't have to interfere in our affairs"

"Anty we marry again" said Alif without mengubris Antyka's words are painful.just he provoked Antyka's emotions with a face without sin.

"Enough Mr. Alif, I'm tired"

"We remarry Anty, lower your ego...,. Don't you see the Light is so happy when we're by his side"

"I'm unhappy if I marry a man like you. I will not repeat my foolishness for a second time''

"Anty"

"What kind of a darling? divorced me while pregnant with Caya, without knowing where I was wrong. All gone, am I not a fool? I don't want to be fooled anymore, even to make the Light happy. One day the Light will understand what I'm doing now"

"You're right Anty, I was wrong, sorry. I got carried away. I'm sorry I didn't know this"

Antyka saw the change in the face of Alif who looked very disappointed. The man was still standing behind Antyka.

" Go home, we live each other's lives. We will work together when it comes to Light. I'm tired of wanting a break"

" Aty, tomorrow we go to Caya's school. There is an invitation from Caya's teacher. They said, Caya's going to stage"

"Yes I'm coming" Lirih Antyka

" I'll pick you up, okay? Not many questions from people. Why do we come alone"

For a moment Antyka silently thought about the offer from Alif. Consider the situation that will occur. It still feels awkward, after all. He can't get too close to Alif anymore, as well as other men. " We meet in front of Caya school" Antyka said as she headed to the living room. Half-exorcise he opens the door.

"Sorry, it's already night. We don't deserve both of these. Heart on the road"

"All right, I'll wait for you tomorrow in front of Caya's school. Take good care of yourself" Alif left Antyka's house.

Antyka locked the door, while continuing to stand behind the door. Suddenly he just cried. It feels like something is hurting her but Antyka herself doesn't know the reason behind it all.

He had managed to expel Alif but he himself was feeling ill. It's always like this every time I meet Alif.

If only the man had never hurt her. It was eager for Antyka to embrace her body, leaning on her sturdy shoulder, sharing such a heavy feeling. To hide in his chest. Antyka could only wait for the flow of time as she tried to get back up.

And the night keeps rolling. Antyka's eyes couldn't be shut. Suddenly he felt alone and silent. Back his longing came the greatness of the good memories he had passed with Alif. At this time he can only cling to the bolsters that bear witness to the fragility that he always hid from people.