When That Sense Is Present

31.Peace with Destiny

Hi hai up ni..gak use long mumpung get free time. Cus.nousine stories that often faltered busy hindered in the real world.

happy reading .....

In Antyka's room was lying. His body is weak. He rubbed his stomach. Mama Ajeng approached with a lump of chicken porridge in his hand that was still billowing.

"Feed first, huh?" said mama softly. He sat down beside Antyka and placed a bowl of porridge.

"Sit down ma" pinta Antyka while trying to get up. But his body is too weak.

"Mama bribe slowly" mama blew the still hot spoon and feed on Antyka

"I'm sorry ma, Anty ngrepotin mama" While chewing the porridge he received.

"Eat a lot. don't mind much. You must be healthy. Soon you'll be a mother" Bribe by mouth Antyka accepted.

After she finished eating, she cleaned Antyka's mouth with a tissue. Antyka could only give up.

"Remember Anty, don't regret our way of life. Everything is arranged by the creator of the universe. Mama still remembers Umi's message. Whatever our life is important, we live our life right"

"Ma, thank you" Antyka looked warmly from the palms of the two mama's hands that she held tightly. How much he was amazed at the woman who gave birth to him. His love never broke.

"Run your destiny with iklas. Rise up, be a strong and independent woman. Here there are lives that depend on you" Mama rubbed Antyka's stomach with a look of affection and then kissed Antyka's forehead.

Antyka permeates every word Mama says, living life right. It means playing the role of herself as a single mother. Every time she rubbed her stomach, Antyka felt that there was an energy that made her want to get up immediately

Antyka has resigned to her fate. He is no longer helpless. A wholeness will remain awake if both equally struggle to keep it and want it.

Passing a heavy day with a young pregnant condition. There is so much Antyka can get. Resilience and also back to confidence. After feeling healthy, Antika turned her attention to finish her studies for this year. After that she will leave to give birth until the baby can be a little in stay she will continue her studies again which is only two semesters.

Antyka wears a loose canal. His stomach already looks distended even though he is still small and disguised by his loose robe. This historic day is the closing of all wounds, the court of divorce.

Luthfi escorting Antika. Brother who has always been a hero in his life.

Luthfi held Antyka tight. He put up a body will not let anyone come near let alone hurt.

"Please sign here" Alif's lawyer asked Antyka to sign the compensation receipt file from Alif.

" Wait, what else is this?" Luthfi prevents Anty from signing.

Lutfi asked for the file and gave it to the lawyer representing Antyka.

"How sir?" Luthfi waited for Antyka's lawyer to read every clause in the file.

"This is only compensation in the form of Apartments, cars and plantation land as well as a number of deposits and monthly allowances until Bu Antyka remarried" explained Antyka's lawyer. Luthfi nodded her head.

Luthfi's gaze turned to Alif's two lawyers. By holding back the anger and pain because her sister had to experience all of this

"Tell the honorable Dr. Alif Pradipta. Our sister refused all her gifts. We are capable enough to finance and guarantee his life " said Luthfi with overflowing emotions. " Say also thank us for all his insults and slander"

" Come Anty we're home !"

"Sir Luthfi, wait a minute" Antyka stopped her steps.

"Otherwise?"

" Anty wants to talk to Mr. Alif's lawyer. Anty remembers mom's message." Antyka approached Alif's lawyer who was still silent

"Space, just ask for a minute. We're sitting over there" Antyka pointed at a slightly secluded bench

" Good Ma'am, please "Antyka step towards a more private place to talk to Alif's lawyer. Then they sit facing. Antyka squeezes her finger gathering courage and discards the tightness.

"I want to send a message to Mr. Alif, if you meet with him. Say I iklas accepted his decision and told him this letter "Antyka offered me the letter she had made last night, after the evening prayer in a clear and resigned mind. " That's all thanks sir"

" I'll tell you. But what about Dr. Alif's gift to mom, I have to say what ?"

"Tell me exactly as my sister said earlier" Antyka smiled and pleaded

Antyka again approached the Luthfi who stood in wait.

"Come brother"

" Aty, brother often rejects your invitation to just walk the road. Today my brother will accompany you where you want to go. Brother will obey all your requests" said Luthfi really. After they got in the car to go home

"Tell, Anty is no longer a leak. But if Lutfi wants us to eat as much seafood as today, how?"

Luthfi is singled out by saying Antyka "Okay we go" Luthfi is very enthusiastic.

On the way home. Luthfi always asked Antyka if she was okay. Is there anything else Antyka wants, or just ask if Antyka is tired. Antyka felt intrigued by the attitude of attention of her brother who is usually very calm and irritable to talk, suddenly turned into very chatty and attention to him.

Maybe Luthfi was just worried about Antyka's feelings with the verdict hearing that was dropped today. In fact, Luthfi's worries are broken. Antyka looks more robust and mature. His little sister has transformed into a woman who can carry herself. Despite all that, Luthfi still saw a gaping gap in the corner of Antyka's eyes.

***

For Mr. Alif

This letter Anty wrote after the anti prostration at midnight. After mentioning the names of the father and mother, the next special person is Mr. Alif.....

Anty always liked this call " mr. Alif" from the first meeting until we got married and finally Anty divorced, will remain the same.

Thank you for introducing Anty to the so-called sense of love and hurt ...

Although it is only short but the memories Anty will save.

Even though our relationship is over...Anty doesn't want any grudge between us. If one day we are given a chance to meet again. Anty wants to see Mr. Alif happy, healthy and much more handsome.

Although Anty was eager to ask, Why is it that easy for Mr. Alif to stay away ......When that sense was present in Anty's heart.

But back Anty realized.... Anty is just an ordinary human being who is far from perfect. So did Mr. Alif. Anty accepted Mr. Alif's decision with iklas as part of god's destiny .

for the last time Anty wants to say "Anty loves Mr. Alif" after tomorrow's verdict on tap Anty is no longer entitled to say that. We will fight to find our own way. May the fate of the beautiful destiny that lies before us.

Sorry

Antyka ramadanti

Alif folded the letter he was holding. Her tears are flowing. Exactly one month the divorce process was completed. Alif rubbed his slippery head of hair that began to fall due to the effects of chemotherapy. His skin is blackened too. The pain all over his body was excruciating.

Antyka hopes that if she meets again, she wants to see him more handsome. Ah..what the woman thought made Alif crowded. Here he is struggling between life and death. In pain Alif can still smile . The shadow of the beautiful clear eyes of Antyka made her chest rustle.

After reading the letter from Antyka, Alif was like a person who was in love and heartbreak over and over again. Could there still be hope to be able to meet again with Antyka.. The therapeutic process is each very long whether successful or failed .

***

" I've taken my leave" Antyka said to the mother who was sitting on the terrace enjoying the afternoon.

"Thank God, look at your stomach already looks so big. Mama's afraid you're exhausted" stroking Antyka's distended stomach.

"You always remember Alif, don't you hate him? after everything that happened" Mama scrunched her forehead. Surprised by Antyka's attitude

"Yes, Anty will never forget. Anty can't hate him ma, Anty has made peace with destiny"

At first glance Antyka's words very much describe the nature of the father. Prof Damar is a man with a destiny.

"Later in the afternoon you check the content. Don't forget that"

"Anty didn't forget to ma"

dr Rima Damayanti SpOG name is listed in front of the practice room. Antyka sat alone with the bag beside her. While waiting his turn he read a book about parenting.

"How many months of the deck?" the voice of the woman who may be his age with mama Ajeng. The woman kindly greeted Antyka who had been cool with her book.

"Eight months buk" Antyka replied with a smile

" The mother again sent the child deck, understand her husband again service so can not nemenin check. My son said, if the obstetrician alone likes to be embarrassed. Thought not have a husband.well forced to deck, the mother who is not feeling well again nganter" said the mother explained at length "Adek here usher who ?"

"I myself buk" Antyka straightforwardly replied without feeling baper. Because she knew she had no husband.

Then the face of the mother looks guilty with the question. " I'm not papa kok Bu, it's common to check the content yourself" Antika touched the mother's hand so as not to fret.

" Oh sorry on deck"

"Yes, there's nothing wrong with being an independent woman today?" continued Antyka with a cheerful mimic. And the mother stared in amazement.

" May good ya deck at birth later, mother and baby healthy" sincere prayers and admiration of a woman who just knew Antyka

" Amiin Bu Amiin"

"Mother Antyka.." a nun's call for Antyka's turn check.

"Any afternoon, how are you?" The beautiful doctor greeting was kindly allowing Antyka to sit in front of him.

"Sore is also a doctor, I'm good"

"There's complaints?"

"It seems not, if the penut began to grow like this it is certain that I will more and more often to the bathroom, it is natural to dock. Eat me also it doesn't matter I'm always hungry"Antyka joked

"Yes it's natural, but the matter of eating must be remembered yes ma'am, should not be original to eat, should be clean, nutritious and not excessive. Let's see the grandpa, yeah, please lie down there first"

Antyka restyled her revealing clothes and then received a prescription from a doctor. There's nothing to worry about. She's healthy and the baby's position is all perfect. Enjoy what else he has to deny.

The steps are light towards the parking lot. There was a mama driver waiting. Antyka got into the car immediately.

"Sir we go straight home"

"Non Anty, Bu Ajeng had a message that I would take non Anty to den Luthfi's house"

"Oh yes we've been there"

Arriving in front of her brother's house, Antyka immediately went down. On the terrace of the house has been welcomed by Livia the poundanakan.

" Anty,.."

" Liv, it's outside"

"Livia was waiting for Anty to come. Anty take what?"

Antyka forgets one thing, her voice is always inquired by by her whenever she comes. But today he had no preparation. Antyka turned her brain open the bag she was carrying. Maybe there was something he could give Livia, but nothing

" Any forgot?" livia's face looked disappointed. This little girl always asked for more attention.

Then Antyka remembered before going to the doctor's office he stopped by at one of the mini markets. When he saw the cute mini panda doll he immediately bought it. Maybe he could give it to Livia.

"No, how could Anty forget to use the most beautiful Anty, Come on"

"Where's Anty?"

" It's still in his gift car"

Antyka gives a mini teddy bear black and white color. Livia's face changed. The girl widened her smile.

"Thank you Anty"

"Hmmm" Antyka shows her cheeks asking Livia to kiss her.." Like..?"

" Daddy.muaah" one more kiss landed on Antyka's cheek.

Livia is a young teenager. He descends upon the Luthfi nature of his papa, who is quiet and super calm. But her face is very similar to Karin's only Livia's nose is more of a legacy than the papa's.

"Liv "

"Yes.."

"Later if Anty's son is born, she looks like rich you are calm, kind, also beautiful"

"Don't Anty, she'll look like her pretty Anty but she'll have dimples like Alif. It's gonna be pretty"

" You.ayo we enter"Anty was stunned by Livia's words, suddenly flashed a smile Alif with dimples in Antyka's mind. The smile that made Antyka so long.

***

Mother wiping the body that used to be sturdy is now only just left behind. His breath is still warm against the cold this winter. Two thick jerseys and a fur jacket provide their own warmth.

"Mother bribe huh?" For the sake of staring at the expectant mother's face and pleading, Alif nodded. Even though his mouth could not feel anything. Some bribes he can swallow and a smile of relief mother helped make him happy." Lif, you have to eat a lot. You remember, Anty wants to see you again as long as you're so much more handsome"

Alif smiled wryly as he looked at the mother, His mouth open asking again in the bribe. Yes, he wants to be healed and handsome to be able to meet Antyka his first and last love.

Mother rubbed the dripping water on the corner of Alif's dry lips. It scratches slightly until the blood flows.

"Sorry.." Mother gasped in shock and frantically was about to call the nurse to stop the blood. But Alif's black skinny arms prevent.

" It's okay this is normal, especially when it's snowing" Alif again reached for sterile gauze with antiseptic liquid to wipe the wound on the tip of his lips.

"You have made a lot of progress" said the mother while watching Alif's body

Alif agreed. He has undergone many procedures. And to this day he still struggles against the ferocity lodged in his body.

"Thank you"

Still always the same sitting in silence while staring out the window, occasionally blinked eyes filled with warm dew when his chest could no longer accommodate longing, Exquisite face shadow flexibility makes her hands tremble want to be able to hug again.

"That day will come, Alif, fight. Mommy believes the power of love will erase all suffering" said the mother, when she saw Alif who was always silent at dusk with a blank look. Mother knows the son misses his soul mate very much. That feeling Alif enjoyed himself in silence never said .....