When That Sense Is Present

43. Prayers

Antyka sleeps on the lap of the mother, then her body arched hugging the frail body of the mother who is still sitting leaning on the head of the bed. Mama's hand rubbed strands after strands of Antyka's black hair that had decomposed on her lap. Mama knew her daughter was nervous.

"Ma.." call Antyka who makes the caress of mama in her hair stop. My eyes mama looked at the face of the princess.

" What's up Anty?"

"Did mom approve of Anty's decision?Tomorrow Anty is getting married to Ibra's sister"

"Anty. Whatever your decision, your mother will be supportive. You step or stop" Mama's words make Antyka and Merta rise from mama's lap.

" Sir...."

" Yes, my mother will support the best for you. Mama was once in a difficult position Anty, but because of the support of people who love and believe in mama, mama can get through the hardest time"

"Anty will marry Ibra. He sacrificed a lot for Anty. Although mama must know, there are still feelings left behind from Anty's past. Anty will try to make Ibra as happy as Anty can. Like Mama said, live life right. It is not true that Anty left Ibra because the man who had long disappeared and dumped Anty suddenly appeared" Antyka laughed grimly.

"Yes mama knows, it's not easy to decide for your future. If you're on the right path, I'm sure God will help you, even the miracle we never imagined. You are one of the proofs of the miracle in my mother's and father's life" mom looked away at her good times with prof Damar.

"Yes ma, thanks for your support and blessing" Antyka kissed my mama's cheek

While conversing, Luthfi approached her mother and sister. The mature man noticed the interaction of the two. Next to Luthfi there is Caya who is holding Luthfi fingers

" Ma, Anty, I want Caya out"

" Where are you going?"

"Caya wants to buy ice cream with Uncle" replied Caya with a joyful mimic

"Heart, yes"

" I came home a little afternoon Anty. want to take Caya along the road"

"Mak Karin is coming?" antyka asked when she saw Karin was already beautiful behind Caya.

"Yes me, Karin and Caya"

"Sister Luthfi, you still deserve another child" Antyka teased Luthfi. But his brother shook his head.

" I've been shaving to have two kids who are starting to grow up. Anyway I don't have the heart to see Karin give birth"

"Mbak Karin.. "

" British...Anty, don't yell. Ma, Luthfi get out first. In front are Zein and Livia if there's anything to call them" Luthfi said, kissing the back of his hand. Behind Luthfi Caya and Karin laugh at Antyka and follow Luthfi to say goodbye to mama Ajeng.

Caya waved at mama Ajeng and Antyka. He looks very happy when he is with his uncle and aunty. Both of them treated Caya more than their son. Maybe because their daughter's son is already a big boy.

"Saya, uncle there is a surprise for Caya" Luthfi said as she held her beautiful niece. Their faces are indeed very similar.Out there the person who saw must have thought Caya the daughter of Luthfi.

"What uncle?"

" We're going to see Daddy Caya"

"You, Caya wants to see Daddy"

***

As soon as he saw his Daddy, Caya immediately ran over. Alif immediately greeted him with a longing embrace. He kissed his beloved daughter while lifting Caya's small body in her cradle.

"Daddy why are you crying?"

"Crying...? Oh Daddy's just having an eyeache" Alif tried to lie. The man's heart is just a nelangsa. Only he can have

"Dady's medicine, let's quickly heal his eyes" Caya rubbed Alif's cheek. Then her little mouth blew out Alif's cute niup eyes

" What Caya is worried about Daddy''' Alif was so amazed by the attention of his baby

"Yes, Caya loves Daddy. Caya wants Daddy healthy, not sick" clear eyes Caya blinked to pay attention to face mimic Alif. "Is Daddy sad? the little girl looked at Alif's sad face.

"Caya.., Uncle wants to talk business with Daddy. Caya bought ice cream with Aunty Karin, want" Luthfi saw Caya could feel the sadness of Alif. The little girl was sensitive.

Karin took Caya's hand to her favorite ice cream stand. He knew there was something Luthfi wanted to tell Alif.

Luthfi and Alif entered the private room in the restaurant. They ordered some menus and ate them. Luthfi deliberately took some time to make preparations. In addition, he also needs energy for conversations that will drain emotions.

"I already know Antyka's wedding day tomorrow. Did Luthfi come here to give me an invitation? I'm coming, brother, I promise" Alif's voice rang in Luthfi's ear.

Luthfi raised his head and stopped feeding food into his mouth. He was not surprised by Alif's words. People in the class of the Alif family are very easy to get any information.

Luthfi took a breath and put down her tablespoon. The lunch event. A glass of water in front of him. Alif became very quiet, waiting for what Luthfi would say.

"Do you know?" tanya Luthfi the stale base answered nod by Alif.

"Lif.., Mike came to me a few days ago. He told me everything that happened to you that was the reason you divorced Antyka"

" Mike...? he really broke his promise to me. Brother Luthfi, I do not ask for justification for all my actions. I know I'm still wrong"

"I'm sorry Lif, you're struggling with life and death and I, I hate you so much. You create distance for us even wounds for Antyka. I'm sorry. I hated seeing my little sister suffer so much. He always questioned his flaws, his mistakes. But he found no answer. You all disappeared giving no answer. He falls in love for the first time and is devastated. What else she you divorced in pregnancy. All so coming to his life"

"If only you had been frank about your circumstances at that time. At least you gave us the choice to wait for you or leave" Luthfi looked at her former sister-in-law with sympathy but she could not prevent the pain that Alif had to endure because of her decision.

"Sister Luthfi. I know Antyka loves me very much and I know she would prefer my daughter-in-law. I don't want Antyka wasting time. I want him to be happy. My father and my parents chose to leave Indonesia to accompany me, because they loved Antyka so much. They did not dare to look at the disappointed face of Antyka. Deep down, we are also tormented" Alif told Luthfi.

"All has happened Lif, Tomorrow Antyka will marry as you wish. Seeing Antyka happy again"

"Yes, I can still live and will see him happy with another man" There was a breath so heavy from Alif's nasal cavity.

"You're sorry?" luthfi urged on Alif who already looked almost desperate.

"I. But I have to accept all my own decisions"

"I no longer hate you Lif, we were once a family. I hope in the future we can relate better. May you be happy and one more I do not expect your presence there. Antyka's wedding ceremony" Luthfi said

" Sister Luthfi is afraid that I'm messing with Anty's wedding?" ask Alif getir

" No. I've known you for a long time Lif. You're not that kind of person. I don't want to be chest tight when you see Antyka hanging out with another guy. You think it's easy? After all you and your family are respected people as well as Mr. Hendro's family, there will be a lot of media covering. Your good name is on the line there, especially you Lif"

" I will still come from the moment of ijab until the reception. For my heart and race to believe that it was not a dream. So that my heart will be broken and no longer feel love for Antyka who already belongs to others. I will open a new leafan after that with a dead heart" said Alif steady with his stance.

Alif nodded, confirming that the miracle existed. The proof is the existence of him who is still breathing. The pain that gnaws at him can be destroyed.

"Sister Luthfi, may I be with Caya tonight. Tomorrow I come with Caya" Alif looked at Luthfi with a plea.

Luthfi became worried, he didn't want to make a mess . Antyka will be very angry when Caya does not come back home. In addition, Luthfi is still gamang, of course he also has a fear Caya will be taken away by Alif.

"You're kidding Lif? of course I won't let Caya come with you. You could've run away Caya, to thwart Antyka's marriage"

"Am I that dirty in Luthfi's eyes? I accept Antyka's decision. Caya was by my side so I could live and breathe for tomorrow. At least I have Caya as my life's reason. Is it too much of a request?" Alif continued to beg

"This is the worst thing I'm gonna do, Lif. I risked Antyka's happiness. Can I trust you? "

" Caya my daughter, I'm not going to separate Caya from her momy. I'll return it tomorrow. I will ask permission if necessary to Antyka now "Say Alif really.

Luthfi was still silent, then he contacted his wife Karin to quickly return to the restaurant carrying Caya.

Caya appeared directly towards Alif. He sat on his Daddy's lap while leaning on Alif's chest. Alif immediately offered Caya to eat his favorite food, gourami fish.

" Want to eat the same big fish? Daddy wants to bribe Caya"

" Want, Caya wants to eat big fish" Caya looks happy. Alif immediately ordered the fish that Caya wanted.

Karin and Luthfi also seem to casually notice the Interaction between Alif and Caya. I felt compassion in the hearts of both. Luthfi looked at Karin by asking for his wife's opinion. Maybe the female instinct is more sensitive. Karin seemed to understand and took Luthfi out for a while to talk.

"Mas I think let Caya and Alif. At least Alif was a little entertained when there was Caya nearby. Alif needs Caya right now" Karin said half-whispering as they walked in front of the door

"I also think like that. But I'm afraid Alif took Caya away "

" He will not hurt Caya by separating mother and Son. Mas Luthfi knows, even Alif willing to release Antyka to be happy when he was sick. Especially his daughter. Alif wouldn't dare to be silly"

"Well I bet my trust this once on Alif. I hope he can keep my trust"

" Well, we're in. I'm hungry" Karin whined after their negotiations were over

" Oh yeah, sorry baby I forgot. What do you want to order?"

" I want rich Caya, grilled gourami. Who broke the spell, huh?" Karin looked at the spoiled Luthfi. Luthfi only scratched his nape that was not itchy.

" Must I separate the durin?"Luthfi still made sure that Karin wasn't kidding.

" If you don't want to be papa. I wanna..."

" Yes, there go in I want a servant's message first" said Luthfi who was welcomed happily by Karin.

***

" Caya has her toothbrush, Daddy" Caya said as she put her toothbrush in place.

"Style change clothes first yes, put on sleeping pajamas. Daddy will accompany Caya. Daddy wants to hug Caya until morning" said Alif with a sad look then he grabbed Caya, sitting on the bed.

With painstakingly Alif changed clothes Caya.Sambil continued to look at his daughter. The rumbling in his chest was so great. Antyka's face is very clearly printed in Caya. without feeling any clear bulir melts flowing.

" Daddy why? daddy's eyes hurt again?"

Alif smiled smirkingly while nodding. "Daddy's deep boboh will keep Caya here" Caya complies with Alif's request.The girl breaks down and hugs the doll on her left side

" Lord ...." Call Caya while sleeping in her bed.

"Hemnn.." Alif also lies on Caya's side while patting Caya's buttocks.

"Is Daddy sad?"

" Daddy hurt Caya's eyes" said Alif

"Daddy, lying is a sin. Caya knows Daddy is sad. Dady wants to marry momy? Caya will tell momy that Daddy wants to marry mommy tomorrow"

" It can't be Caya. Because momy wants to marry Momra's father"

" Let Caya say to Ibra's father, if Daddy only married mommy, Kasian Daddy so cry continues. Ibra's father must have followed Caya's request"

" No Caya, Kasian is also Ibra's father. Daddy's fine"

" Daddy ...," Caya hugged her father tightly while rubbing again the clear melts that flowed on Alif's cheeks "Don't be sad there is Caya. Daddy .., we pray that Daddy, Caya and Momy can stay together"

" Oh yes, may God bring our little family together"

After the Chat Caya and Alif fell silent. They are silent to each other . Caya was closed but the little girl's lips moved to recite the prayer. A heartfelt request from his holy heart. His love for Daddy and Mommy.

So did Alif, while still hugging Caya his lips trembled asking for a miracle with deep resignation. The words that come from the pain of his heart. " God give us your miracle, unite us in a family"

The night is getting late, the two hug each other to pick up the dream of a beautiful dream they hope. In the last third of the night Alif woke up, he opened his eyes and looked for his daughter who he hugged last night.

Alif was surprised when he did not find Caya by his side.. He immediately looked for. Alif's eyes were fixed on a small figure who was raising his hands.Sayup heard Caya's speech begging for happiness for his momy and Daddy . Alif's heart grew more tenacious while guaranteeing every line of his daughter's prayer..

Alif could only let his little daughter pray. Until falling asleep again on the bed. Alif went to the bathroom to celebrate the evening prayer. He offered a prayer asking for a miracle at the last second.

When the sun began to rise Caya wriggled.he woke up and looked at the father who was at his side.

" Daddy is up?"

"Yes, did Caya pray for Daddy and Momy last night" Alif asked as she hugged her daughter. Caya nodded

" Oma said that praying in the middle of the night would be easy to grant. Caya often sees the oma praying in the middle of the night" said Caya innocently

" Caya.., Daddy is sorry. Daddy promised to be happy. As long as Caya has always loved Daddy" Alif feels guilty for weighing on his daughter's sensitive heart. In his heart promised to be more rigid in order to be a figure that Caya was proud of

Caya nodded while tightly hugging her father.

" Caya shower, we will take momy to her wedding venue" Alif glanced at the clock on the wall

"Daddy isn't sad anymore?"

"There's a Caya that Daddy loves. Why should I be sad?" Alif showed a genuine smile to Caya. He has calmed down whatever happens he will accept. In her little fingers Caya. This little girl is right as her name suggests, Light.