When That Sense Is Present

30. The facts that exist

The sky looks cloudy, the heart of Alif and Haris' father. They walked down the corridor to the hospital lobby. From far away it was Rajes. As soon as he saw Mr. Haris he was a little moved.

" I'm helping you" Rajes offers himself to push Alif's wheelchair. There was a cloudy aura on their faces.

Haris' father opens the car door himself, giving Rajes access to move Alif into their car. The drizzle speck adds to the sahdu of a shattered feeling that rages in the chest.

"Thank you Rajes for your help during this time" Haris' father thanked him when they reached the Apartment. Rajes just smiled and bowed respectfully then passed after his task was done.

"Sleep Lif, if you're tired. I'll prepare for your departure to America" I've opened his cell phone to contact his secretary.

"Give Alif time yeah"

"Quickly Lif, do not delay. I will explain your situation to your mother and your wife. They must have thought the same as Dad to immediately do the treatment"

Alif is still pensive. No longer answer my words. A series of medical procedures must return he lived. The abnormal tissue found in his body, is malignant. As a doctor, I know how important time is. Every second is precious to fight the disease.

" I have to go home tomorrow, Mike will take care of you here" Haris' father's voice sounded. " You must be a strong Lif, I'm sure of it. The Pradipta clan is not a crybaby. We're tough fighters" The pats on Dad's boat are currently so warm.

**

Since the biopsy results came out, Alif was getting worse. He locked himself in a room. Increasingly reluctant to communicate. It's very worrying. Mother and Father always encouraged her heart even from a long distance.

The feeling of regret had brought Antyka in his life. Guilty of destroying Antyka's future. Although a piece of memory with Antykalah makes it still survive to live life.

Alif rubbed a photo of Antyka with his heart slashed. Seeing that woman's smile, it always made her heart beat faster. Read all the messages Antyka Sends every day over and over again. Although Alif never returned it.

Alif asked his parents to promise to hide his condition from Antyka. Alif did not want to make Antyka lament his misfortune, for Alif this was too painful.

When the sun started to shine, Alif opened the door of his apartment. Alif thinks Mike's coming in for the father who has to meet the client.

" You...!" Alif turned his face. His face seemed to imply dislike. "What are you going to do here?" Alif looks upset so know the guest who came was Dr. Farah

Farah snorted with Alif's welcome . The man remained haughty as always. Although Alif's welcome was very annoying, Dr. Farah still forced her way in and sat in the guest room.

"I'm concerned" The phrase slid from Dr Farah's mouth arrived.

" What do you mean?" Alif replied still indifferent to the existence of dr Farah.

"Go to America" Farah stared intently at Alif, waiting for a reaction from the man in front of her.

"It's none of your business"

"Maybe this could speed you up to make a decision" Dr Farah left a brown envelope on the table. Then the woman stood up and left Alif.

Alif let Farah go. His eyes ponder the brown envelope Farah left behind. Alif repeatedly took a deep breath, throwing away the tightness. He brought the envelope Sarah gave him into his room. After the door closed, Alif opened the envelope by tearing off one side.

Alif held tight as soon as he saw some photos from inside the envelope he opened. A scene that ignites the flames of jealousy. Waving anger.

Ibra holding Antyka, Ibra hugging Antyka. Ibra rubbed the tip of Antyka's head with a friendly smile. Angry and hate themselves. He cannot protect Antyka. Until another man can get close to his wife.

His heart was broken, broken, jealous but he was helpless. Clear bulir flowing without sound. His pride is hurt. Alif threw all the photos and scattered them. Alif slammed whatever he could achieve. Until the sound of a bang on his bedroom door echoed.

" Braaaak.., Alif what happened" Mike entered Alif's room as soon as he could break the door. Mike has arrived. The big tall man calmed Alif down. " We're talking Lif, not like this" Mike looked down at the floor, strewn with some photos and also the stuff that Alif threw.. Taking a photo of Antyka with a man. Mike was surprised. It is fitting that his sister-in-law is on a rampage.

Mike looked at the photo he took. Looks like all the pictures were taken, showing Antyka's eyes closed. It was as if Antyka was not in a conscious state.

"But Lif, we can ask for an explanation from Antyka. Don't get emotional" Mike gave advice.

"Get out, I want to be alone" Alif shouted loudly and pointed towards the door. Finally Mike relented leaving Alif in his room after making sure everything was safe.

" I'm getting a divorce from Antyka, please get me a lawyer." Alif said after Mike and himself finished dinner.

Like in a lightning strike, Alif's words stiffen Mike. Mike was so traumatized by the word divorce. The sweat on Mike's forehead flowed instantly. Mike's feelings are getting restless.

"You're angry Lif. Calm your mind" Mike tries to dampen Alif's emotions.

"Give this to Antyka" Alif gave a piece of paper containing details of some compensation to Antyka after they divorced. Alif did not flinch from Mike's words.

"Lif...." Mike ran out of words, the man's lips became muddy

"Do it as soon as possible or I don't want to go to America or even get treatment anywhere"

"I have to discuss this with Dad and Mom, Lif"

"Faster my father and mother agree to my decision. I'll be gone sooner too"

"This is not true Lif. You have to keep Antyka's family feeling"

"You better call Dad, Mike. My decision is unanimous"

"Lif, there must be an explanation from Antyka. If you get it wrong, you'll regret it for life. You're gonna lose him. Look at me Lif. Do you really hate Antyka?"

Alif looked at Mike sharply "I love him very much. I want him to be happy. I can't promise her anything more. I don't want to be selfish Mike " Alif said with a burst of emotion. Mike was stunned by the sentence Alif said.

"If that's the case you'll break your heart Lif. Fight, you will be healed. That's what Antyka needs"

" When ? we all don't know what's gonna happen to me, Mike. I would feel very sinful continuously, if binding Antyka in uncertainty"

Mike had run out of words to oppose Alif's wishes. Then Mike opened his phone, contacted Haris' father to come to Singapore immediately.

"Don't say anything to Dad, Mike. I just want you to know why I divorced Antyka because Antyka cheated on me. Don't tell me about my fragile feelings. I don't want my mom and dad to worry about me either. They should have calmed down in their old age"

"You're destroying yourself Lif. And I'm pretty sure Antyka never cheated. Fuck this photo elevator. There's still time before you cry your whole life" Mike bullies Alif.

" I don't need advice. I've thought about it. Just do what I want" replied Alif ketus

**

Haris' father was silent, he was like being stung by millions of volts of electricity, when he heard Alif's decision. There was clearly disappointment in the middle-aged man's eyes. His heart hurts.

"Dad will follow your wish Lif. Keep your promise to go heal yourself for this old man. Father and mother will come with you, After your divorce process is over" Haris' father stood by massaging his temple.

" All this time I've always treated Antyka like my own daughter. And at the same time I'm gonna get him a divorce warrant from you. I don't have the heart, Lif. The girl was too obedient and understanding. In my eyes, she was perfect. Dad would not be able to look into his eyes that would be hurt" Dad walked back and forth in a trembling voice describing how his emotions stirred his chest

Alif still doesn't talk. Alif realized all his actions would hurt Antyka greatly. The woman will also be slandered to have an affair to facilitate the divorce process. But his determination was unanimous, Everything he did for Antyka's happiness in the future. Alif was willing to be hated all his life. He also lost half his soul. Alif considers all of this punishment worth her that has forced Antyka into her life.

"Dad send a lawyer to take care of all your business tomorrow morning. I'm waiting for your decision tomorrow. Please consider again" There is still a speck of hope from Haris for Alif to change his decision. Although he knew Alif was the incarnation of his stubborn character.

After signing some papers filed by his lawyer. Alif looked pale. It's like he killed himself while signing all the papers. Haris' father remained seated unmoved. The middle-aged man tried to toughen up.

"All the necessary files are all ready and we will process soon."

Alif was silent for a moment. His forehead creased, then he cleared his throat throwing off nervousness." Please in the process after we leave. Antyka will definitely try to ask for an explanation from us"

"We're leaving for America tomorrow night. Everything was prepared by Mike. And you Lif, still have an appointment with Dad. Try to heal, so that you can live your old age calmly" said Father to Alif.

**

Antyka stayed back at Ajeng's mother's house after her mother and father's departure to America. Without Antyka knowing what happened to her husband. Mother and Father just said will open a new business there.

That afternoon Antyka had just finished her prayer. His body doesn't feel well. Since the fainting incident in Singapore until now Antyka became more sensitive in the morning. But once it was noon, any food tempted him.

Antyka observed the two men standing in front of her. They wear formal suits.

"Can we meet Antyka's mother?" said one of the men in a blue shirt.

"I'm on my own, Please sit down" Antyka invited the two men to sit on the porch seat

" Introduce me Space and this is Rahman. I'm a lawyer appointed by Dr. Alif"

" lawyer?"

"Yes Ma'am, we represent Dr. Alif to deliver the divorce papers"

Antyka's gaze immediately darkened. He doesn't know what to react to. As Antyka believed, Alif could not possibly do such a cruel thing to her.

"Sir Alif, it's impossible. You guys got the wrong address, right?"

"Sorry Mom, this is true. Please return to read the lawsuit carefully. I'm sorry if this surprises you, we're just doing our job"

Antyka was still silent with the white envelope in her hand. Staring at the departure of two men who bring bad news. His bones felt weak and powerless.

" Anty what's wrong?" Mom's voice sounded soft. Mama Ajeng looked anxiously at Antyka who remained silent with a blank look.

"Istigfar Anty, what happened?" Mama shook Antyka's shoulder. But Antyka's body was weak and fell.

"Anty.." mama Ajeng panicked. He immediately contacted Luthfi to come.

Antyka blinked her eyes. His sight was still blurry and unclear. Samar sounded the chanting of the holy verse. His mind whispered that all this was a nightmare.The right side was Luthfi and mama who was still chanting the holy verse.

" Ma, where's Antyka?" Antika feels this place is foreign .

" In the hospital, baby, you passed out. Thank goodness you're conscious now"

"Ma, that letter....?"

"You just rest. Let Lutfi's brother take care of it" Mama gently rubbed Antyka's head.

"Pak Alif tega ma.." Antyka's voice raspy. His memories have re-assembled.

"It's still unclear Anty, isn't your husband still in Singapore?. Luthfi's gonna find out everything. You're calm, son"

***

Luthfi went to Antyka's in-laws' residence. When they got there, their house was empty. According to the workers, Antyka's two in-laws were in America. Inevitably, Luthfi must go to Singapore where Alif is being treated. Luthfi felt the Pradipta family was very disrespectful.

The feeling of annoyance and humiliation of his sister was treated like this. At this time he was already in front of the door of the Mike Apartment that was usually occupied by Alif during illness.

" What's up?" Said an Apartment guard

" Ab ....?"

" Nothing. Mr. Alif has moved "

"Where if I may know"

"I'm sorry I don't know exactly but..."

" But what ?" Lutfi starts to get emotional.

" All I know is they went to treatment. Because Mr. Alif's condition is getting worse"

The feeling of doubt was also the anger of feeling his sister being abandoned. They should have given me any news. Antyka is more accepting. Than divorce papers.

Luthfi returned empty-handed. Not getting any information. Seeing Antyka who was pensive her heart ached. The girl became more shy. Since my father died later plus Alif accident and now he got divorce papers. Antyka's world seems to be collapsing.

Seeing Luthfi came Antyka turned her head. My eyes Antyka full of hope. Luthfi turned her face away, unable to look back at her brother's eyeballs that were full of wounds.

"Sir Luthfi"

" Anty, are you okay?"

"Is everything right?" Antyka did not comment on Luthfi's sister's question

" Alif and his family are missing Anty" Hearing her brother's words. Clear details shed from Antyka's eyelids

"What's wrong Anty?"

"You're Anty's sweetest brother, you're not wrong. It's just that you met the wrong guy" Lutfi can only hold his sister's body that looks tired

" Aty love Mr. Alif. Anty just wants to Mr. Alif" Anty said as she unsealed a hug from Luthfi and then covered her face with two palms as she ran into the room and locked the door.

It's a total loss for Luthfi to see all this. For a moment he pondered. Before Mama Ajeng's voice was startled.

"Fi.., I have something to say"

"Ma" Luthfi turned. My mother stood behind him holding onto the paper.

" What is ma ?"

"Anty's weak right now, how's Alif?" mom sat next to Luthfi

"They all disappeared ma. But some say they go for treatment. Luthfis don't think about their behavior, ma. Is it because they're so powerful that it's so easy to dump others?"

" Medicine...?" mom's surprised.

"Why ma? kok mama was shocked" Mama was silent for a moment

"We should follow Alif's desire to divorce Antyka" said Mama.

"Ma..., how's Anty's trus?"Lutfi was surprised by the attitude of his mother who suddenly changed.

"For what Fi survives, they don't trust us. Mama is sure Antyka is a strong child and another one" Mama sighed for a moment delaying the word she wanted to say. " Antyka's pregnant...."