When That Sense Is Present

35"Daddy...."

"It's not just a historic place in my life. Here I feel my life is back. I came with a very beautiful little girl. His white cheeks and clear eyes caught my attention. Right here, on this swing. I was still in a shabby shirt fascinated at the little girl who was smiling while playing a swing. Maybe you never remember it. But from that day on, my world was made. My world is only about you" Ibra said with distant eyes.

At his side Antyka just glued, trying to remember a dozen years ago. This swing is his favorite place. Every Sunday my father brought him here with him many snacks and also a story book. He also remembered the many abandoned children here that I saved.

" I just remember always playing the swing here, every Sunday when I come here with my dad" Antyka said

" I always tried to stand out so that Dad would pay more attention to me. I've always been obsessed with being the best. So that my father would take me home more often or give me a walk. Because at that time I will meet you more often. I also changed my taste for food, following you who always loved sweet food. Dad always said I and you really look alike and can't be separated. After I grew up the desire to have you became more and more crazy Anty, but I realized I was not who is not comparable to you. I pursued my education as high as I could. Building the best possible career so that I deserve to be with you"

"Did brother Ibra not regret finding me already..."

"Don't say that. The best thing for me is to be with you, it's enough Antyka" Ibra cut out Antyka's words. " We're going to reminisce here" Ibra leads Antyka into Dad's orphanage.

Long enough Ibra let out her heart. Made Antyka more confident in her decision. Time rolled, making both of them move from that place.

" One more place I want to go with you Anty, come on" Ibra pulled Antyka's arm towards her car.

Almost towards dusk, the sky had started to turn yellow, the atmosphere seemed densely creeping. Still with happy twinkle Ibra to Antyka's favorite donut stall.

Antyka realized when she reached this place. He held a smile remembering what happened first.

"You remember?" look at Ibra without hiding the look of the face that wants to tease Antyka. This place is very historic for both. Antyka nodded in shame. With cheeks that start to meet red.

"Yes, we are the same in angry father because he was desperate to this place. I was having a toothache, but I begged Ibra to buy me a donut with my favorite full chocolate topping. My teeth hurt even more and Ibra's sister got mad at Dad"

"I've always saved up my allowance, to buy you anything you want when you come to visit the parlour'

The two entered the booth and ordered a box of chocolate-topped donuts. Sit face to face and enjoy her sweet eating donuts. Both laughed and remembered. How could they escape the watchful eyes of the caretaker to get to this place.

" Dad not only scolded me but separated us for a few months. Every father visits the parlor you no longer come. At that time my breath was crowded Anty, I often steal time to come to my father's house. I wish you were outside the house. Until Dad saw me and Kasian, then let me in and even stayed there"

"The day we play together releases longing after a few months of not meeting. Dad asked me to promise not to spoil you too much. But I'm stubborn lucky I'm pretty good at it and often make you proud of my achievements"

"Anty, I was that good to you a long time ago" Ibra kept chuckling." We go home The light must have been waiting for us" Invite Ibra when he realized the day was getting dark.

" Wait on Ibra, I have something to say. For me right now, Ibra's feelings are very important. It's about the light "

"Tell Anty, I've been wanting to know from yesterday"

" The light will meet with his Daddy" Antyka said, waiting for Ibra's reaction "It disturbs my mind. It's actually Light's right, but I need to be frank with Ibra. I'm sorry I asked for Sister Ibra's clairvoyance"

Ibra was silent. There, in the corner of his eyes was a sense of uneasiness. Antyka's past is back. There is fear, there is anger. But Ibra also has to understand and accept Antyka's past coming back.

" When?"ask Ibra with restraint

" Tomorrow, I will not accompany the Light to meet his Daddy, Brother Ibra. There's Luthfi's brother who's gonna drive him. I have decided to step up and will not go back in my past" Antyka said making Ibra sparkling.

"Thank you for taking care of my feelings, Anty. As long as it makes the Light happy, and you are also relieved, I do not mind it" Ibra said straightforwardly accompanied by a sense of relief from the commitment Antyka made. There's no reason to worry or just be blind jealous.

***

"Uncle Lutfi's hold on" Caya sulked as she spread her hands. Luthfi happily held Caya.

" Well glad to see Daddy?" luthfi asked as she rubbed the light-haired child covering her pretty face.

The light stared at uncle Luthfi with a twinkle of his clear eyes. Spreading his smile while nodding. Then the little girl stared at her Mom for a moment.

"Why didn't Momy come?" tanya Light.

" Momy, you have to meet Caya's client. There's Uncle Luthfi who'll take care of Caya. Caya wants to see Daddy, right? Caya good boy, surely Daddy will be happy with Caya. Don't be naughty there" Antyka kissed her daughter's forehead before they left.

His little hand reached Luthfi's neck. Sometimes the little girl buried her face in the chest of the uncle. The car drove to a restaurant where they made an appointment to meet.

Luthfi leads the ponakan to a private room that has been booked. Luthfi's open door looked at the man in the room. His strapping body was still the same, Alif sat alone.

Alif looks awry when he meets Luthfi's sharp eyes. Then her eyes glazed over as the little girl holding onto Luthfi's hand gave a smile. Alif is approaching.

"May I embrace the Light" Alif begged Luthfi with trembling lips.

"Wait" Luthfi stopped Alif. Then Luthfi crouched down spelling out a confused Caya. " Look, that guy's Daddy Caya. Daddy wants to hug Caya, can you?" Tanya Luthfi makes sure the ponakan comfortable when hugged by a stranger.

"That's Daddy Caya?" tanya Caya looked at Alif who had melted tears, impatiently wanting to embrace the Light. Caya notices Alif, the girl sees Alif from toe to hair.

" Daddyyy...." Caya shouted running at the figure of Alif who was already trembling ingiin hugging him.

Suddenly the room became very blue. Lutfi could not even bear to watch the meeting until he threw his face towards the other.

The two hugged.Caya put her tiny hand to Alif's neck. Alif's shoulders continued to shake holding Isak. Alif released his longing for Caya, hugging her as if he did not want to escape.

After a while the atmosphere calmed down. Alif wiped his tears and then kissed Caya's face.

" I'm sorry Daddy Caya, Daddy misses Caya." said Alif.

"Daddy..."

" You are not well sitting too long washed away in sorrow" Luthfi's orders resuscitated Alif who was still resting on the floor.

"Daddy's daughter is very pretty. Caya is very similar to Momy" Alif said as he clasped his daughter's tiny hand.

"Ehmmm.." Luthfi cleared his throat and shocked Alif.

"Sir Luthfi how are you" Alif was stale.

"I'm very good. But today I'm not okay. It seems like I want to beat up people to vent my feelings" Luthfi replied cynically.

Alif knows, Luthfi must be very angry with him. What he has done must have hurt Luthfi and Antyka's extended family.

" I know and maybe my mistakes can't be forgiven Mr. Luthfi" Alif lowered his head.

" I don't have much time, I just want to give you two hours with Caya for a while"

" I wanted to take Caya to meet Oma and her opa"

"Can't be like that. Caya can't be too tired she needs rest. We make another schedule to meet. We don't trust you guys very much anyway. Especially after what happened to my sister"

"All right.." Alif gave up not wanting to argue. He knows himself enough. Then he turned to the light. "What do you want to eat?"

"Caya is not a fussy child, he can eat anything other than spicy food, of course" Luthfi replied representing Caya. with a thin tone.

" Uncle don't be angry, Daddy's kasian" was evident from earlier Light noticed the chat Uncle and also his Daddy. The girl realized that there was anger in every word of her Uncle.

"Uncle is not upset Caya, Daddy is wrong" Tukas Alif mediates the tension.

" Caya, Uncle came out for a while" Pamit Luthfi walked out of the room before her emotions exploded. He doesn't want to look bad in front of the guy.

Alif and the Light were both in the room. Alif immediately took the Light and sat on his lap.

"Caya, Daddy misses Caya" Alif hugs and admires his daughter. His heart trembled, Caya's face was very similar to Antyka's. He left only dimples and thin lips on his daughter's face.

"Why should Daddy work far away? Caya also miss Daddy"

" From now on Daddy will work here to be close to Caya "

" Really ?" Caya was surprised and pleased by Alif's words. Alif kissed Caya's cheek again.

"Yes"

The two had lunch together. Even Alif feeds Caya, as if wanting to do everything to make up for the time that passed beside Caya. Alif also asked Cahaya to tell Caya's school lodge, Light's favorite food, and also anyone friends light friends. Alif listened carefully. He loved to see his daughter's expression when she told stories, so carefree and adorable.

Suddenly the door opened. Alif turned, luthfi was back. Two hours is just a moment. Both Alif and Caya feel like they still want to be together. But seeing the facial expression of Luthfi sour Alif was willing to part again with the Light.

"It's noon, we have to go home" said Alif persuaded his daughter who immediately sticky.

"Style wants Daddy to come home"

"Next time we meet again Caya"

" Why doesn't Daddy just stay with Caya?. The big house. Dady can stay there" Luthfi and Alif both immediately gasped in shock at Caya's innocent remarks. The two men did not expect that Caya would ask for the impossible.

"Yes Caya, when. Daddy's still busy taking care of Daddy's job moving in here. The light would be if Daddy works here "Lucky Alif gets a reasonable answer that can be received by a child as small as light

A moment of silent light thought of Alif's persuasion. His little brain immediately agreed to Alif's wish for him to go home first with Uncle Luthfi.

" Uncle.., please Caya and Daddy in the photo together. I want to save Daddy's picture"

Luthfi followed Caya's request to photograph her nephew and former sister-in-law. Caya hugged Alif in the photo. Then Caya did not stop there. Light asks for some pose photo together with the Daddy.

"Daddy dear Caya..." Alif hugged and kissed her daughter. Caya reciprocates his Daddy's embrace tightly "Caya also loves Daddy" said the two when they were going to separate.

Alif stared at the departure of Light that was carried by his former brother-in-law. The light looks very spoiled on uncle Luthfi. Alif's feelings were painful, he should have been the one to spoil his daughter. He is responsible for Caya. Alif rubbed his face calming the turmoil in his heart. Until he was still standing firmly when Light waved his hand saying goodbye .

" daddy...Caya went home first" Alif waved his hand and continued to look at the car carrying the Light until it disappeared.

Alif back in the room. There is a feeling of happiness and relief. God still gave him time to meet the Light. But there is a feeling of disappointment because Antyka did not come with the Light. Of course Alif misses him a lot and hopes to see him.

" You probably hate me so much, Anty. I deserve this punishment. But I just want you to be happy. The way I chose may have been wrong. Thank you for giving me the most beautiful gift. He really is the Light for my life Anty, the Paras will always remind me of you. Anty wherever you are. I hope you are always happy. Memories with you will always be my reinforcement. There was once the most beautiful story of my life. And I love you until the end of my time "

Alif paid all the bills at the restaurant cashier. Then he asked the driver to drive him home. Throughout the journey he could only be silent. The light and light that filled his chest cavity. He wanted to make his daughter happy.

The car that Alif was riding in, entered his luxurious house. In the main room the mother and father look already restless. Alif entered the house greeted two people who were so curious about the story.

" How's Grandma Lif's granddaughter, is she okay. Does he want to hug you" a question from mother

" Caya is very beautiful mother. He is healthy, smart and also easily familiar. I'm happy mother" said Alif while hugging the mother.

" Thomas ..." The relief hue is clearly visible on the mother's face.

" When can my granddaughter be invited here?" father with enthusiasm.

"Don't rush Well, they're good people and understanding I don't want to hurt them anymore. We have to give it time. That time will surely come. Most importantly Caya already knew me as her Daddy and I was allowed to meet Caya more often"