When That Sense Is Present

36. Facing the past

The night is getting late, when Antyka corrects the location of Caya's blanket. In her eyes was a tiny face that was so peaceful in sleep. As a prayer he said to his beloved baby. Caya wriggling looking for bolsters to hug him. It was so happy to see Caya have grown this big.

Since the afternoon, Caya looks so happy after meeting her Daddy. His little mouth told me. How much they enjoyed their time together. While sleeping, Caya still continues to deliriously mention the name of the Daddy. Beyond that a sense of longing that Caya has been responsible for all this time.

Antyka wants to erase all memories. His heart was broken again. The figure of Alif whom he loved very much. No matter how Antyka tries to erase her past, but unfortunately, the story leaves a trail. The most beautiful gift in his life story. A tiny angel who is now the source of her power. Antyka had to pay with pain. Light is the eternal imprint of his love story with the man Alif. Far away Antyka laughed, in her mind filled with a million question words.

" You haven't slept?" mama Ajeng's reprimand makes Antyka return to the real world.

" No ma yet. Why is she not asleep, too. It was very late, ma" Antyka stood up and greeted the mother who was standing at the end of the door.

Mama's face looks wet, Maybe mama just took wudu for evening prayers at home mushola.

"Mama just woke up, Anty. Mama wants to pray first. You take a break, don't think too much" said the mother as she looked at her daughter who was still standing in front of her. Antyka nodded and went into her room.

In the room, Antyka's eyes did not want to be closed. His heart feels restless, can not be denied there is a little curiosity. About Alif who has returned. His heart was at war as the shadow of Ibra was always present in every difficulty. Repeatedly feeling guilty. Although a little curious.

By morning Antyka was ready to go to school with Caya. Ibra came to give him a surprise on a sunny morning.

"Sister Ibra?" screeched Antyka as she opened the door. He looked at the man in front of him in disbelief.

Ibra just smiled with a bunch of red roses in her hand.

"Good morning Anty" Ibra thrust a red rose at Antyka. Antyka receives a bunch of roses from Ibra. Ibra has always been sweet and sincere to her.

" Thank you, come in Ibra, we have breakfast together" Antyka invited Ibra in and brought her flowers into the house.

"Norton .... Megalo...I'm coming ..." Hearing the voice of people he knew Caya immediately rushed to find Ibra.

As soon as they met Caya immediately hugged Ibra tightly.

" Do you want to take Caya to school?"

" Yes, Caya likes it?"

" Like.., if the same Dad gets there sooner. I can speed" Caya told Ibra

"Stttth.., later momy heard" Ibra put her index finger over her lips. then both laughed

Antyka put a cup of hot coffee in front of Ibra as well as a few slices of sandwiches to enjoy Ibra for breakfast. Antyka frowned seeing Ibra and Caya chuckling.

"Something's funny, why didn't momy tell you?"

" No, momy it's our secret" timpal Light.

Ibra enjoys a warm cup of coffee and starts chewing on the sandwich Antyka gave her.

" Brother Ibra from home?" Antyka sat beside Ibra accompanying the man to enjoy his breakfast.

"yes I miss Caya, so do you" Ibra chuckled. His words made Antyka wrong.

"we're leaving Caya" Ibra asked after finishing her breakfast. Caya directly holding jemari Ibra. Walking together without caring for Antyka who is busy with Caya's bag.

After taking Caya to school, Ibra takes Antyka to a small cafe by the side of the road.

" Well, come here, Ibra, we've had breakfast?"

"I want to talk to you alone. Did Caya yesterday so meet with her Daddy?"

"Sir Ibra wants to talk about this?. Caya met his Daddy yesterday with Luthfi's brother. I promised Ibra. I'm sticking. Ibra believes in me, right?

Antyka looked at Ibra. Humans are unique, just yesterday Ibra was nice but today. On Ibra's face was jealousy.

"Sorry Anty, I. I was almost crazy when I imagined you guys meeting again. I'm sorry I'm blind jealous. I love you Anty, I don't want to lose you anymore"

"Yes I know what Ibra's sister feels. It also makes me feel bad to be frank with Sister Ibra about the arrival of her Daddy Caya. I beg you to trust each other. I've chosen my future with Ibra. We've even ordered a wedding dress" It hurts when in doubt. But Antyka realized Ibra was just jealous because the man in front of her no longer wanted to lose.

Ibra approached, looking at the injured Antyka with her childish attitude. But he was also relieved to have expressed the feelings he felt all day yesterday.

"Sorry Anty, my worries and fears are too much" Antyka nodded. A time like this must haunt their relationship. At least, the two must be honest with each other to express their feelings without judging each other. They need maturity for their next relationship.

"She, I know this situation will happen sooner or later" Antyka told Ibra .

"We will encourage each other and be open. We face it together. Is there a problem with the Caya and Daddy meeting?"

"Nothing, only Daddy Caya wants to be given time to meet more often"

"Are you afraid Caya will bring them?"

"So it's tucked in my mind. To be honest, all this makes me uncomfortable. I want to focus only on our relationship. I feel so wrong"

"Sorry Anty, I wasn't too strong when I imagined you guys meeting. But I promise we'll talk to each other if we're uncomfortable. About Caya, I'll be your protector. I won't let them take Caya from your side"

"I'll involve Ibra if circumstances require me to meet Daddy Caya. All this time all the business of Caya and his Daddy Luthfi brother who handles"

While talking Ibra's phone rang continuously. Ibra lazily picked it up.

"Yes.., I'm there right now. Please handle for a moment. Thirty minutes to go" Ibra answered a phone call from her personal assistant.

" Who is Ibra's brother?"

" I have to get to the office right now, Alisa's telling Mr. Smith I want to revisit our deal"

" Boyou can go now. Office matters are more important. I can take a cab"

"Follow it with me, Later from my office you can go delivered Mr. Abdi my driver" bargained Ibra feel uncomfortable leaving Antyka alone. Feeling guilty is like throwing Antyka away.

" No, I'll go straight to the restaurant. My goal is opposite to Ibra's office route, inefficient"

" Anty.., be careful" Ibra said as she entered her car.

Ibra went to his office in haste because of an urgent affair with Mr Smith. He could not ignore Mr Smith, as he was one of Ibra's important partners .

**

"Mi, this is also good, simple and elegant" Antyka told Hana's mom when they chose the theme for wedding decorations

" He is, but my mom wants a little cheerful, Anty. How about this one"

"By noodles, it's also nice not too crowded but memorable warm. Anty wants this one mi "

"Yes mami also like this" said Mami Hana attended their discussion with the WO.

"Ibra said she wanted to follow here, Anty.. Does Ibra not mind our choice?"

"Sir Ibra would agree, as long as we like. Mi, brother Ibra can't come. There was an impromptu meeting. Alisa just sent me a message"

" Oh .., yes it is"

" Mi, Anty want to take the road mami want?'' antyka was ashamed. He wanted to know his mother-in-law better.

" Come on, mommy's bored at home too. We're going to the mall, right?"

"Yes mi, can be"

" We're looking for food first, mi, it's noon. Ibra said she loves sushi. Mommy wants to eat Sushi, or want another menu ?" ask Antyka politely

" Mommy wants to eat Sushi. Anty, sit here near mami. Mom wants to talk about Ibra. Although this mother is her mother, but a lot of time is missed. Mami did not get to see Ibra's growth. How was Ibra still in the orphanage?"

" Sister Ibra is stubborn and very persistent. He is also patient, patient and responsible. In addition, he's an older brother who pampered Anty "

" The character of Ibra is very similar to his papi, Although it looks very firm, papi is a very loving and patient person. Mami shaved Ibra found by the right person . He could have had a brilliant education. Once upon a time when mami had worried about the state of Zigra" chatter about Ibra continued to flow.mami many ask Antyka.

" I.., sorry.Aty actually wanted to ask Mami" Antyka said hesitantly.

" Just ask Anty, what's wrong?"

" Mommy knows that Anty already has the Light. Do mom and dad not mind?" Antyka immediately looked down not daring to look at Mami Hana.

Mami Hanna gasped at Antyka's question to her. The middle-aged woman clasped tightly onto Antyka's hand. Deep down he felt the indignation of Antyka for his son. Mami Hana understands Antyka's feelings. But for Mami Hana the happiness of Ibra is everything

" Aty, Mami just wants Ibra to be happy. He always looks at you with love. Of course mom would do the thing that made Ibra happy. Ibra did not misjudge . You're a very decent woman for Ibra, Anty. Mami just asked . Please don't disappoint Ibra. That's just my mom's request. Make Ibra happy with you" Hana's mother's words make Antyka relieved.

" Aty will try to be the best for Ibra's sister, mi"

"Thank you Anty" said Mami Hana sincerely.

" Our order has come. Eat first, mi"

Finished eating the two went to see a collection of beautiful clothes. Mami Hana bought some clothes at fantastic prices for Antyka and Caya. Antyka felt very sad. But Hana's mom forced a little Antyka to accept the gift from her.

After shopping for clothes, Antyka invited Mami Hana to go to the salon. The two enjoyed treatment while talking about tomorrow's plans to meet with the caterers. Mami Hana is a warm figure. Not much different from Ibra. Although the characters are strong, but they are full of affection. Antyka is hardly confident dealing with Mami Hana, all because of her ever-married and possessing the Light.

But it turns out that Mami Hana really really iklas accepted her as a prospective daughter-in-law. He remembered Mami Hana's saying "No man is perfect. You are met because it is his destiny. I will accept the woman Ibra chose. There's no reason to reject you, Antyka. Destiny puts you in this position. Mommy also knows you're a good woman"

***

Antyka came home when she had taken Mami Hana to her house. Mami Hana actually asked Antyka to enter the house. He seemed to miss a friend he could talk to. Antyka's polite and respectful attitude also loves Mami Hana. Makes the woman want to be close.

Antyka parked her car in front of the house. It was already the afternoon. His presence was welcomed by Caya. The little girl sat on one of the benches on the terrace with Oma.

" Caya, momy's home. Boy momy is so beautiful, has a bath? emh fragrant fragrant, momy likes" Antyka kissed Caya who was sitting. Caya tried to brush aside Antyka while laughing in an overjoyed laugh.

"Momy brought what?"

" this?" Antyka put some paper bags on the table. " This is a dress from Oma Hana, make Caya also there loh"

" Want to see..., would like to see ..." Caya looks enthusiastic.while soaring up the jump

" These are Caya's two paper bags. We try inside the house" Antyka persuaded.

" Okay mother" Caya immediately darted into the house.The little boy was impatient to try out his new clothes.

Antyka follows Caya into the house but Ajeng's mother stops her.

" Anty wait!"

" Yes ma, what's wrong?"

" Lutfi called my mom. Alif called him again. His parents want to see the Light" said the mother who looks riled up. " Mama actually doesn't want to deal with them Anty. What do you think?"

For a moment Antyka was silent he still could not make a decision.

" They and Caya have every right to know each other. We can't hide Caya continuously. But Anty doesn't want to see them anymore either. Does Luthfi have time to drop Caya off ?"

" Lutfi is doing a lot of Anty's work, you can't ask your brother to do something like this continuously. You have to be brave to meet them" mama gave her a look.

" Anty is afraid of hating them and being out of control ma, Anty does not want to hurt them with rude remarks that you may not accidentally do. This wound was still there even though a long time had passed"

"Mama will accompany you Anty, we will strengthen each other there. Sooner or later we have to deal with them. Just pray that we can keep ourselves from bad speech and emotions"

Caya's voice calling out to her Oma and Momy, The girl couldn't wait to show her the beautiful dress she was trying on.

" Oma, momy. Look at Caya's pretty clothes"

" Yes momy's coming"

Although only a story halu but not easy to pour in the form of writing. I try to keep the spirit of nulis. Once, I wrote until one chapter, before I was edited first while falling asleep. Tau gak guys?... wake up time my writing is gone all ..... I became huwaaaaaaaaaa......