What's Wrong Pa

My life is meaningless

From a distance Nadhira saw the departure of Rifki until the shadow of Rifki was lost in the distance, after which Nadhira walked towards the door of the house and opened it.

When Nadhira began to enter the door of his house and he was suddenly greeted by a sharp gaze from his papa, his papa sehera approached towards Nadhira was, Nadhira just stood there, the gaze of the two met.

"Where have you been?". Ask Rendi.

"From pa's friend's house".

"Who is that man?".

Nadhira looked at Rendi with a gaze so lazy to talk to her papa, the question immediately changed her mood, the man referred by Rendi was Reno who told her to get into Rifki's car.

Reno's appearance is different from others, his clothes are so neat and look like a bodyguard in a big company, but in fact Reno is two years older than Nadhira, who is a big company, but his appearance will be like an adult.

Indeed, Rendi had never met Reno before because his men were never invited by Rifki to Nadhira's house, but he also did not know about Rifki's life so far, but he also did not know about Rifki's life, Rendi thinks Rifki is the son of ordinary people because he always picks Nadhira with his bututut bike but he does not know that Rifki is the owner of a famous company.

"Why did papa ask that?".

"You went with a man without asking permission from papa, got in the car too, do you not know shame ha? Want to put where papa face hah, when his son is so easy to be invited by a man like that bastard .....". Omel Rendi to Nadhira.

"SUFFICIENT PA!!! I'm not that kind of person!!! And you know that man is nothing like what papa said!!! I'm disappointed papa, what's my fault pa!! Why do you distinguish between me and Amanda!!! Yes I know, I am not Amanda who can feel the affection of a papa!! But I also have a feeling of pa!!". Nadhira's cry broke instantly.

Nadhira was so inadmissive when his father continued to vilify the male figure referred to by his father is Rifki, during this time Rifki has become a person who is so meaningful in his life when the affection of a father can not reach, then the affection of a friend becomes a place to lean.

Nadhira is very familiar with the figure of his best friend even though he is part of a gang filled with people who are great in martial arts but Nadhira is so sure that Rifki will never harass women like what his father said.

Rifki is so very respectful of women, that is what makes Nadhira so safe and comfortable near Rifki, Nadhira will not accept if his best friend is insulted by others even though it is his own papa.

During this time Rifki was always there for Nadhira, although often in a state of unconsciousness Nadhira was brought in his parking lot, but Rifki always kept her chastity and let Nadhira occupy her bed while she prefers to join the men to sleep despite crammed with the others.

Especially when he saw Rifki and Theo fighting, because Rifki felt unacceptable if a woman underestimated by Theo, making Rifki so angry.

"You really dare to refute papa's words at this time!! You're not like your mama's upbringing".

Nadhira cried in front of his father, he covered both ears because he could not listen to the words of his father who was so sick he thought.

Nadhira who used to be obedient with his papa and would complain if he would do something, Nadhira would not be able to refute the words of Rendi all this time, and now who is in front of Rendi, Nadhira, will not be able to argue, Nadhira bravely denied his words and even dared to hide something from him.

Suddenly Nadhira remembered when he was hospitalized, his father had never visited him or asked about his news during his treatment, since the presence of his mother and stepbrother made Rendi's attitude change drastically to Nadhira.

"It is true that Nadhira who was not saved in the hospital, his soul has been lost and lost for a long time, do not equate the former Nadhira with the present pa, our souls are different!!".

Nadhira's sobs can be heard clearly in the room, Nadhira's deep sadness felt, it's true what people say if we laugh too much later we will cry loudly, he said, as Nadhira is currently experiencing.

Nadhira who had laughed happily with his best friend now he cried loudly because of the behavior of Rendi to him.

However, Rendi is the father of Nadhira, actually in her deepest heart, Nadhira is also hurt because of her own words to her father but her father's words are much more hurt Nadhira.

"It's better that you catch up with your mama right then and there than to make papa ashamed of your attitude, you're just a burden to me!!".

Rendi's words instantly created a lightning bolt in Nadhira's heart, the speech felt so painful in Nadhira's heart his chest felt so tight, Nadhira stopped his crying by wiping the tears that would drip on his cheeks.

Nadhira clenched his hands tightly, Nadhira took a deep breath so that his tears would not fall from crying over his papa, his cries instantly turning into the emotional face of Nadhira.

"Don't hate myself pa, even I hate myself".

Nadhira held his chest that was painful because of the speech, Nadhira tried to control his hunting breath, slowly the field of emotions subsided before Rendi. Nadhira closed his eyes and regulated his breathing.

"If suicide was innocent, then I would have done it a long time ago, without having to wait for papa to say that, now I'm more sure, that my life is no longer meaningful to my father".

Nadhira was so tormented by the wounds her father had inflicted on her, the sobs she let out were so heartbreaking, Nadhira turned her body and turned her face up, face up, it was as if this world would be meaningless to him anymore.

The sadness was not able to last longer, Nadhira facing up for so long as if he would not have the spirit to live any longer especially when he heard the words of Rendi that so pierced his heart.

Slowly Nadhira's mouth began to show a sad smile, Nadhira opened her eyes and suddenly laughed loosely while facing Rendi, the laughter contained so much deep sadness.

The laughter seemed to torment him not only was his mind tormented but his mind also felt a tremendous pain because of the words given by Rendi to him, she said, because the pain was no longer able to bear Nadhira so he chose to laugh loudly.

"Haha.... Does papa want my life? So take pa take, I will gladly give it to papa, I will not regret it pa, because I will die in the hands of someone who once meant so much to me, at least dying in the hand of the papa is an honor for me because I can ease the burden you have been carrying all this time". Nadhira said with tears but her mouth kept on showing her laughter.

He felt so hurt at his father's words, as if his father wanted the death of his son, Nadhira's body trembled violently and his lips seemed to express a deep disappointment.

Seeing her child like that her heart also felt so slashed especially when hearing Nadhira say such a thing, Nadhira's sobs made her feel so bitter while her tears flowed but she immediately tepis and rubbed it.

"i'll get you a dull but powerful knife that you'll be content to torture me, maybe it'll ease my heartache pa". Nadhira said with a laugh.

Nadhira clasped his hands so tightly, the hand continued to let out cold sweat, as if the situation was affecting Nadhira's health as well.

The laughter was still on Nadhira's face, although the tears continued to flow so fast, Nadhira walked to his kitchen to get a knife for Rendi, when he arrived at the kitchen, and he went to the kitchen, he immediately opened a drawer in which there were several knives.

Nadhira checked one by one the knives with sharpness, Nadhira chose a knife that is slightly blunt and very taper, the knife was slightly larger than what is usually used bi Ira for cooking.

Because the rustling sound in the kitchen makes bi Ira immediately rushed to the kitchen to check it, he found Nadhira in the kitchen, so bi Ira intends to come to him

Seeing Nadhira holding a knife while crying made bi Ira so surprised, bi Ira immediately stopped his steps, he said, he did not know what had happened to his son because he did not know the conversation between Nadhira and his father.

"What do you want to do, son? Why carry a knife like this? And why are you crying, what's really going on?". Bi Ira asked while holding Nadhira's hand.

"Don't stop me ma'am". Nadhira snapped, the clash made bi Ira feel shocked for a moment. "I'm sorry for the last time with mom, I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done on purpose or not". Nadhira's tears slid down.

"What did you say? Don't act stupid, son".

Bi Ira's efforts really failed to stop Nadhira's steps, Nadhira clasped tightly the handle of the knife and walked towards the direction of his papa was, with sobs from Nadhira's mouth, Nadhira's mouth, Nadhira gave the knife to his father.

Nadhira told Rendi to hold the knife tightly, while Rendi just remained motionless and did not even hold the knife tightly, making Nadhira scream.

"Hold pa!!".

Rendi immediately grasped the knife tightly, Nadhira smilingly saw that. Without Nadhira realizing that bi Ira followed him to the front of the two, bi Ira felt so worried about what Nadhira would do that his worries ended up bringing him in front of Rendi.

Seeing Rendi's hand that did not move, Nadhira immediately moved his hand to move Rendi's hand that was holding a knife that he took before, Nadhira put the knife in Rendi's hand towards his neck.

"Nadhira!!". Shouted bi Ira and Rendi together.

Unintentionally Nadhira's hair was opened because of the movement of Nadhira and showed a scar on his neck that had not dried or rather because it was exposed to Nadhira's sweat so that the wound that had dried now returned to release a speck of blood, Nadhira closed his eyes and prepared to feel the incision that Rendi would give him.

Nadhira did not know the facial expression of his father who was so surprised to see an incision wound on his neck, the wound seemed to still look new.

Because the wound was open so that the pain that Nadhira felt began to increase unlike the first time Nadhira was hit by the incision wound, Nadhira released his hand grip from his papa hand gently.

"If I am a burden to papa, then please remove that burden now pa!! Let me die happy because I can reduce the burden you have been responsible for all this time, I am ready to give my life to papa". Nadhira said as she sobbed in tears but her lips kept showing a smile. "If it is my death that you have waited all this time, then do pa, do not let papa wait too long".

Nadhira's body was so limp because of the crying that he let out for so long that his body could no longer bear the sadness, Nadhira could only resigned to it.

Rendi's hand holding the knife suddenly trembled, he would not be able to do that but Nadhira with his passport he would give his life willingly to the papa, he said, nadhira would rather die at the hands of his father than commit suicide.

Rendi was only silent with the situation, he was angry with Nadhira because of Nadhira's attitude that changed to him, but he did not want to lose the figure of a child like Nadhira for good.

Suddenly he remembered how Nadhira was stabbed by a knife to save Rifki who would save Amanda from kidnapping, Nadhira was a brave child, even he was so willing to lose his life just because he wanted to help his best friend.

"Master please don't take Nadhira's life, I beg you sir". Bi Ira tries to ask Rendi to forgive Nadhira.

"Mother Ira you should not interfere in the affairs of father and son, let what happened should happen". Strictly Nadhira though he still closed his eyes.

Hearing the words that Nadhira said to him instantly made bi Ira cry because of it, bi Ira did not want to lose Nadhira forever, she said, bi Ira had already felt the loss when her husband and son died together due to a single accident so she did not want to lose again for the second time.

"Sir please!! If Nadhira Tuan considers it only as a burden, let me take care of him, do not take Nadhira from me Sir, I love Nadhira very much". Bi Ira continued to beg Rendi for the knife that Rendi was holding to release immediately.

After waiting for Rendi to move her hand to kill him, but the hand never moved, Nadhira felt that the knife still remained beside his neck.