UNDESIRABLE

Chapter 13

My foot stepped on a snot when it came to changing the bridal outfit for the fourth time. There is no spirit in me.

"If it can't go on, just say it from now on" exclaimed the father behind the door.

I'm wearing a simpler bridal outfit now. "I've decided to marry Ipra, I can't hurt her anymore."

"Marrying her without love has also hurt Ipra without you noticing."

I opened the door and then, "What about this one?" my many.

"The son of this father is fit to wear anything" he said, photographing me without cue.

"To be honest and hurtful is much better." I started talking about my feelings for Ipra again.

"I love Ipra, you don't have to worry."

"Dad prefers Arkan." he muttered to my surprise.

"How can you like him while Arkan kills your wife."

"You still love Arkan even though you killed your mother. Love is indeed difficult to guess, even though we hate it but we have a love for the person slowly we will definitely forget the hatred. So even with my father, I love Arkan as he is my own son even though his mistakes are fatal, I still love him." Dad smiled and then patted me on the shoulder.

"Don't make yourself trouble, hm." Dad blinked one eye and started taking pictures of me again.

That night Ipra invited me to dinner at his house. His family welcomed me so kindly. Ipra has a younger sister who is still a teenager. He stuck to me once. I'm happy because apparently the Ipra family accepted me, especially they did not think about my status as a single parent. They advised me to bring Junior next time.

After dinner, I stayed on the balcony. Enjoying the night breeze that hit my face. I miss Arkan.

Suddenly a cloth was on my shoulder. I turned to see Ipra put down a small blanket to warm my body.

The situation was still silent, only the rumbling sound of the wind was also the trees. "Are you happy to meet my family?" tanya Ipra started the conversation.

"Hm~ I'm happy."

"Thank God, they also seem to like you a lot. I don't think there's a hindrance to our marriage" she said with a very happy look.

I'm happy too.

"You accepted my proposal with all your heart?" ask again. I smiled and then nodded.

"I don't want you to accept me with pity. Especially now that Arkan is always around you, you still love him right." his face water turned sour. Ipra tries to force himself to keep smiling.

"I can't deny it anymore, I like you and I love Arkan. I was afraid of losing you both." I took a breath and continued, "But Arkan gave me up for you. My feelings will probably get deeper for you as time goes on." I explained to Ipra.

I know my sentences might still be gray for Ipra.

Ipra grabbed my hand and held it. "I love you" he said.

"I know."

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Sunlight penetrates into the room from the cracks of the windows. My body wriggled and opened my eyes to find Junior lying next to me. Since when did he move ?.

I put the blanket up to her neck, rubbing her thick black hair. His eyelashes are as pliable as mine, I envy Arkan because Junior's face looks more like his.

"Hah~ it's time Junior knew that Arkan was his father." I got out of bed and headed to the first floor. Aunt Ahn didn't come today. He said he had to take care of his son who was going to college.

I pour a glass of water and drink it. Open all the curtains and find a silver box outside near the door. I opened the lock and took the box to the table.

"It looks like this box was sent from not just anyone." I grabbed the scissors and started to open the tape. When I opened I found a doll with a head, arms, legs apart. Also the unpleasant smells that turned out in the box were a lot of carcasses of cockroaches. I immediately screamed as some insects came out of the box.

My body shakes instantly, I suddenly feel nauseous. Instead of running to the bathroom unless I ran to call the security guard, he immediately moved the silver box and killed the insects that had been wandering on the table and floor. My legs were so limp, I stayed in the room with Junior until Arkan arrived.

Arkan carried Junior and took him out with me. I didn't know where he was taking us. For sure he was not dressed like a bodyguard this time was much more relaxed.

"Hm~" I answered.

"I think you should buy an apartment and stay there for a while" he said, focusing on driving.

"I can buy it for you if you want, I want you and Junior to be safe and comfortable" he added.

"Not necessary, really. I can stay with dad for a while."

"Don't hesitate, I'm like this because it's my duty as Junior's father. I really want her to be safe." Arkan smiled at me and rubbed Junior's hair.

It's a long road and I don't know where Arkan took us. To be sure the road is rocks, a lot of leaves fall on the right and left side of the road. It's still in the city but it's like being near the mountains.

Arkan's car stopped, he opened the seatbelt and opened the car door for me. "What is this place?" ask her.

"You will know later. Here's Jun." Arkan took Junior out of my lap.

We walked up the stairs that were filled with moss. Thankfully I don't wear high heels. There's a lot of stairs that even make me tired, "Do you want me to carry?" the trick made me squint my eyes.

"I'm still strong" I said rising from my seat.

Junior was chatty once on Arkan's back, they chatted smoothly as if a friend. Arkan would occasionally harass Junior, saying he would leave Junior here and go with me. I laughed when Junior panicked, he beat up Arkan in annoyance.

Until we finally got near a pretty big house. I'm open to disbelief because there's a modern house in the middle of the woods like this.

"This is my home" he said casually.

Arkan unlocks the key and tells me the password. I was amazed by the content of his house is very beautiful minimalist. Simple yet seductive.

"This is also designed by Riana Room, you know" he said arrogantly.

I just chuckle. I looked around his house, there was a mini swimming pool under which was a clear stream. This place is really comfortable once coupled with the sounds of nature that makes the mind calm. As soon as I forgot all my burdens, I closed my eyes while enjoying this silence.

Suddenly, a hand rolled up in my stomach. When I was about to see Arkan forbid me, he asked me to keep my eyes closed and enjoy all this comfort. This time I can also hear the sound of Arkan's calm, regular breathing. He didn't take off his embrace.

"Thank you." I opened my eyes.

"For what?" she asked, I turned my body to face her and looked up at Arkan. "For all this tranquility."

Arkan smiled then his hand touched my hair and landed on my left cheek. He rubbed it while tucking my hair behind my ears. "Beautiful" she said with a face that was getting closer to mine. Our noses touched, I could feel Arkan's breath on my face. I closed my eyes as our lips touched.

"Mami~" I opened my eyes and tilted my face to look at Junior. She was standing with her hand holding a small frame, and there was a picture of my wedding with Arkan.

"Mommy, why are the bodyguards glaring so at Junior" he said closing his eyes using the frame, Junior was scared because Arkan was glaring at him. I immediately hit Arkan for daring so to Junior.

"Your son is disturbing this moment. It's been three times." he muttered with an annoyed face.

"He's your son too" I said, prompting Arkan to step aside from me.

"Come, baby. Just ignore the bodyguards." I pulled Junior into the house.

Junior asked me why there was a photo of me with Arkan. Today I told Junior that Arkan is his father. Junior was a little confused because all this time the father he knew was his grandfather. However, suddenly Junior said something that made me and Arkan laugh. "Om the bodyguard so the papa Junior is, mami? so papi Junior eng...ga old again?" tanyanya while shaking her legs down and up.

"From now on, Junior call papi guards" I said tidying up his messy hair.

"Pap...pi muda~." call him while smiling. Arkan laughed happily when he heard that. He immediately hugged Junior, accompanying him to play until he was exhausted. Arkan and Junior fell asleep on the sofa along with toys scattered everywhere.

I sorted everything out with a feeling of excitement that seemed like it was about to explode. It's like being a mother and a wife now. I put them in blankets and then kissed Junior on the forehead, suddenly I also wanted to give a good night kiss to Arkan. I put my lips on his forehead.

"Great dreams of my heroes~"

TBC.......