UNDESIRABLE

Chapter 11's

"Ma.mi. o..om, bell....lisik~" he murmured while yawning. I don't know when I pushed Arkan's body, which he must have been sitting on the floor.

I don't care about him, I carry Junior and go back to the room. In the end I did not wash my face before going to bed, and it caused pimples on my forehead. I grumbled early in the morning, annoyed at why there should be a prominent pimple.

"Everything because the guy sucks, if he hadn't bothered me last night, it'd be obvious this pimple wouldn't be here." I tried to break the pimple but couldn't because it was still small and immature.

I grabbed the mask and put it on, "If there's a mask for the forehead." I said grabbing the car keys and throwing it at Arkan who was still sitting sleepy on the couch.

He was fresh when I threw the key. I led Junior to the garage. Today is my birthday, I need to prepare a lot of food to celebrate so I invite Arkan to the super market. I knew he was supposed to be off work today but I didn't remind him of that. Suddenly I did evil to Arkan not to go on a date with Lucy. Fortunately, he did not remember.

I pushed the trolley while Arkan carried Junior. Once we argued about groceries, Arkan said I was making vegetables too often and he said he was bored. "No need to geer yes, anyway I cook vegetables also not for you." I said put mustard into the trolley.

"I was just telling the truth for 4 years ago."

"You should have just said it by then if you're tired of my cooking."

"Even if I'm bored I can't tell my beloved wife, how can a husband hurt his wife's feelings" she said with a smile and raised her eyebrows.

I rolled my eyes, "You said where can a husband hurt a wife? Are you trying to forget your memories? didn't you marry me every day you hurt me? Alifa~ Alifa~ and Alifa~" I said to be upset.

"Hey~ it was only a few months after that I became your mistress." replied Arkan disagreed with my words. I didn't answer him but smiled because I was suddenly happy.

"Isn't this informal speaking very convenient?" I asked Arkan, and Arkan nodded.

"It's so much like this, there's no need to be formal I don't like. Ah~ and also I want you to be consistent with the attitude, I don't want to see you change 5 minutes later. Being a cold, indignant Arkan unclear, I really do not like." my body shuddered as it recalled Arkan's attitude that changed the other day.

"You're not a labile man anymore, why you have to change every day." Arkan did not answer my words, I turned to look at him but Arkan was not there by my side. He's still left behind. Again he upset me, I spoke at length but not heard at all.

I hit his arm in annoyance but something sticky stuck to my wet hand. When I saw Arkan's hand there looking a little scribbled, I looked at him. Arkan instantly pursed his lips, "You got a tattoo?!" I said I couldn't believe it.

"Since when? why did you break this nice body of yours. Ah~ jeez Junior can't see this." I immediately ran towards Junior who was looking at the crabs.

"What's the big tattoo?" tanyaku and Arkan nodded doubtfully.

I was angry with him, even hitting and pinching his body.

When I was home, I judged Arkan. I went back to scolding her, I told her that the tattoo could cause cancer. I also said that I don't like men who have tattoos. "I'm not tattooed to impress you" he said, leaving my mouth open in disbelief.

"Hah~ is completely out of thought." I muttered pulling the wet wipes roughly and started removing the lotion cover that was on his arm. I was surprised when I found out that the tattoo was so big. Arkan told me about the tattoo, he said he's been tattooing since high school and his family found out.

"Why are you hiding it from me?" ask me to keep a used tissue on the table.

"Because it's not important, I'm not hiding it for you but for the army" he said, leaning his head against the couch. I looked closely at the tattoo on Arkan's arm, it seems like I've seen this tattoo. "Hows it? this tattoo suits me, right?" ask with confidence.

"You hit me when it was lobbied, right? I remember this tattoo. At that time you wear all black clothes also wear a mask." Arkan was silent for a while. "Yah~ I got caught."

"Since I was in prison, I told people to always watch you. I need to know what you're doing, sorry it's overkill" he said regretfully. I am not angry at all unless I am happy.

Suddenly someone opened the door without knocking first, I turned with Arkan, where Ipra was standing with a large bag of crackles in both hands. The big smile on Ipra's face faded when he saw Arkan sitting next to me. Arkan got up and grabbed his suit and said goodbye to go home.

"Hey~" I said to Ipra. Ipra smiled then kissed me on the cheek and said that he missed me.

Tumben once Ipra did not ask Arkan what he was doing here, my mind grabbed the crackle he brought.

Even though Ipra has my mind fixed on Arkan. During the preparation for the evening, my brain spins around imagining a date like what Arkan and Lucy did, what surprise she would give Lucy. Must be so romantic.

By night the guests started to arrive, there was not much to invite. I only invited a few people who were so close to me. Junior I leave it to Mr. Yu, it's so sad to be me that even I can't admit my own son.

I walked down the stairs, at the end of the stairs Ipra was waiting for me while extending his hand. Ah~ after this will definitely come out a lot of news about me and Ipra. I smiled stiffly as Ipra kissed my hand. Everyone sings birthday songs to me, when I blow the lyrics everyone claps and prays for me.

I'm happy but would probably be even happier if it was celebrated with Arkan, Junior, father and mother's photo. I received a lot of presents today, what else Shon gave me a classic car as a gift. I really do mind being given an excessive amount of gifts.

I walked into the garden behind the house, enjoying the night breeze for a while. It is very cold, but I am very comfortable. Suddenly Ipra came and gave me his suit. We talked about a lot of things even when we first met. When I was dumped by Arkan and it was Ipra who was calling me, Ipra was always by my side when I was in trouble and alone. He was the one who accompanied me for these four years, and now "Allow me to accompany you forever, I think this is the right time for you to make a new sheet together with me. You will no longer be alone raising Junior, and I can fully protect you. Will You Marry me?" I was silent, unable to say anything. Ipra proposed?.

I didn't realize that many people were looking at us right now, and they were calling out to me to accept Ipra's proposal. As I looked around, I found my father. He was looking at me, and I couldn't read my face.

I looked back at Ipra, his face holding a lot of hope in me. His hands were shaking with nervousness. I admit Ipra has helped a lot, even he did not give up to get me. It's not the first time he's proposed to me, I've turned him down a lot. And, I think I've been so cruel to Ipra but on the other hand my feelings for Arkan have never worn off.

What answer should I give to Ipra, suddenly my mind floated on Arkan and Lucy. Right, Arkan alone dares to fall in love again as well as me.

I smiled at Ipra, "Yes I Will." I said making Ipra gawk in disbelief. He was silent for a while until at last Ipra's friends rushed to hug him and said congratulations.

"Finally, marry also lu~"

I laughed seeing his friends proud of Ipra. He took off the hug from his friend then walked back towards me, Ipra pulled out the ring attached to the box and then placed it on my little finger slowly. After that we hugged.

Pardon us. My inner self, remembering my feelings of being unhappy at all even though I smiled broadly. I don't feel happy emotions at all, I've lied to myself and Ipra. I closed my eyes and said in my heart 'I will love Ipra, slowly~' I keep repeating the sentence so that I can be doctored.

By dawn I was still not asleep, I did not even feel sleepy at all. My fiancee's ring came off and I put it on the nightstand, grabbed my phone and checked social media for a moment. The photo that came out top was a post sent by Arkan, where he was having a romantic meal with Lucy. I didn't give him love, I clicked on the comment field and found some comments praying for Arkan and Lucy's relationship.

I looked at the ceiling with a blank stare, I was fighting with the contents of my evil head.

What should I do after this?....

Btc ........