UNDESIRABLE

XV

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" I shouted at Arkan as he opened the door. Arkan fell silent and smiled, but his face appeared to be exhausted. He was happy but tired.

"Do you know my birthday?" tanyanya sat on the chair.

"At registration to KUA." I said keeping a tart on the table. The candle is still on.

"Let's go mech." Then Arkan put his fingers together, closed his eyes and began to pray. And with me, I made a wish. My plea is, I want to be with Arkan with love and affection that continues to overflow every second, minute, hour, day, month, year. Suddenly Arkan kissed me on the lips, "I love you" she said.

"I love you too." I answered and we kissed.

The next day, I laughed when I saw the candle melt until it blends into the cream of the cake. But Arkan ate it anyway, he sorted through it so that the melts of the candles would not be eaten. Arkan also distributed it to neighbors around.

Arkan and I were standing right at the door of Ipra's house. Arkan said he wanted to give this big piece of cake to his best friend. But Arkan said it with a slight press of the word 'best.'.

Ipra came out with disheveled hair. He was bare-chested and only used a boxer. Arkan immediately threw the cake into Ipra's chest. I was surprised just like Ipra.

"Apasi, suddenly came. Suddenly pin the cake on the chest, I'm not birthday anymore" he said annoyed.

"You're doing it, baby. That's not good." I reprimanded him.

"I'm afraid you'll see other people's muscles besides mine. Lagian lo do anyway out ga wear clothes, how about the boss who came."

"Gue deliberately did not wear clothes because I saw in the window there Geya, I guess there is no lo." Ipra said that casually.

"What kind of stupid excuse is that. Yaudah, I'm just here to give you that cake. Enjoy, I aminin deh do'a of lo." Arkan pulled my hand quickly, so I immediately apologized to Ipra for Arkan's attitude.

At home I scolded him, I didn't like it if he was like that. Even if the person is really very close to him. That's a bad thing.

"Yes sorry~" Arkan regretted, he hugged me.

"You should apologize to Ipra." I stroked her hair slowly.

"Come, apologize now." I muttered, kissing the crown. Arkan's hand tried to grab his phone located on the table. Then he dialed Ipra's number and called a call.

"You what?"

"You said I should apologize to Ipra."

I immediately grabbed Arkan's phone and turned off the call.

"I'm sorry for the house now" I said firmly. Arkan pouted but he complied.

I peeked through the window, Arkan was knocking on Ipra's door. Then Ipra came out wearing clothes now. They talked for a long time, until I finally didn't see them interacting. Arkan came back home, and then asked me to go to the room. Arkan loved to make my chest a pillow.

I asked Arkan if Ipra forgave him, and Arkan said yes. Thank goodness, I don't want them to fight or anything.

At the same time Arkan took me to the city, to buy some kitchen and bathroom materials. Arkan also whined about buying a playstation 5 game console. I was really surprised by the price, Arkan immediately bought it without thinking of anything. I really screamed, because I think I could renovate some of my dad's photo studio with the game console's money.

His face was bright, he was like a child today.

I was waiting for Arkan in the car, because he said something wasn't bought yet. So he went back into the mall, while I put the groceries in the trunk.

"Hey?" I immediately looked at the source of the voice.

"Julian, bu~ Jung?" I asked a little.

"Ah~ you still recognize me apparently." I nodded.

"Where's Arkan? are you alone?" I told Julian that Arkan was still in the mall.

Suddenly Julian told me that Jung's mom was his mom. I was surprised because it seemed like the world was really narrow. Julian asked me why I didn't call him.

"Ah~ sorry I threw away your number because I was afraid my husband was angry."

Julian laughed blandly, "You know, you're going to need that number so badly. Too bad you threw it away. You don't seem to be curious about the information I've gathered about Arkan."

"Then we'll have to excuse ourselves. See you next time." They both left me. Shortly after that Arkan arrived, without bringing anything. So what did he buy?.

I was silent all the way home. We went home to Arkan's house. He said he didn't want to go home today. Honestly, Arkan felt claustrophobic in the office house, because he said small.

I cleaned up all the groceries, put some ingredients in the fridge. But my mind drifted everywhere. I kept thinking about Julian's words, this time I was really curious about the information Julian was referring to.

I stared at Arkan for a moment, he was busy playing his new game. Is there really anything Arkan is hiding from me?. About him who would protect me, about him who would always keep me by his side. Protect me from what? then does Arkan think I'm leaving him?.

Suddenly Arkan's phone rang, he picked it up and went out of the house.

On the other hand I don't feel any suspicion of Arkan. I'm more suspicious of Julian, but I'm really dizzy right now.

By the time we got home, some people were already swarming around the house. Arkan slammed the car door and walked over to the house as well as me. I'm confused not to understand why there are so many higher-ranking people here.

"Sodara Arkan, we have news that you have committed several offences, you will be held for the next few days for interrogation."

A long-haired woman tied up like a ponytail asked me a few things. He also told me the reason why my husband was called, was because Arkan had let Alifa stay at the office. Wearing an official vehicle for a date with Alifa. For the time being Arkan was suspended, he was banned from using official assets. And the woman said there was something to investigate about Arkan.

I smiled as I walked out of the room, Arkan's face looked very sour. He had even taken off his uniform, he only used trending pants and green shirts. When he was about to leave Arkan was told to collect car keys, as well as his badges. He can still joke with his friend.

"We go home to me." he yelled at his fingers in my hand.

That night we didn't sleep in one bed, Arkan slept on the sofa with the tv still on. "The electricity bill can go up." I muttered as I enveloped Arkan. His face was bright, his eyes were puffy. Is it possible that Arkan has been crying?. Without realizing it, I fell asleep in a sitting position. My body was numb, it hurt so much when I tried to straighten my legs. Arkan is no longer on the couch, the bodyguard says Arkan left to take care of something.

Dad called me and asked me what happened, I told him everything. It sounds like you're shocked by Arkan's treatment like that. It's obvious if he doesn't like me first. But I made sure to dad that Arkan loves me now and loves me.

Shortly after my dad's phone call died, someone called me. The number I didn't know, and after I picked up it was the phone number of the make up director who offered me to model it. The director said that my dad gave her my phone number. She gave me a job, but I had no interest at all in getting into the modeling industry. This director forced me to interview me once, I asked Arkan for permission first and told him about the job offer. Arkan handed it to me, he also told me to take the interview.

As a result I tried it, the building is amazingly large and tall. Lix, one of Arkan's bodyguards accompanied me, because that was also an order from Arkan.

When I went inside, I didn't blink for a while. Julian, he's the director who called me. His lips smiled quite wide. "I didn't expect that in the end, you'd want to do an interview" he said, gesturing for Lix to leave. But Lix firmly refused, "I will not go out unless the mother asks" he said. Julian was quite shocked as well as I was, I felt like an important person because it was guarded like this.

Julian finally did an interview for me. He asked a few things until the end. "I think you might have plans to get married again?"

"I think this question is too distorted" I replied annoyed.

He smiled, "I heard Arkan on the suspension. Wah~ I really can't wait to see the other surprises."

I knit my eyebrows, "What do you mean?"

"Now you want to know?" tanyanya pulled her body closer to me.

"I said no, I know a lot about Arkan. And it's all related to you. You're starting to get curious now?"

My heart started racing.

"You want to know for yourself or maybe you want to know about me?"

"What do you know about Arkan?" my many.

"Bu~ sorry for interrupting the chatter, mother-in-law's situation is a little wrong." I immediately rushed away when Lix said that. But when I got to the hospital, my mother fell asleep accompanied by papa. I asked papa but papa was confused, he said mom is fine today even two more days mom is allowed to go home.

On the way home, I looked at Lix. Why would he lie to me, say that mom's not okay when I want to know about Arkan. Maybe Lix knows about Arkan, or maybe I'm the only one who doesn't know. Mother's attitude when glaring at Arkan on the first day of mother's hospital admission. Miss Jung's words about a big sin, then the clue-clue given by Julian. And also the behavior of the mother who treated me better than before.

"Bu~ we've arrived." Reprove Lix and I also realized. I got out of the car and went into the house, Arkan was cooking there. He greeted me with a warm kiss.

"Would you shower first or eat first?"

"Eat." I muttered, pulled up my chair, and sat down, and looked at Arkan, who was good at cooking. That wide back of his could definitely cover something big.

"How's the interview?"

"Quite smoothly and surprisingly enough, the director of the makeup business is Julian. So narrow is my world." I eat rice.

"Where are you from? don't tell me if you have any business outside."

"There's something I have to take care of regarding the courier who sent me the package a while ago. The courier's bothering me enough."

"Disturbing? is something wrong?" I was trying to figure out what was really going on with Arkan.

"Little problem." she replied calmly. Shit I can't ask any more questions. In the end I just nodded.

After a few days.

Arkan was called again to be asked about his departure to Amsterdam first. While Arkan was interrogated he asked me to pick up some things in his study, he also asked me to bring home the wedding photos that were displayed in this room. I collected the books that Arkan had listed. Also some data flash about his work.

I'm looking for cardboard to put these things in. Until I finally found a cardboard box under the table. I opened it, and there was a book that looked shabby. I grabbed it and opened the book.

'A CRUELTY OF AN ARKAN SOLDIER'

Deg. I was shocked to find this reading at the beginning of the page. And when I opened the next page there was written a date of the month and year and also a fragment of a newspaper.

'A Soldier***was seen shooting an Asian woman to death. Then throw it into the abyss.'

When I opened the next page, it felt like my heart had fallen to the floor. My hands shook tremendously, it felt like I wanted to vomit in shock. And at that very moment Arkan came, we looked at each other. Arkan glared as his gaze fell onto a book I was holding. He approached me but I quickly avoided him.

"Please don't come any closer!" I said with a trembling tone.

"I can explain everything." Arkan still insisted on getting close and trying to grab this book I was holding.

"STAY AWAY FROM ME PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME!" I screamed at him. My tears fell, I cried. I tried to look back at this photo maybe I was wrong but it seems right. This is a picture of the mother who was cut down.

TBC.....