Titan

eps. 27

Tired of my fingers,

With you on the air in solitude.

Tired of looking for, though,

To reach you, who is present like a dream.

Maybe you've been hurt, once,

Because the way I love you is so different.

The way I love you is unusual.

I love you in silence, not in romantic jokes that always make your mind float imagining something very beautiful.

Nope. 

I am someone who loves you in an unusual way.

One way I have is to keep loving you until I make sure you are happy for the love I give you. If you are unhappy, let this feeling that I cannot describe continue to linger in your heart, until I am at the point that all breaths have been lost in your life.

The air is gone I can no longer breathe, I will still try to make you happy even though sometimes the way I am is different.

"I'm waiting for you here. Love and love you with all your heart. So please, don't go." --KANGEN

***

One month had passed, Tania did not understand everything that was happening. Titan has no news at all, even Titan these days is very difficult to find. The drama show just counted the days, the preparation is still not mature. Where is titan? This made Tania feel that Titan was playing with her heart - after Titan had gotten Tania's whole heart.

"Tania? Do you know where Titan is? Why yes, lately I have been hard to meet Titan. Do you know where she is?" Ask someone who suddenly approaches Tania, and sits beside Tania-who is reading a book in the library room.

Tania closed her book, and turned to look at the person who asked her, gently shaking her head, "gue didn't know, '" she said softly.

"Well, haven't you been the same Titan deket?"

Tania sighed softly, "gue didn't even understand all this, Jon. Can you not ask about Titan to me? This month I've been pretty patient with those questions, because I really don't know where Titan is right now" Tania told someone she calls Jon. Yes, the one who asked Tania was Jonathan.

"Gue's sorry, Tan. I just want a mastiin. The drama is counting the days. I was afraid that if suppose he could not attend, he would also have a role in the drama. I'm just a mastiin" Jonathan said. Tania did not comment on Jonathan's words at all, Tania instead focused on cleaning up some of the books, then brought the book and he walked away from this place without caring about Jonathan.

Realizing that Tania seemed to dislike Jonathan, Jonathan apologized immediately, "Tan, I'm sorry," cried Jonathan. Tania didn't care, she just passed by.

Some of the students in the library were staring cynically at Jonathan, who had been shouting and disturbing the reading activities of the students who were frenziedly reading books. Jonathan scratched at his non-itchy nape, after which some disciples looked at him cynically, and Jonathan passed from this place.

When Jonathan had just come out of the library, Udin called Jonathan from the east, and immediately approached Jonathan with a face attached seriously.

"Jon!"

Jonathan looked over, "yes?"

"Gue has the same thing. There is something I want to talk to you about. And this is serious. I moved to school because there are things I have to do here. But, you also have to know, I went to school here only a few months doang, after that I will move again to my old school." Udin said very seriously, Jonathan frowned next to his eyebrows and looked at Udin with a strange look.

"Again, I've never seen your face this serious. No pantes ah."

"I don't have time to joke."

"Away. Why, anyway?"

"The school gate is here for only a few months."

"Well, continues?"

"You should know that."

"Why should you know? Anyway, why only a few months of school here? Emang lo think school is a game, move around as you please. Do not challenge your parents again abroad. Poor Kak Roshi if his lo kayak is not serious school kayak gini," said Jonathan. Udin just sighed softly.

"Udah talk? After all, Roshi already knew about this, and he really supported what I did. I have a pretty tough job at this school." Udin explained.

"Tasks? At this school? What errand? About ghosts? Seriously lo?" The quilted question came out of Jonathan's mouth.

"Yes. There is a pretty tough job for me. It may have something to do with ghosts, but it's not serem. As a person who has the gift of being able to see supernatural beings, I can only carry out my duties doang, there is someone who asked me for help to solve this problem," said Udin.

Jonathan scratched his head-shows a plain face filled with disbelief over what Udin was talking about.

"Lo said what, anyway?"

"Hc ... You can never connect, Jon. I was free to go at length. The most important thing and you should know is ... It's about Titan." Udin said and gave the keyword by mentioning the name Titan in his sentence, it clearly made Jonathan even more clueless.

"The Titan badung? Why connect to Titan?"

"Lo see later."

"Titan has not been in school for a month."

"Yes, look at it later. Onion!" Then Udin immediately left Jonathan and turned to the cafeteria, with Jonathan immediately following Udin. Jonathan's heart was shrouded in a heightened sense of kepo.

***

"Where are you feeling?"

"Gue's? All right, Tan. Sometimes yes, regret is not good. I really, really messed with someone until he didn't want to see my face anymore."

"On Rayn?"

"Now I'm quite aware, that my feelings are actually for whom. But I can only give up."

"Queen. I'm sure you're a strong girl. You can deal with everything with this strong attitude. I as a friend, and as a good listener, can only pray that someday you can find happiness that is truly happiness for you."

The queen smiled sweetly at Tania. "Lo is my best friend, Tan. Sorry, so far I decided to be alone and prefer to keep all this regret alone. I should have shared lo, not only sharing the story of like, but also sorrow."

"Thankful deh. Hehe. Inget, yes, I will always be there for you. Any depression of someone and feel that in this world no one can understand our feelings, we, we must be able to understand that there are people we can talk to as a friend even though in the end our small brain always thinks; no one will be able to understand us. But at least we should know, that we have a talkative friend, a confiding friend. Well at the very least, it will make our hearts a little calmer than before." Tania said with a smile. Queen smile.

"Then, what about Titan?"

The question made Tania smile fade away. Tania was speechless with her face fixed flat, there was a look of sadness in her face.

"Gue doesn't know" Tania said slowly. "Gue doesn't know exactly where he is right now. Maybe really, Titan is playing with my feelings. He made me his girlfriend, when he got me, he stayed me so," continued Tania, his tone this time sounded painful.

"Alem I see Titan," explained the Queen.

"Where?" Tania looked excited as the Queen said the sentence that she met Titan last night.

"He's hanging out again. He's changed Tania. He's getting worse, even worse than everyone knows."

"You mean?" Tania's voice turned bitter, her heart beating unusually.

"Gue taste ... Titan's not going to school here anymore."

"What?!" Tania's face was very heartbreaking, her pair of eyes began to look teary.

"Yes. I myself did not accidentally hear Titan chat with his tongkrong, if he would not be in school again. I don't know for sure where he's going to move, but he said it's like it's going to his friends." The Queen explained at length, but the Queen's voice sounded very cautious, because the Queen was afraid that Tania would be surprised by the statement she made. But it can not be denied, Tania was very surprised by the statement.

"But why?" Tania asked with great thirst for an explanation of why Titan changed without giving him a little explanation, Tania was not entitled to know whatever the reason Titan changed, because Tania's status was Titan's lover.

"Gue doesn't know for sure."

"Where did you meet Titan?"

"At the crossroads of the Asri rose complex."

"Gue's going to meet Titan. I want to know why he changed like this. Because I deserve to know. I'm worried about him, although I know, lately I feel I've been hurt by Titan with his attitude that suddenly seemed to avoid me. Whatever the reason, I'll try to understand, even though it might make my heart hurt." Tania said, her tears were dripping, but Tania immediately wiped away her tears.

"Lo is a giver of spirit for people around you. But you are fragile too. No matter what happens, you deserve to be happy. Even if the sad story again greets your life, someday the happy story will also greet your life. We're the same, Tan. And I believe, no matter what happens, no matter how hurt feelings are, they will one day be replaced with happy feelings and will make our lives a very mature person. We have to be excited!" The Queen gives her spirit to herself as well as Tania-who accidentally, fate gives a fairly complicated love story in her second life. Even so, the Queen and Tania try wisely in addressing everything. Now, Tania and the Queen enjoy a break by sitting in the cafeteria, while ordering food and drinks to prop up the stomach that may have been rumbling.

The atmosphere of this canteen does not seem as serious as usual. Jonathan, Deo, and Udin seemed to be not making a scene, they were just enjoying a plate of siomay, talking about the most unimportant things, at the very end of this canteen table. Deo was even the same, not knowing what reason Titan changed. Deo only keeps the mandate from Titan; that he must not tell everyone that if Titan is trying to make someone happy in his life, Deo knows about it, but he is silent, even Tania asked that.

"Yeah? Don't know where Titan is?" Ask Jonathan.

"He was at his house."

"Seriously it's PA! I'm nanya!"

"My two rius."

"Why hasn't he been in school for almost a month?"

"He's hibernating."

"What's? Can rice be hiber?"

"PEAK!"

"Hiber is a flying language, right?" Jonathan put on a super plain face, making Deo cluck.

"Damn lo kampret!" Jonathan to Udin.

Deo sighed for a moment, then put on a serious face and turned to Udin and Jonathan in turn. "Gue wants to talk to both of you. Although we are friends this is very short, and sometimes among us really do not get along. There's something I might want to talk to you guys." Deo is serious.

"By what?"

"On Titan" Deo explained.

"Titan again?" Jonathan did not understand.

"Fright." Udin chimed in on Deo's chat. "Maybe it's a good time to start the play date. Fortunately, Deo discussed this, so I did not forget," continued Udin.

"wait around. How do you seem to know everything?" Deo frowned in surprise at Udin. It should be Deo who is leading this conversation, because Deo is the one who started the discussion.

"Gue doesn't know much. Just know a little."

"You what?" Tanya Deo intense.

"On the Titan."

"What do you know about Titan?"

Then, Udin whispered something to Deo and Jonathan, whether what Udin whispered to Deo and Jonathan, but it seems this is not easy. What plans will Udin have? When he heard Udin's explanation, Jonathan and Deo immediately put on a flat face mixed with a look that was like a sad. Believe it or not, the look on Deo and Jonathan's face is like not believing what Udin is talking about.

"Gue can't believe it" Deo said.

"Same. I don't believe it either" Jonathan said.

"But this is reality. Although in the end there will be a wounded heart," explained Udin.

"Keep, what are we going to do?" Ask Deo. "Because frankly, I don't really believe in any of this. If this is true, I don't know what it's like to be a Titan." Deo said again, his look turned sad, as if trying to feel in the position of Titan.

"Gue got a plan."

"What plan, Din?" Deo and Jonathan asked simultaneously.

***

As the bell rang, Tania rushed home. This time he was excited to go home from school. Because there's something he has to do. Yes, today he must meet the Titan, no matter how, even though Tania does not know where the Titan is, but at least the Queen tells Tania that usually Titan always hangs out at a crossroads near the beautiful rose complex. Tania has to meet Titan there.

"Rat, I'm ahead!" Tania ran in a hurry.

"Well, go with dong!"

"Gue got business."

Tania passed very hurriedly, The Queen only sighed softly.

Tania walked down the school corridor in a hasty step, and some of the books she carried seemed to fall down frequently. And, yes, some of the books he was carrying were dropped right in front of the door of the BK room. Tania immediately picked up the book that had fallen. And ... There was a very mysterious voice inside the room BK, whose door was opened slightly, with curiosity Tania looked into the room BK.

"He changed, for the better, but I don't know why he changed for the better, and diligently entered Monday. But, it only lasted a few months, now the child is back in action, even very severe. He had not been in school for a whole month. With great force, I'm gonna get him out of school."

"Sorry, Sir. I can't tell you why my nephew hasn't been to school for a month. I've warned this over and over again to Titan. But he really can't continue his schooling here."

"That means, I have decided, Titan will be expelled from school, because once again I apologize, this school has given too much tolerance to students on behalf of Titan. And this is the last point the school gave to Titan. Titan will be expelled from school after the Kejora school HUT event."

DEG! Tania who was listening to the conversation between the adult woman - who claimed to be aunty from Titan, with the BK teacher, made Tania stunned, she said, when the BK teacher slipped the sentence that he would remove Titan from school after the school HUT event was completed. This certainly makes Tania even more wondering, why is Titan like this? Did he not appreciate Tania's feelings at all.

Tania's tears trickled down, she felt her position was now unappreciated. Titan considers Tania what? Even Tania currently felt that she was an unregarded lover.

Tania ran, she was crying.

***

When night falls, the breeze blows so soothing. Stroll down the increasingly deserted city streets. Titan felt a void enveloping his heart. He was heavily injured wrapped in thickened wounds in his heart. There are choices that make him chaotic, there are feelings that make him have to stay, but it is difficult for him to do. Not because he was unable to survive, but the circumstances that kept forcing him to go through it all with thousands of pain and very difficult choices.

"Sorry,"

The word came out of the mouth of Titan. His right hand held the left-hand chest - which sounded painful beats there.

Titan stopped his steps, he looked up at the sky. If his love is as high as the stars, even if it falls, the clouds will catch him, he believes it.

Titan closed his eyes for a moment, enjoying the breeze that managed to blow away his slightly shaggy hair. He asked the wind to blow away the wounds in his heart. At least this made his feelings much calmer than before.

"Titanos,"

Call someone from behind Titan. Titan opened his eyes slowly, recognizing the voice. By reckoning, Titan turns his body, to face the person.

DEG!

"Tania?"

Titan's face was attached seriously, as he found out, now Tania was just a few meters in front of him. Tania stared deeply at Titan. Titan just stared at Tania with an unusual gaze.

Tania walked a few steps toward Titan, leaving only perhaps half a meter of distance between Titan and Tania.

"Where have you been all this time? What are you doing right now? Are you trying to destroy the piece of heart you just got?" Tania said very slowly, his voice made Titan's heartbeat beat fast.

No, it wasn't Tania's words that made Titan's heart beat, but, uh, the look in Tania's eyes that he hadn't seen for a long time made Titan seem afraid to hurt the girl he loved so much. Titan is also afraid, if Tania does not understand how to love.

Titan was silent for some time, he was unable to answer Tania's question. Because whatever Titan answers, it will definitely still hurt Tania.

A second later, Tania shed tears. "I'm scared." Tania said and ventured to look at Titan with teary eyes. "I'm afraid, if you really don't love me, then avoid me without clarity. I'm not even afraid of losing your attention, but what I'm afraid of is; I'm afraid if you don't love me."

Then Titan approached Tania, looking at her deeply. Titan held Tania's wet cheek, and Titan gently wiped and wiped Tania's tears away. Titan smiled faintly, shining eyes, making Tania so shady looking at the pair of Titan's eyes.

"Maybe you are tormented, but understand, my way is unusual." Titan hummed softly, his eyes glazed, he disliked this. To her seeing Tania cry was a huge pain for Titan's life. He was weak, very weak if he had to see Tania cry. She did not want to see Tania grieve or cry because of her.

"You don't have to be afraid. I will still love you. Right now I'm just trying to be the best for you." Titan said slowly, his voice almost like a whisper.

"What's the reason?"

"I love you for no reason. Without question; why and why." Titan's hand still stroked Tania's cheek and looked at the eyes that couldn't turn away to continue looking at Tania's eyes with a shady look.

"Not that. But why do you think you are gini? You avoid everything. You know, I'm even ready to feel what you're feeling." Tania said, making Titan smile even though thin.

Quickly, Titan drowned Tania in his arms. Titan smiled, this was his simple happiness.

"Dispose of all the fear that strikes your heart and mind. I will be fine as long as you love me. Even if I leave, I'll never really be gone in your life." Titan stroked Tania's hair. Tania seems comfortable in Titan's embrace, although her tears are relentless for freefall. Why is the story complicated?

You knew? Right now I'm finding the most beautiful thing in my life. Things that might make others envious, because I have you. Your presence is like a beautiful angel, capable of draining all my attention. This fantasy is indeed as beautiful as a fairy tale, but reality is not as beautiful. I won't give you the same story as a fairy tale. Because what? Fables are not real, and will never be real.

And you know what? The thing that makes me so sad and painful is ... When I see you cry. Even my biggest weakness is when I see you cry.

I feel that you are the girl that I must take care of her heart, the only girl who has the right to always be privileged by me. Because you are the reason why I have to smile all day and what I live for in this world. Loving you is one thing that makes me understand, that being happy is not too complicated, just seeing you smile it makes me very happy.

Do you know that too? I'm envious. Envy the moon and the stars in the night sky, who keep faithfully beside you every night. And I also envy the sun and the morning dew, which always greet you in the morning when you wake up from your beautiful dream last night.

Tell them I am so jealous. I want to be the most important part of your life.

Because I love you. Inner Titan.

Tania let go of Titan's embrace, then looked at Titan with a deep enough gaze, "I didn't ask for anything from you. But please, you have to go back to school again. Because if not, the school will be out--" Tania's speech was interrupted.

"I'm going to get out of school."

"What?!" Tania was surprised, when Titan managed to cut her sentence and throw a sentence that Tania did not want to hear at all.

"I'm going out." Titan repeated his sentence.

"But why?"

Titan's speechless.

"But why?!" Tania repeated her question crying, "why are you kayak gini?! It's as if you're avoiding everything! Please, don't make it hard for me to understand all this. I just want you to go to school again." There was the painful sound of Tania crying. Sedu sedan is very heartbreaking.

"Tania." Titan's hand was holding Tania's chin up, making Tania's face, which had been lowered, now throw each other's eyes back. "I'm not that important. To me, your happiness is the most important," said the gentle Titan.

Tania brushed off the hand of Titan holding her chin. "You're saying my happiness is most important? You knew? this is not the happiness I get. You say this is happiness? Is parting happy? See you who you think is happy? No! I'm just tormented by all this." Tania said as she walked back and away from Titan, Tania's eyes filled with disappointment. "I'M DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!" Tania flipped her body and ran small, passing away leaving Titan with an unstoppable cry.

Titan fell silent, dropping his knees onto the asphalt road. There is regret in him. His face was heartbreaking, his right hand holding his left chest. It's too painful. Heartbeats that sound full of wounds.

"Argh! I'm too stupid!" Titan screaming.

I regret always if accidentally, I make you cry.

Seriate

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