Titan

eps. 24

Flinched not playing. Titan feels like this is all crazy. It's even crazy. The figure that now stands before him confesses that he is his father - who everyone knows all along, that his father Titan was dead at the time of a single accident ten years ago. So, who was the middle-aged man who had a face similar to the face of his long-dead Titan Father? But ... The middle-aged man actually confessed to his father Titan.

"It's impossible." Titan tried to dodge, while his eyes glazed over. What kind of reality is this?

The middle-aged man who claimed his father Titan was only trying to convince Titan, with a face attached to it full of pain and a thousand regrets that were clearly reflected in the look of his face, and there were already tears soaking down the middle-aged man's cheeks. Titan even lost a thousand languages, he was speechless with all the facts that made him hit so hard.

"It's Dad, son," he said again in a bitter voice full of regret.

Titan looked at the middle-aged man with eyes filled with huge question marks, "Where's Mom?" Titan asked his mother, hoping that fate would be this dramatic, "Dad came with Mom, right?" Ask Titan, again.

The middle-aged man did not answer Titan's question, only shaking his head softly accompanied by a face that was very full of regret. "Your mother is no longer in this world. And I'm sorry, all this time it's been-" he said disconnected.

"It must be a dream!" Titan exclaimed in a pained tone, he felt toyed with by his own destiny, his tears falling down watching all the grievous-looking reality. During this time he was wrong to suspect, his father was still alive. "If you're still alive, why don't you? Please explain! What exactly happened?!" Connect Titan.

Titan's tears slid violently, only he did not sob, only the roar of breath that was not strange with the look of the eyes that really did not understand what fate befell him at this time. There is one thing that stuck in Titan's mind, what does the arrival of his father mean now? Why does it seem so easy to play fate-disappearing for years with the news of death, but coming back so easily says 'if Dad is back, it's just that your mother is really gone.'

The memory in Titan's brain twists all the events of ten years ago, which saw his father and mother snatched unsaved with faces that were no longer perfectly formed - because they were covered in blood. Then, if not his father, who was the man who was with Mom at the time of the accident ten years ago?

Titan dropped his knees to the floor, he looked very fragile accepting of this reality. His right hand held the left-right chest where the heart was beating, there was a pulse of pain he felt there.

"I'm sorry, son," a thousand regrets began to pour from his father's mouth. His father touched Titan's shoulder very gently, "Father is at fault" he said again in a heavy voice.

Then Titan looked into his father's eyes with an unusual look, "please explain everything! What's going on?" Titan asked very flatly but was filled with emphasis.

"You're not enough to understand everything, son. I'm not ready to tell you everything." His father said in a soft tone accompanied by a heartbreaking cry.

Titan releases the handrails of Father-who touches his shoulders gently. "If you're not ready for everything, why did you come back with just old wounds? If I don't think I'm enough to understand everything, why would you give me a wound this heavy? Ten years ago, it made me understand that life without both parents is so hard! But Dad, still think I haven't quite grasped it all?!" Said Titan in a soft voice, but filled with emphasis in every word that he thought should be emphasized, so that his father understood his feelings were very fragile.

His father was just crying. Unable to answer the question that came out of Titan's mouth.

"Then, what's Dad coming back for? When I really feel like you're not in this world?" Titan instantly changed his position-standing.

The feeling raged, Titan did not know what to do, other than he felt a tremendous pain hit all the feelings in his heart. He could only resign to this bitter situation. One thing Titan had in mind, his life was too dramatic, the impossible, it was even possible in his life. Or maybe ... Does he have no right to be happy? There was a look of disappointment that emanated clearly on Titan's face as he looked at his father - who had come bearing an old wound. This is not even a story packed in the form of a novel that is filled with dramatic stories that bring a sobbing. This is a reality, which is a reality that must be lived properly, even though it feels bitter to hit all hearts.

And ... Titan does not know, in what way he must explain everything to Ajeng-Adik just his puppet.

"Dad came just to tell you a confession. It's not that Dad doesn't care, for ten years Dad disappeared. The man who was with your mother at the time of the abuse was not Dad, but he was the man you suspected of having a special relationship with your mother. For these ten years, Dad lived ... in prison." A statement that again makes Titan jolted.

"What?! In jail?" Titan was shocked. What kind of statement is this?

"Yes, Son. Actually Dad ... Father ... Dad ...," he said stammeringly, as if unable to tell Titan everything.

"Actually why? Answer Titan, Dad! Answer!!" Titan jolted, his emotions were out of control again. Titan's feelings have been deeply hurt. His teary eyes were clearly visible that he was very fragile.

"Actually ... It was you who caused your mother's car to crash" he said in a bitter voice full of thick regret, making the clear fur more freefall from the eyes of Titan. As it turns out, the cause of the single accident experienced by his mother was the work of his own father - with the reason of burning jealous fire.

"Thus ... Dad caused everything?" Titan asked very slowly. As if I don't believe this reality.

"Y-yes, Son. Forgive me," she said with sobs. "You're Dad's son, the whiz Daddy's got. Forgive all your carelessness, I'm so sorry for everything."

"Repentiousness cannot make everything go back to how it was - as if the wound would be forgiven with a regret. Can't! Regret will only make things worse." Titan said seriously, he took the time to wipe his own tears, "and ... Regret can't make a person's life come back to life!" Titan cried, again dropping tears.

"I'm sorry, son." Repeatedly an apology was thrown from the middle-aged man's mouth. Titan is only able to lament all the bitter realities that have hit him so hard.

"I'm sorry I couldn't bring Mom back to life, Dad," she groaned heartbreakingly. Titan really looks very fragile. He could no longer stop his sobs.

"Dad didn't ask for anything from you, son. I'm just sorry, I regret everything. Dad is so sorry. You're a hotshot Dad, you're Dad's proud son, I'm sorry Dad's been a failed father to you and your sister. I'm sorry I ruined the happiness in our family. Father regretted his actions," he explained at length, the middle-aged man also allowed his shawl for a moment, "and, keep your brother's whereabouts a secret. I'm afraid that Ajeng will be disappointed or hurt by all this" he said gently.

"Take care of yourself, son. I'll be watching you from a distance. My prayers will be with you. I love you more than myself. I just hope that once you know all this, you don't hate me. Or if you still think Dad is no longer in this world, Dad is nothing. I'll love you anyway, until Dad's time is up in this world" he explained, gently patting Titan's shoulder. Titan was silent, bowed, unable to see the touching look in his father's eyes.

"Dad put Ajeng on you. Take good care of him" he said, then without another word, he turned his back and left Titan.

The truth is too bitter.

As he walked away from Titan a few steps, the middle-aged man stopped his steps for a moment, and turned his head towards Titan, but Titan pretended to look down as if he did not care. Though clearly, in the heart of Titan is eager to spill all the longings that are high in the sky of his heart, on the Father. However, that disappointment actually creates a prestige that is no less high in the heart of Titan. Ten years he kept that longing, but when this impossibility was present, Titan could not express all his longing feelings. This actually makes Titan even more hurt. It's not a hallucination, it's not an illusion, it's real!

This is a reality that is already like a nightmare.

Jealousy can make everything break in an instant. Don't play with fire, it burns. So it is possible, if playing with the fire of jealousy, all happiness will burn, vanishing unceremoniously. As his father Titan experienced, all happiness seemed lost without rest, only a thousand regrets that brought thousands of disappointments. Titan increasingly understands that sometimes life must be better understood, understood and trust each other.

But anyway, Titan can't really hate his father.

Titan closed the main door of his house slowly. All his feelings are turning increasingly dark. The smell of pain grew even more fragrant in the depths of his heart. He thought; was it that easy for fate to play with his life? If it had to be like this, Titan would try to swallow this bitterness - if it had to be forced.

Titan rests behind the closed door of the house. He closed his eyes for a moment, feeling a deepening pain. Then seconds later, Titan turned to his room again. There was no longer a smile on his lips, only millions of winged butterflies full of wounds were emanating from the look of Titan's eyes.

Prangs! While in the room, Titan hit the mirror in his room. This is so saddening of the saddest thing in the world.

"Why did all this happen the same cave?!" His exclamation was filled with emphasis, even though his tone of voice was extremely low audible.

Titan stared at himself in the cracked mirror.

"If there is no right to happiness in cave life, why is there a cave in this world?!" his pair of eyes were reddened and glazed, "ten years of the cave trying to make sense of it all, until the cave had completely forgotten about its very poor dark memory, but why when the cave has started to choose to be happy, all the pain comes carrying old wounds" he said.

Titan grabbed his own hair.

"Caves can't keep on like this!" his jolt.

"Gua can not hate the same Bokap cave itself! The cave can't!" Again Titan jerks himself. An unexpected reality, unplanned. It's so heartbreaking.

***

Tania was packing all her books on the tables she sat. It's twelve o'clock, he'll be home soon. Errata, he must hurry to meet Titan. After all, Tania should know the state of Titan. Especially now, Titan is Tania's lover, Tania should have given more attention to Titan.

"Where are you going?"

by the time Tania was about to exit the classroom, there was Rayn standing in the door-sighted threshold like blocking Tania's path. Tania looked at Rayn flatly.

"You want me anywhere, none of your business." Tania flat.

Rayn smiled faintly, "Obviously that's my business!" exclaim Rayn.

Tania sighed softly, Tania did not like Rayn who kept forcing her to obey all of Rayn's annoying wills. "Please. You have no right to interfere in all my affairs," Tania said slowly, but firmly.

"Lo forgot? Your brother gave you to me." Rayn reminds Tania of her brother's son-in-law's dickhead-which just means to earn money.

"Nobody deserves my life. Even if it was my own brother. As long as my parents are there, I am still the responsibility of both of my parents. Understood?" Tania said firmly, and tried to break through Rayn.

However, when Tania was about to break through Rayn, Rayn actually held Tania's hand-so that their positions were sideways. Rayn's face fell on Tania, a faint smile spreading across Rayn's face, "The Titan is in the cave's hands!" rayn shouted, as if threatening.

Tania immediately turned to Rayn, "What?!"