The Pending Wait

A box

I reached home and also took him to his house.

After entering a few steps my sister came to me and gave me a gift box.

I was surprised, I thought there was a gift for me for the achievement I got but it turned out to be a package from the post office.

There is the name of the sender and also the name of the recipient that is me.

Dinda gave me a gift.

I was happy, he remembered me and gave me a special gift.

I took him into the room and hugged the box.

I don't care what matters to me is Dinda.

I also lowered the photo hanging on the wall of the room and invited the photo to unbox the package as if he was with Dinda.

Slowly I opened the package and saw a wooden box where the card was there also said Dinda love Momo forever.

My smile was widened and my heart was blossoming.

Quickly I opened the box out of curiosity and found a letter inside and a gift like his photo.

A jacket, a watch and shoes.

It's an exaggerated gift in my opinion, because I've never given this much at once.

Get rid of all the gifts and focus on this letter.

Slowly I tear the envelope cover and I find 3 sheets of paper containing blue ink, according to his favorite color.

There is a neat word written and also smelled like his favorite perfume.

written like this

Dear My Hubby's

Assalamualaikum.

Hello Honey..

Bandung was Jakarta..

Smiles have just been read..

I am confused as to what to write.

Oh yes, first of all, write this miss.

I miss you, I have trouble sleeping.

I even miss the moment you bite my finger.

**

I smiled and remembered the incident where one night he was so ignorant that I pulled him and bit his finger.

Not his pain he even retaliated by biting my thigh.

It was a bar, but funny.

I continued reading too.

Have you eaten, uh don't forget to eat yes later sick loh.

If you get sick later who works to make money for lamar I hehehe..

Oh yes I also want to apologize this half year lost news.

You are angry..

I'm not wrong, but I'm honestly not because of purpose but because of circumstances.

I hope you understand and forgive me.

I sent you a letter because I don't have your number anymore.

I'm broken and just buying now.

Have you changed HP now.

Wait, why am I asking this.

So gini baby..

Maybe we'll meet again.

because maybe the next year I go back there or not at all.

I don't have a choice.

I'm just a kid going where my parents are.

It could even be that I can't go there anymore.

Because I don't have any more work there.

You know what it means.

Try to understand this situation.

I'm not forcing you to be faithful I'm just asking for your understanding.

Try to find my replacement.

**

I closed the paper and nodded.

My head feels dizzy because the word that ends tells me to forget him.

How is his way.

Ever since I first met I've been trying to forget about her and even trying not to fall in love.

I tried my hardest but I got more and more stuck with that feeling plus you gave me a deep hope until I drowned in it.

Then after all this, all the things we live and memories of those wonderful memories.

How easily do you say forget it.

What this all means is nothing at all.

A year of this relationship is nothing.

***

Evening arrived, I who was saturated with this feeling tried to find various ways so that at least I could forget him a little.

But it wasn't as easy as I imagined the more I tried to forget the more I remembered and it was so painful.

I feel like crying but I'm embarrassed when people see me.

Oh my God it hurts so much, why do you give me this kind of pain. Slowly I tried to open the box again and saw the letter he had given me because I had just read a sheet of the contents of the letter.

But it feels like I can't just see that it makes me want to cry.

I swear I'm like a very stupid man, yes this is very embarrassing.

I encouraged myself to reopen the letter and began to read it slowly.

But I did not read the second letter but read the contents of the first one I read this afternoon.

I read it over and over again and tried to understand the meaning of what was said.

"Maybe you may forget me and leave all this behind, try to find my replacement." That's what he said.

Once I understood, he didn't want to decide on me but told me to find a replacement.

Wait why it feels so strange to me.

At first I thought having me look for a replacement meant telling me to break this relationship.

But it turns out that on the second paper he said a word he said that he would wait for me to die and would not leave me.

Then he told me to find another one for what.

What kind of stupid thought is that!.

"I don't want to tell you to be double, but if you're lonely and not strong, you can look for something else, but don't forget me."

"I'm ready to be in a duakan but I can't if you forget."

"Because of me, I will love you all my life."

That's what it says on the second sheet of paper.

And on the last sheet there was my word and he gave me a new number.

I was confused whether I should be happy or sad.

And why I cry.

God, this is so stupid, it turns out he didn't leave me but he gave me freedom and a chance to me so I could feel calmer.

Cheating is not an option.

If he can wait for me who is far in his eyes, how I wickedly wish for his very sincere love.

Of course I'll also wait until he comes back, or maybe I'll pick him up.

I wiped my tears and rushed to call her.

It felt like my heart was racing when I called that number like the first time I called it.

The call was answered but no sound was heard.

"Hello, Assalamualaikum." Saying slowly.

"Waalaikumsalam Darling, you're finally calling me again." He answered while crying.

I who heard his hoarse voice while speaking felt that I was wrong.

He remembered and missed me, even crying for me.

"Dinda sorry." My speech.

He immediately replied with his crying voice that was getting stronger until unconsciously my tears also flowed.

This miss turned out to be very heavy as dilan said.

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