The Pending Wait

Blindshawed

What kind of place is this, it's so dark.

Why is it so dark, I can't see anything.

I stepped in the darkness and fell several times.

I'm getting scared.

I repeatedly called my Mom and Dad..

My mom....!!!

Mamaaaakk!

The father!!

But no sound was heard welcoming me.

This place is so dark.

I kept walking, even though I was so scared.

I keep going straight ahead.

My tears flowed from fear of this dark place.

And I fell down repeatedly.

Whether the people at school threw me into the abyss, or I was dead and into the grave.

this place is dark, it's dark.

Anyone help me.

"Why you?" someone said from behind me.

The voice was so soft, and like her I recognized the voice.

"Dinda" I replied as I turned around.

"Well, you can recognize even if you only hear the sound" he said.

"Where are you?".

"I'm right here, right in front of you".

"Minda".

"Come, take two steps forward" he said, indicating the position he was in.

I walked slowly and he immediately embraced me.

When the sky opened, light appeared.

The originally dark place turned into light.

"Welcome Momo" said Dinda.

"What is this place?" ask me confused.

"This is where I live" he said again.

I was silent to see it, there was a deep sense of annoyance and also longing.

Without thinking, I hugged her, hugging her so tightly.

"You goin' where the hell"

"Sorry Momo"

"I'm lonely to know"

"Me too, I've lost you".

"You're the one who went somewhere"

"Sorry!".

We also let go of longing with a warm embrace and at that time Dinda rebuked.

"You have to go home, this isn't your place!".

"You too" I replied.

"No, I can't!" her word.

"I'm not leaving without you".

He pushed my body so hard that I was thrown away.

I also like falling and swaying until I realized.

It's just a dream.

It was just a dream, a scary dream, I woke up that night and was pensive.

What kind of dream is that, and why Dinda lives in such a place.

I miss him, very much.

I looked around me, saw my mother and sister sleeping on the floor, and this place was so foreign.

The room was cold and also smelled bad.

There's an oxygen cylinder, and there's something stuck in my left hand, it looks like it's an infusion.

"What is this thing called a hospital"

"How long have I been here" I said confusedly.

Looks like I passed out and people took me to the hospital.

What really happened was that I almost died and was taken to the hospital.

Then I owe it to Dinda, because she came and helped me.

But how could he be in that creepy place.

"Wake up" said my sister.

"Pure, but I can't move!" I answered my youngest brother.

"Don't wake up yet" he replied.

"Are you hungry, aren't you?" he said slowly, his eyes looked like he was crying.

"No Mama"

"Eat here first, a little so that your stomach is not empty" he said.

I followed him and he started to bribe me.

"Well, aren't you angry?" my spoken.

"No!" he answered and his tears fell.

"Bright cry!, I'm sorry Mak".

"Yes, I'm fine" he replied, bribing me.

I'm sorry, my mother, I worried you and maybe disappointed you too.

I lost control and went crazy, I don't know why.

I didn't feel like myself then I felt like someone else.

But I promise I won't do this again, I won't worry anymore.

After I finished eating, I went back to sleep, and my mother and sister also went back to sleep.

But actually I just pretend to sleep.

I opened my eyes again and thought for a moment, I imagined the incident that afternoon.

And confused why Ibrahim hated me so much, when I never did him any harm.

Maybe this is the end of my career in school, with that incident I must have been kicked out of school and this will make my mother sad.

I really let her down.

Had he known that I was the victim, he would not have been so disappointed.

But whatever my day I was just a snot boy who was unable to explain the situation and also defend himself.

"Not slept?" my father said arriving.

"Eh father"

He immediately approached and sat next to me, he rubbed my forehead and looked different from my mother, he looked happy.

"What you did was great, it was just my son" he said, stroking my forehead.

"Aren't you angry?"

"No, I'm proud of you" my father smiled.

I was amazed by my father's words, but there was a sense of pleasure in what he said.

It was really my father I expected.

**

Time has passed, I am now home after 2 days in the hospital.

It turned out that there was a bruise on my chest until there was a freeze in the chest.

Even my breathing was disturbed.

That's what caused me to faint.

It's very hard to remember the incident, it just happened.

"Why not take a shower, you don't go to school" my mother said.

"I can still go to school" I replied.

"Still, it's not brother who started the fight" greeted my sister.

"Kok you know?"

"We watched the video" he said again.

"What video?" my many.

"Have a discussion later, now take a shower and continue to eat breakfast" said my mother.

I did his orders and went to school, but I didn't walk as usual.

My father told Andi to drive me, yes we actually did get in line, because Andi was out of school.

On the road Andi asked a lot, Ibrahim's problem even Dinda's problem.

But I was just pensive.

I can't tell you about Dinda, she's gone nowhere.

I was sad to hear Andi tell me about Dinda, or praise me for how Dinda chose and liked me.

Since it was like nonsense now, Dinda left the moment where we were going to start the relationship.

And he died without explanation.

Being treated like this is painful.

I don't ask any more news, because there's no answer from him.

But there was a sense of relief when I met him in the dream, I hugged him and it felt so warm, like real.

My longing was treated for a moment but a new longing appeared and continued to grow every second.

Huggh...!

going back to school is so annoying.

I don't know what got into them, so they're no longer close to me.

Yes you know my max, girls of course.

They seem to be afraid of me.

It's weird and it sucks too.

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