The Pending Wait

Celviah

New day.

It was time for us to part.

The teacher gathers in the classroom as well as the students.

We decorate the class in such a way, give the bouquets and also entertain the teachers with music.

The atmosphere is so haru, especially this is the last day to meet with friends.

We prepared everything we needed to add a lively atmosphere to this class.

Best impressions to remember.

We also cook food and eat it together.

Not to forget also we sang with the guitar and cajon that Yusuf and Rizky did, while I became the vocalist.

We sang the teacher's thank you song and our Bondan song forever

That day was so fun.

We shared a phone number and also took pictures as a memento.

Selvi gave a gift in the form of a stencil iron bracelet, Dede also gave a necklace as a parting gift.

But I didn't give them any gifts because I didn't think about it at all.

So Dede asked for a piece of my picture and also took me to take a picture together.

Selvi did the same.

The event lasted quite a long time and after that we planned to walk to the beach as the last event of the school but because it was too late the plan was pushed back to tomorrow.

And everyone agrees with that.

And there is also something that feels stuck in the heart of Selvia's request.

Just before I left school Selvi called me and asked me to talk briefly behind the school.

He said he wanted to make sure of the feelings in his heart so he asked me to listen to the words that might be the last time.

Selvi clasped my hand and her hands were very cold.

He said slowly but surely even his eyes glazed over.

"I really like you Momo, please just give me your love once." He said with a whining tone.

Hearing that I was petrified, I was saddened by what Selvi said but my heart was tied to someone else.

"How I give it, I don't know where my love goes." I replied gloomily, I was really confused.

"This is Momo's last time, so I beg you." Selvi said again.

"Alright but not now." My answer.

She cried, her tears fell down her chubby cheeks and she covered her face.

"Come don't cry, why the hell are you?" I asked stupidly.

He ignored me and immediately ran away.

**

After I went home I kept on imagining Selvi's crying face, even before I was still on the road Reus imagined Selviah.

It kept on floating in my eyes, I felt so evil and heartless.

Poor Selvi, she cried in front of my eyes while I hurt her feelings.

I really feel that I'm a very bad person.

I tried to send him a message over and over again, but I didn't reply and my phone wasn't picked up either.

I kept thinking that I was really hurting Selviah's feelings.

It made me unable to sleep and also a headache.

There was even a dilemma in my heart, like there was another me talking to me and arguing over the truth that.

Selvi was more there for me, she also often gave her food to me, asking for news and attention.

Dinda left me with no news as I started trying to fight my fear of love.

I have to how, I might like Selviah but I'm already in love with Dinda.

And as long as I can't forget Dinda's shadow I won't be able to love anyone else, it's not fair at all.

And it'll hurt more selviah, Dinda and myself.

Selvi deserves to be better than me, loving me will only make her life suffer.

Because of my flaws and also my bad nature.

But her tears were really painful and heartbreaking.

This time I made a woman cry.

I like him who is always good in class.

**

In the morning arrived, mom prepared a bag containing a change of clothes and also sandals.

Don't forget to bring a carpet to sit on the beach.

Yeah, the day we're going on vacation.

My pick-up came, Andi took me to school.

It was actually because he also went along with us.

Even the preparation is more and is quite unnatural.

"Buset!, all the stoves are carried that way." I rebuked Andi who was driving her motorcycle.

"This is the umbrella before it rains." Said her laughing.

"Well? don't bring your pot."

"Light in the bag I'm ready for." The answer.

It's surprising Andi's behavior, why the holidays become like moving house.

We finally arrived, and so did the others.

The bus is also parked in the school yard with some teachers inside.

We rushed in to get the most comfortable seat.

All the students had gone inside and sat in their seats and the bus was about to leave but Selviah was nowhere to be seen.

I asked Dede but he said he didn't know, so did Irma.

I don't know why Selviah wasn't seen.

For too long we left without Selviah.

It feels a little strange Selviah did not go, because usually he is the most enthusiastic about this holiday.

in fact, he discussed repeatedly that time and also told everyone to follow whatever happened.

But he is not among us all.

**

We have also reached the romantic beach of the high cliff area.

All came out happy and enjoyed the recreation and there were also scribbles of clothes.

The most important thing to do on this beach is to take a shower.

Everyone seems happy.

But I feel like there is less.

Selviah.

Yes Selviah's presence is the lacking part here, I even imagine he's here running around on the beach.

Why didn't he come with us, what happened.

"You're Selvi's kecarian" said Zakia scolding me from behind.

"Yes, I don't know why I didn't come" I replied.

I can't hide the look on my sad face.

"If you don't reject him, he'll come" Zakia said and walked away.

He said opening my mind, Zakia right this is my fault.

Selvi might be angry and offended because I refused her and decided not to leave.