The Pending Wait

Tidings

Saturday afternoon, when the shop will close and I'll be home.

Of course today is very special, I will express love to Dinda according to the promise we made.

But I don't know why for a few days Dinda didn't return my messages and didn't even pick up my phone.

The last time we met when he bought a cake for his teacher's birthday after that he kept missing the news and never even stopped by.

He intentionally made me miss him even more.

I really miss her, even more so I want to say love and ask her out.

The thing that made me really miss her, her sweet smile and her soft and affectionate voice.

I don't know.

Maybe he wanted to make me like this so I could think about him more.

If you knew, without you doing this every second I would think of you.

But let me do what you want even I will be what you want me to be.

If you had known for one week I really tried not to be afraid to look at your beautiful face, as well as your smile, he said, I was even afraid to touch your fingers because this heartbeat always tormented me when I was near you.

I turned on my engine and drove very slowly while thinking about you.

The street was very quiet, the house felt very empty, it felt like there was a hole in the heart.

I sat in the corner of the room staring at the photo of you that I posted on the wall of my room, but it felt like this room was getting darker and narrower.

"Tok tok" the sound of knocking on the door.

I opened it and it was my mother.

"Later Monday you are told to enter the same book Limah" said my mother while offering a letter.

"Oh, did he just come here?" ask my mother.

"It's the same with your friends"

"They came too".

"Yes his son Mega buk also came".

"Oh the Dede"

"Yes, beautiful is the person" my mother said.

"Be looking forward to my future boyfriend" I replied proudly.

"That's on the wall of that room".

"Yes".

"Be careful when you cry" said my mother and she returned to the kitchen.

Looks like my mom signaled that I shouldn't be too hopeful for Dinda.

It's like when I first knew him, also afraid of flying too high and falling.

But the Dinda that pulled me flying showed me how strong a bond was.

Then I guess I can reach out and hope to be together forever.

Although he was lost somewhere at the moment.

***

Even the night has arrived with a sense of half-worry I am ready to come to meet you, a flower and 3 Silverqueen chocolate bars have also been prepared.

I deliberately chose a white rose that symbolizes you that looks simple but so beautiful, you are very luxurious but so simple, so strange.

I don't know, I just follow my heart.

Fill this heart.

Suppose you know, I have been practicing for 1 week to be able to say love, my love for you is so very big.

until I can't contain him.

But I was afraid, afraid that if I looked you in the eye I would turn stupid, and would feel unable to speak.

***

I finally reached Dinda's house, but it looked as though it was desolate as it was uninhabited.

I tried to call Dinda by knocking on her door.

"Tok. tok... tok..".

"Assynogaic"

"Dinda Asalamualaikum".

I knocked on the door repeatedly, and called out Dinda's name, but there was still no answer to my arrival.

I made repeated phone calls, but still no response at all.

Where have you been my Dinda.

I decided to sit for a while in that chair, waiting for him to come out, or maybe go home from somewhere.

I kept waiting until the time got late, anxiety continued to haunt me, whether he intentionally did this, whether he went with the others or he was sick.

Then where are you, where are you.

My clock lyrics on my phone show at 21:53.

Or maybe I'll just wait a little while, maybe he'll come home.

When he came home I would not ask if where or why, I would immediately express my heart.

The important thing is that everything I've done and about her answers is up to her.

But what if he comes home with someone, a handsome man, or maybe he goes with a person named Nanda.

Can I be sincere.

But but, if he wanted to with the others why did he give me hope whereas I was so scared.

In fact, he did not hesitate to call me dear in public as if he wanted to declare to people that he loved me.

But now where are you, what are you doing and with whom, give me your word so that I may not be afraid like this.

Time is really late and maybe I should really go home.

I looked for a moment at the flowers I was carrying, and thought maybe I should leave them here.

But later if it is taken people how.

I finally brought her home with me in the hope that tomorrow I could meet.

The clock tells the time to iklas and leaves without worry 22:41.

Yes it's a bad time to meet because it's too late.

On the way I was thinking about it, why and where was the main question for him.

And I decided to stop for a moment and buy my favorite burger that was sold on the side of the road four branches.

It was unexpected that there was Selviah and his friends were telling stories while waiting for their burger orders.

I quickly put on my Hodey and acted out a face to make it invisible to her.

But he is so sensitive.

He easily recognized me and even called out without hesitation.

I pretended not to know a thousand languages until he got up and touched my hand.

"Hey Momo, that's so arrogant".

"Ah Selviah, I think someone else".

"When you don't know my face" he said, getting closer.

"In school you wear a hijab so I don't really know your real face without a hijab" I said looking for an excuse.

"Bring flowers, for whom?" ask Selviah.

"No, just buy it".

"Uuuu lied" he replied smiling.

"Hehehe.."

"Who's it for, Zakia ya".

"Oh that's impossible, wait why Zakia" I said a little annoyed.

"Well, there's a lot of gossip in school that you like Zakia".

"Damn".

"Why, that's not true".

"Yes, maybe I used to like it, but now it's not at all" I replied convincingly.

"Why?" ask Selvi seriously.

"I'm tired of waiting for him and seeing his attitude change".

"That means there is room for me dong" said Selvi.

"Huh..?".

"Ah just kidding" Selvi said again.

I was silent, inwardly muttering "sorry cell, I have tethered one's heart, may clap one hand but I will fight until I am completely removed".

"Well, for you".

"Yeyyy, thank you" he said in a statement.

Suddenly the sound of the camera and flash appeared suddenly, it turns out Selviah's friend photographed the incident.

"What the hell!" said staring.

"Ah no bang, just capture the moment".

"We have been first, Mamo, it was too late tonight" Selvi said with her face that was a pleasure.

Soon I also came home because my order was ripe.

At home I looked back to my loss of Dinda, the news that I was waiting for was gone, the face that I missed was also gone.

I'm sorry I gave your flowers to someone else, I'll buy them again even bigger, because if I keep them too, they will wither.

I took your pot that was on my wall and hugged it tightly as if it were you.

Until I fell asleep until I was unconscious.

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