The Pending Wait

Telephone

Good bye beach, see you next time.

It did not feel like the afternoon had arrived, our fun time had to end.

It's a tough day, because after this we'll be completely separated from each other.

Maybe we will meet, but it will not be the same as before.

Maybe it's a boring story.

But you guys must know how good it's good to be parting with your best friend.

In this bus we sang cheerfully and also joked with laughter.

The quiet figure of Zakia had turned into a jolly at this moment.

Well anyway this is the last day, if not enjoyed will be very loss.

These laughs and jokes are so loose, they are like a family gathered in the moment of Eid.

But it's a little hollow, probably because there's no Selviah.

Because he's always been around me at times like this, but that's not what I meant.

I just regret his absence here, he lost a moment with his friend and not because I wanted to be with him here.

Well, maybe there's a little bit of a sense of being alone with her but just a little bit, just filling the emptiness in the heart because there's no news of Dinda.

"Dream about you!" Tegur Andi was sitting next to me.

"Ah no, I just pity Selvi who did not participate." I replied to Andi who was currently eating grilled squid that he bought on the beach earlier.

"Why? you're disappointed that you don't have the temen to make that mess." Andi.

"It's not Bogeng."

"Lu is not sensitive to him, obviously he is disappointed."

Andi's right, I was bad to him.

But should I accept him while I like others, is it fair, is it appropriate for me to behave like that.

"I'd rather be honest than lie and play with her feelings" I said, then covered my face with a round hat.

Actually this is Zakia's hat, he lent this hat to me when Madi and Andi were stockpiling me with sand on the beach earlier and just separate the head.

Well he arrived well today.

"That's because you chase the ones who leave and leave the ones who survive" Andi replied.

It seemed he knew I was rejecting Selviah, and he seemed disappointed with my attitude.

But what I can do, this is what is happening now and this is the reality.

Selviah is a beautiful girl he would easily find a man who is suitable for her.

I unknowingly fell asleep on the bus and when I woke up we were already in the front yard of the school.

I think I just closed my eyes, when I opened it again arrived it was different place.

**

Finally it all ended happily, we shook hands with each other and also forgave.

The taste of haru was not terelak right, even Dede cried when shaking hands with the teacher and also friends of friends.

Of course, it was not only Dede who was crying, Irma, Kiki, Zakia ayu and the others were crying too.

Relax, friend, this is not a farewell, this is just a new path to the future, so grow up and stop crying.

**

New day, we have officially graduated.

The time we spent now lives on memories.

But nothing seems to have changed.

Oh what I have to say, my brain is so dead-end.

Right now I was lying in my room, staring at the cell phone with Dinda's picture on it.

I really miss her figure.

I don't know why I tried calling her again, when I knew her phone number had been inactive for a long time.

I comforted myself and let the phone call.

"Hallo!!" Suddenly I heard a voice on my phone "Bang Momo ya!"

"She!" call me slow and in disbelief.

"Hallo bang Momo how are you?" dinda asked in a soft voice, "Cock you shut up."

I don't know why my heart feels mixed, my mind is confused and my tongue is moaning.

I can't express my feelings right now.

I was angry, but also happy, I was sad but also happy.

I put my HP back on my study table and I was lying limp in that chair.

"Bang Momo, sorry Dinda yes, Dinda left without news and also left the Momo bang without saying goodbye." Said Dinda in a quiet voice and appeared to be slightly panting.

"Bang Momo, Dinda shut up!" He said it again and that's when I tepek raised my phone and called his name.

"Dinda!, where have you been!" say it with a messy breath.

"Sorry Momo, I was wrong" he replied slowly and the phone call was interrupted.

Disconnected.

Disconnected and no more noise.

It felt like all the space was quiet.

What kind of taste is this.

I don't know why my breathing is slow.

My hands are shaking, what is this feeling, what kind of feeling.

I tried calling again but this time her phone number was no longer active.

It feels so sad, I don't know what else to do.

I wanted to cry, my eyes were teary and my heart was aching and painful.

I froze helplessly, remembering her sweet and husky voice as if she was sick.

But what I don't understand is why he immediately turned off his HP.

His breath was hoarse and his voice was very slow.

What's wrong with him.

**

"Dec, what's wrong with you?" ask my sister who saw me off the accompaniment on the floor.

I got up and asked that question.

"So Dinda picked up my phone, but it was switched off right away."

"What did he say?"

"He's just apologizing and then he turns off the phone." I said with a sullen face while holding back my tears.

"Maybe he's in trouble again, don't jump right into something."

"But he's lost this month, I'm a big boy!"

"Okay, it's true that he's missing the news, but you don't know what kind of problem he's in" my brother said, explaining "Try to be patient for a while."

"Yes well." I answered but I couldn't digest what my sister said.

Confused about what to do, I fell silent in the corner of the house, dazed.

I pictured Dinda's face, and the night where we sat together.

Maybe if at that time we immediately dated it would not be like this, or maybe even worse.

I'm confused as to why Dinda left without news like this.

If he didn't want me to tell him right from the start, I'm confused about my current position.

Should I retreat without fighting or advance aimlessly.

Waiting without certainty is a foolish act.

Or indeed I am the one who is shameless, I should be aware of my position, if he leaves without a message it means he does not want to be with me.

Or intentionally make me like this.

Oh come on, what do I have to do!?.

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