The Life of Introverted Girls

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" Zian why son ?? " Syifa said when she saw Zian's slightly agitated gelagat in place. His own gaze implied something he wanted to convey.

Zian shook his head slowly. " It's nothing, Mi !! Zian come in first. Want to change clothes "Sahut Zian while moving from his place.He still refused to express his intentions in front of everyone. He wanted to tell it only to Syifa.

" Sir..!! Zian come in first !! " Pass Zian to his grandmother too.

" Yes, son" said Mamah as she gently rubbed the shoots of her grandson's head.

Zian entered his room followed by three pairs of adult eyes in the room.

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" i'm..Zian can talk ?? " Zian walked closer to Syifa who was watering the plants.His face was bowed full of doubt.

On Sunday morning, the Syifa family went nowhere. Syifa who felt her body was a bit fresh this morning, she chose to water her plants. Mamah chose to prepare breakfast, because she knew her daughter-in-law could not smell the spice of the kitchen. While Maliq, as usual is completing his work and will send the results to Hendra via email.

Syifa placed a water hose she used to water the plants and closed the water tap.

" Zian, what do you want to say, son ?? " Syifa said softly.

" Let's talk while sitting on the swing of "His baby again while leading his son towards the iron swing in front of the small garden in his yard.

" Zian can go to school at the boarding school, Mi ?? " Say Zian still hesitated as they sat on the iron swing, whose seats faced each other.

Syifa flinched and momentarily fell into place. He tried to decipher the sentence that the son had just spoken.

The young pregnant woman did not immediately answer her son's question.Watched her carefully the face that was bowed in front of her.

" What is the reason Zian arrived to want to go to school in the boarding school ?? " Syifa said with a slightly vibrating tone. There was a sense of unwillingness in his heart when he imagined that his only son was living far away from him. All this time, it was Zian who accompanied him. Only Zian made him strong, despite living away from relatives. He's strong through the days that are sometimes up and down.

Zian. He looked at the face of the woman who had given birth to him.

" Zian wants to be a child sholeh like Umi's prayer all this time to Zian. Zian wants to be a child whose prayers are affirmed by Allah when praying for Umi "Tutur Zian and then bowing his face again.

Syifa. Covered both sides of the son's face.

" Hasn't Zian been sholehnya Umi all this time ?? Zian never let Umi down. Zian was always a child who obeyed and feared Allah. Why did Zian have to leave Umi ?? " Cecar Syifa while looking at the deep netra before him. A thin thread of clear liquid slowly decayed without him being able to prevent it anymore.

Zian reached out his tiny hand and wiped away the tears on Umi's cheek gently.

Ooh..can Syifa regret, why his son who has not even seven years is very good at arguing ?? This is the seed of who exactly, so that his speech is not according to his age.

Syifa shook her head hard. It was as if he was throwing all the sentences his son had just spoken out of his head. Inner turbulent. His ego wanted his son to remain with him, but there was a side in his heart justifying every utterance of the child.

" What about Zian's acceleration class, son ?? " Syifa tried to persuade her son in another way after a moment she neutralized his feelings.

Zian smiled faintly towards Syifa. " It's science and ambition for the world, Mi. Mr. Ustadz said, we must pursue the afterlife and the world will certainly follow "Say Zian remained adamant. The look in his eyes implied the firmness and hardness of his heart.

Really, Syifa is not dealing with a boy until seven years. It was as if he was dealing with a miniature adult.

" Did Zian not love Umi anymore ?? " Syifa still desperately trying to shake the confidence of her child.As a parent she should be grateful to have a child who wants to learn to get closer to God. But as perfect as any Syifa is just a mother who is sometimes khilaf and full of shortcomings. He thought more about his feelings now without thinking that the good of his son in the future.

Zian shook his head slowly. " It is precisely because Zian loves Umi so much, so Zian wants to know God more, by further deepening the science of religion ", Zian said firmly. He tried hard to prevent him from looking weak and sad in front of Uminya. He wanted to show Syifa that he was strong and determined to keep going to the pesantren.

" Hufff.later Umi talked to abi first. After every Saturday, Umi can look at Zian "Syifa finally resigned and can not do anything with the wishes of his son.

Zian smiled back at his mother. " But Zian doesn't go to boarding school on this island, Mi. Zian wants pesantren school on the island of Java "Ungkap Zian flexible like without burden.

" Yeah....Oh, my God !! What else is this ?? Why on the island of Java, son ?? Here too many good pesantren and graduates can compete "Unconsciously Syifa strangled with frustrated faces. He could not understand what this child meant.

Zian. Without Syifa noticing, Zian painstakingly suppressed his guilt and sadness coming together to see his reaction.

" Zian please, Mi !! " Zian cupped his hands together in front of his chest pleading with earnestness to Uminya for the mother to grant his request.

Syifa took a rough breath and left without giving any certainty to her son. He walked into the house without looking back at his son.

Zian was back in his place. " I'm sorry Zian, Mi "Murm Zian while wiping away her tears that fell on her cheek.

" Let Zian clean Zian's heart, Mi. Zian did not want to be the one with his "Inner heart disease with a straight look outside the courtyard.

" I'm guessing there's someone Zian's hiding. He is too smart to hide his feelings. He was not like the little boy "Murmured someone who was hiding behind a bamboo flower tree behind Zian.

The man settles the precipitate leaving his place. He did not want Zian to know of his whereabouts.

" Asalamualaikum's chat..Ziaan !! What else is there, son ?? " a woman's screech calling Zian's name managed to jolt Zian who was pensive in his place.

" Waalaikum salam warrahmatullahi. Bundaaa !! " Zian ran to empty his bunda who came with Aslan his mother's husband.