The Journey of Starla Love

Mark Knows

"Thank you so much Mark. You know, you're the best." My speech.

I feel so good to see him after so long. Especially after the problems that I and my friends experienced with the men at that time.

"Why is your house locked? I think I've had a hard time dealing with that guy." Said Mark.

"Let's go inside. I have a lot of things I want to tell you. You should probably be here all day." I said as I opened the locked door with the key I had.

I need a friend today too. So Mark's presence can make me feel calmer.

"Oh really is a calming day. I thought you'd never ask me to do something like that." Mark said and walked in with my things just like he did all this time.

Mark has always been like that. Every time we went out to buy food or drink, he was the one who would always carry my order. I am not unwilling to bring my own order, but he is the one who keeps forcing me to carry my order.

We also sat in the living room. After that I then told him about Alden's profession and where he was now. Then I changed the subject and we moved on to my holiday trip where I met and began to be friends with the men and about stories related to Noah.

Mark's hands seemed clenched, but he kept trying to listen to me patiently.

I saw that she was calm at the end when I told her how I scolded Noah and walked away from the wedding.

"It was the worst trip." Said Mark.

I agree with Mark because it was so bad. But there's one thing I need to tell him about my feelings.

He probably won't be in the dark again after I say everything. I can't keep giving him false hope. I tried, I even tried. But I can't hold myself back anymore. I can't think of him as more than a good friend to me.

"What are you thinking?" Ask Mark.

'Oh my God... Oh my God, this is all so much harder than I imagined. What am I supposed to say? How am I supposed to say it? What if he breaks the relationship between the two of us? What if he stops being my friend?' my question is in my heart.

He's my best friend. What I should do. Is today the right time for me to say it all?

"I know you like Alden, Starla." Her speech.

"What's? Ba.. how did you... Ma. I mean... Aaa... Did I?"

"No Starla, you didn't say anything about it. But your eyes show you how your heart is. Your eyes speak more than what comes out of your lips and only a fool can't realize it.

You quickly started typing messages with your fingers so fast. It took you 6 seconds to send the message to her with your smiling face and it looked so different if it wasn't from her. Your smile will just disappear. You try to ignore the message with your face that looks pouting if the message is not from him.

Your eyes look so sad when I say bad things about him. You look like you want to make me like her like you like her and that's all good. It means I have an important place in your life that makes you want me to like the man you love.

But I'm still jealous of Starla. I was really jealous of him. I keep doing all these little things to you when I know that you will never be mine.

Now I can accept everything. I can already accept that you can't be mine. But I want you in my life. I need your presence to stay alive. The day you made the decision to go on vacation made me think and I got the solution that I couldn't accept if I lost you, my days were so sad.

I promise that I won't be between you and Alden like someone so infatuated with your love. I just need to know that you'll be happy with her and that's all I want, which is your happiness.

I don't mind if you live with the people you love. Just promise me you won't give up on me. You'll stay with me as my best friend, support me, as I support you.

Tell me whenever I cross the line. But please don't disappear from me even if Alden or someone else asks you to." Mark said at length.

"Mark you're my best friend. Don't ever think that I'm gonna let you out of my life. Alden has a different place in my heart and you also have half of it. You're here for me when no one can do it. I won't give up on you, let alone leave you." Reply with such sincerity.

"That's a huge relief for me." Mark smiled.

"Alright, that's enough with this soulful talk. Let's get your stuff and then we'll watch a movie at my house and then you'll sleep in the guest room. You're going to the hospital tomorrow with me. Is that what we can do?" My toot.

"perfect." Reply Mark.

I was so happy because she could understand my feelings. I was so happy because he knew and I didn't have to say anything to him. I was so scared that he was angry with me when I told him I liked someone else. But he's so nice.

Whatever he told me was a huge relief for me. He realized a lot about me. He knows anything about me that even I don't know.

"Thank you Mark." I said to him when we went to his house.

"No, I'm the one who should be thanking you. Thank you so much Starla. You don't know how happy I am to see that you're still my best friend and you don't break our friendship either. I thought that you were the one who would do that when you came back and I was really scared to think about it. I'm so happy to see you, I miss you." Said Mark.

"I miss you too, Mark. I'm happy to be here." Reply so full of happiness.

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