The Journey of Starla Love

Ordinary Day

"Maaa.... I'm late for school again." My yelling.

I quickly grabbed my bag and forgot my lunch box. After that, I ran towards the bus stop.

My days in high school felt quite monotonous. It all felt like there was nothing I could do. Every day it feels like we have the same story. I could just eat, sleep, learn, and all of that keeps on repeating itself. That's how my day is.

Today I have an important math exam and I've studied quite hard. But I still feel nervous.

I finally managed to arrive in time to get on the bus.

My school does implement a shuttle system to its students by using a special bus for schoolchildren.

On top of the school bus, me and the other students played a song with a game. We split up in 4 groups. We started singing together.

After a while, the bus finally entered the school area. I got to class and walked to the last bench. The last bench was very nice to me. While the front bench for me is a bench for strange people. I sat on my bench as usual.

"Alright everyone, you have an hour to complete your test and you can go home after that." Ms. Indira said as she began to share a repeat for all of us.

I heard Bella, my best friend whispering behind me.

"Starla, show me all the answers. I swear that I don't know the slightest answer to all this." Said me.

I laughed a little at his nervous voice. And after an hour of silence in the classroom focused on answering the written questions, the exam ended. The other students started to leave the classroom with faces that looked relieved, as well as me.

Bella thanked me for saving her with the answer I gave her or else she would be punished by the teacher later for her poor test scores.

After that, I was going to go back home and find my best friend Adam, waiting for me near the stairs.

"So how did you get through it all?" Ask Adam to me.

"Enough easy." I replied and smiled at him.

Everything always feels so good to me when I talk to Adam. We chatted all the time by discussing every detail about the exam from today. Adam bought me an ice cream as we chatted.

She kept reminding me that she liked me more than a friend and she wanted me to be her lover and asked me to think about everything again.

I've never been in a relationship before. Why does he keep saying that. I don't want to ruin my friendship with him. But he's been trying to get closer to me these few days.

I honestly like to talk to him. But I never thought about liking her the way she wanted and felt for me.

I've been ignoring her question asking me to be her boyfriend for a month. And now I'm back at my house. We decided to meet again in the afternoon.

After I finish doing all my routines at home, I will meet Adam again in the afternoon. But I'm still not sure how I should answer her question asking me to be her lover.

I don't know what I'm feeling right now. But I was just trying to think that he was chatting with his best friend, and that's normal.

But this has been too long and why is he smiling like that?

What is this feeling exactly? Is this jealous?

Oh no! Since when did this happen?

Damnit damnit! I really feel fucked up right now. What am I supposed to do?

Somehow I couldn't bear to see him looking blushing while chatting through a cell phone with someone else.

I stomped my feet hard and cleared my throat loudly hoping that he could understand something was bothering me and after that I went straight back home.

I went upstairs and stood on the balcony. I'm trying to understand what happened to me.

Adam is my best friend, right? Then why does all this not feel easy to me? Why does all this bother me?

I don't like to see him smile when he talks to other girls.

I stayed there waiting for Adam to call me. And after 20 minutes, he finally called you. I immediately answered her call and she asked why I was leaving in such a hurry.

I don't know why. But tears began to fill my eyes and I told him everything I felt with sobbing.

"I can't see you talking to another girl. Moreover, you look so blushing. You don't even pay attention to me. It was as if you were no longer aware of my presence. I feel fine when you ignore me and choose to chat with someone and your blushing face looks like Angelina Jolie called you and made you look so happy." I said at length and also in a sobbing voice.

I could feel that Adam was smiling as he told me, "Oh my God, Starla.... You like me too."

I still don't want to admit that what I felt for him turned out to be a feeling of liking. So I just kept quiet, and let him explain everything.

"Listen to Starla, she's a friend from my hometown. We used to be neighbors and went to the same school until I finally moved here. I just found out that he moved here too. But the new school is not the same as mine. You don't have to worry about him. Me and him were just talking about the past stuff that had kept us chatting for so long. Even to forget time. I'm sorry I hurt you." Adam said to me.

I immediately believed him. Maybe it was all because I wanted him just for myself and I was afraid to lose him who would go along with others. I'm scared, but maybe it's too late. It was too late to realize how I felt about him.

And that was how it started, until now we were in a relationship.

I was Adam's lover my best friend. The first relationship I had. But somehow I also thought about what I had done to myself.

Seriate...