The Journey of Starla Love

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I started to make bad habits.

I've been on the prese all day. Doing all the bad things including using drugs, smoking and even doing all the things that make me feel better.

I tried all the methods to make me feel like I could fly and be free from this pain. But everything I did felt like it couldn't change my feelings permanently. Everything always seems to make me feel hurt.

I realized that I had no more closeness with Bella. We were just seen chatting at school. I really lost my closeness to him.

I finally realized that everything I did was not good. All of that just fucked me up. I also started to fix my body. I stopped taking drugs, drinking, getting drunk and stopping smoking.

My mother never seemed to know of my behavior like that.

What exactly am I doing all that?

The fifth lesson is that God will always be with you. You're never alone. Don't go in the wrong direction and ruin the opportunities that are out there.

God always has a plan for us. Everything that has happened is for our own good. What makes us hurt and not kill us, makes us stronger, right?

God brings people into our lives and each of those people has a role and faces us in their own way. Some people give us love. Some people make us feel strong.

Once they play their part, God will remove them and bring new people and new experiences into our lives.

It's okay to feel sad and it's okay to feel hurt. Everything will be fine and never lose hope.

5 Years have passed....

I met a lot of amazing people. But I still can't focus on my education. I can finally get through it all. I have so many memories with my friends. We laughed happily. But my mind started thinking about everything when I was alone.

I wonder why I could be wrong like this?

What exactly have I done?

The sixth lesson is to stay away from people who cannot take responsibility for their actions. People who make us feel bad become angry at them when they do the wrong thing. Never blame ourselves. We must be aware of our abilities. Because we are so important and we deserve to be in this world.

Try to understand what we really want to do. For example, as happened to me. I realized that I was so obsessed and that my priorities should be something much more important than Adam and our relationship. I should focus on paying attention to myself, to my life, to my family, and to my true best friend.

All this awareness of mine will give me happiness at the right time.

To be honest, I feel sorry. Why don't I spend so much time with my family? Why don't I focus on all my work, my education and my hobbies.

Time always goes up and down, right?

A lot of time has passed and I am trying to change the direction of my destination. I try to push myself. My friends and I started attending all the events. Doing all the things we love like going for a walk. Doing all the fun stuff like bungee jumping, scuba diving, paragliding along with my friends. Laughing happily by sitting together beside the ocean, on the mountain while watching the sunset and making beautiful memories among us all.

Time can actually heal existing wounds.

I don't want to make contact with other men, because I'm still trying to heal myself. All of that seemed to tell me, as I made progress, God sent others back to test myself, whether or not I would go back to making the same mistake.

Adam's back.

Adam tried to apologize and asked me to go back to him.

"I beg you to forgive me Starla. Give me one chance. I promise I'll make you happy."

I refused without thinking about it any longer. I can't find a way to forgive him anymore.

People who betray like him will never change. If forgiven let alone given the chance once more, then he would definitely repeat the same mistake. I swore that I would never fall in love with her again this time.

Finally the story of the figure of Adam is over in my life.

I began to focus on my career, my education and myself.

I'm feeling better now. I'm so happy. Life taught me a great lesson.

The seventh lesson is that all experience is so important.

I asked myself. Did I make a mistake? Do I deserve all this?

It's not my fault. I try to be more optimistic. I try to find the best in everything. No matter how hard it is to live with myself.

Life is like a race track. We will fall on the road, but we must awaken ourselves. It is experience that teaches us that makes us stronger. Teaching us how to survive and face the world.

In the end, I felt free and I started to enjoy my life.

Is there any trouble in my life again? Of course there will be.

Life is not a bed made of rose petals. Everything was never that soft. But I won't be bored with all that. It's all over. I just need to be patient.

I finally learned about medical science and I finally got it all done.

I enjoy everything and try to be grateful for everything I can do. I finally got my title.

It's time for me to say goodbye to my college life as well as my friends.

We did live together for a few years by sleeping together, eating together, going to class together. We are in a place where we are together all the time.

How can I survive without them now?

It's time for me to go, to step into the real world. To face every obstacle that lies before me. To become more mature and step on my own feet to find my purpose.

We made our blankets become tangled just as we did last time in our hotel room. We watched movies, went out to eat, danced until we were almost out of breath with our legs feeling paralyzed and unable to support our bodies. We also spend our time together and promise to meet each other often and there will always be time for all of us.

We end up filling our bags with clothes and assets that have a lot of memory of the memories with our friends and with tears that fill our eyes all.

Seriate....