The Journey of Starla Love

Bad Facts

Adam and I began to take each other very seriously in our relationship.

Our love seems to grow bigger. We are not adults. But this relationship of ours really changed from being just plain friends to being more intimate. And it's all really very new to me.

Adam was always able to persuade me and make me believe that he would always be with me. I also believe in whatever he tells me.

Then with the passage of time, my love for her became even greater compared to before it even felt like it would be so great for her forever.

Adam didn't actually treat me the way people think. In the early months of our relationship, everything felt so adorable.

When our relationship was just starting, everything was so fun as if there were fireworks that always shone between us.

Then with time passing, we just chatted and just met each other.

Slowly everything felt empty, it felt the same as my usual routine.

I was obsessed with him. He always had a few other women who seemed to like him. It made me so possessive of him. But I always gave him space and never interfered too much with his personal affairs. Only when there is a small disagreement will I shout in anger and then we fight.

The fourth lesson is, giving space is very important for every relationship. Our partners have their own lives and we cannot always have 24 hours and a week in our partner's life. But that doesn't mean that we should ignore the red marks.

If your partner is loyal and honest, then you don't have to worry about them. They will always have time for us and will be with us to have us.

I ended up moving house and being in a different city with her which meant I had to have long distance contact with her and things started to get worse.

It was Bella's birthday. We were supposed to meet at a mall. Bella was there and she called me.

"Hi, where are you?" Bella asked me worriedly.

"At home, getting ready. Wh why? It's still too early than we planned, isn't it?" Reply quickly.

I didn't expect that Bella would ask me again.

"Where's Adam?" Bella asked in a voice that I felt was unpleasant.

"I don't know, at his house maybe. We were fighting, I haven't spoken to him in days. Why are you wondering?" I said to Bella.

"Then what is he doing here? He looks like he's dating a girl. They both look very friendly. I saw them holding hands." Reply Bella.

My heart immediately stopped beating. I felt pain in my chest, my stomach felt so nauseous and sick. I felt as if someone had punched me in the stomach very hard.

"WHAT?" I said so surprised.

I want to not believe what Bella said and hope that Bella just looks wrong.

"Are you sure it was Adam?" I asked as my heart stopped beating.

I really wish Bella was wrong.

"Yes I'm sure a hundred percent." Reply Bella.

I immediately ended the phone call. At that time my feelings were mixed. I don't know what's really going on. I really want to make sure of everything.

"Where are you?" I asked nervously.

"Get out with my friend." The reply.

"Lied, I see you now. So don't try to cover it all up." Reply to me with tears filled in my eyes that are preparing to fall on my cheeks the next second.

There was silence across the phone.

"Are you with Jessie?" I was afraid to hear an answer from him.

"Yes." Yeah." Reply and immediately end the phone call.

My heart felt broken into pieces. After that, I went to see Bella. But I can't say anything. I didn't even eat anything. He felt sorry for me. I don't like everything that's happening to me right now.

I tried not to mess up Bella's birthday, but I just couldn't say much.

After Bella's birthday was over, I went home and cried all day and night by locking myself in my room.

Seeing that, Mama became annoyed with me. Mama didn't know that I was crying because I didn't want to show Mama about my sadness. Mama just saw me lose my appetite and didn't say much.

My mom asked me what was wrong with me. But I can't say anything to Mama. Mama didn't know I was still in touch with Adam. Even though Mama asked me, I kept saying that we were not in touch.

I kept wondering, why does everything have to be like this to me?

So this is what heartbreak feels like. It feels so devastating to me. My whole world seemed to be spinning down in just one second. The initial exam for college entrance is coming up, but I can't learn much from it. But I still want to succeed in doing it anyway.

My dream is to become a doctor. Ever since I was a kid, all I wanted was to become a doctor. Just thinking about being a doctor, I feel so happy.

But studying medical science, is not something that can be easily done. There must be perseverance, dedication and also craft and discipline within us.

But right now, I'm so lacking in all that. How can I focus even on breathing can be so difficult for me.

I don't deserve this.

There must be a new chapter and a new beginning. But everything doesn't feel perfect. I can't endure all the pain.

I even begged Adam to stay with me and pick me up, pick me up, love me like he's been doing to me.

But he chose Jessie. Jessie was her best friend who made me feel jealous of her from the very beginning she mentioned the woman's name.

Yes, I am stupid, very stupid. How could I just believe all that. Trusting everything she has to say about her relationship with Jessie who is just a friend.

When I thought that everything would not be much worse, but the reality is even more than turning around.

There are such bad facts.

I was cheated on, betrayed, banished and utterly corrupted by it. I feel so depressed with my life.

Seriate....