The Huckold Married??

The Sky That Is Sad

The husband and wife are still in the same position, hugging each other is also strengthening each other without words there is only a breath that sounds tight indicating sadness that increases with reality that is never expected to be like this.

Deefa who was lied to dissolves in sadness while Raffan who lied dissolves guilt but there is a sense of calm because with the lie he said made him not to be separated from his wife.

The mixed feelings have been as strong as trying to hide each of them so as not to add to the suffering they are feeling.

Deefa tried to stop the tears that continued to seep from both her eyes brushed off and even wiped them with the back of her own hands then stroked the head of the husband tidying up her husband's black hair that looked messy because he had just woken up continue to be added to their conversation that ended heartbreakingly.

"Mas Raffan shower yes, Deefa want to make breakfast first continue later after breakfast Deefa ask in between for shopping, the refrigerator is empty to make our cooking stock," Deefa spoke in a voice that sounded so softly trying to act ordinary as if there had never been a sad talk they had just been through, she said, her Netra stared fixedly at the man who looked so fragile while trying to calm her down reassuringly that everything would be fine and she would never leave him.

"I'm afraid you're gone" said Raffan so softly laden with deep fear.

Now all he thought about was that he had to really keep all his reality well, close the meeting so that his lie would not open and be known to his wife, because he was sure when his lie was exposed Deefa would obviously be angry and hateful to him and even worse was to leave him.

Deefa shook her head and smiled and in a graceful and meaningful gesture she embraced the broad shoulders of her husband stroking her with his wiggly fingers.

"Deefa will not leave Mas Raffan," whispered right in front of the husband's ear.

"You have to promise me that whatever happens, never leave me" Pinta Raffan said in a heavy voice.

"God willing."

"I want you to promise because by promising you can no longer deny it," urged Raffan full of coercion and emphasis in every sentence he uttered.

Deefa was stunned for a moment the obvious doubt arose suddenly but when she had convinced herself she should have been able to promise even more so her love was clearly very great to her husband she nodded her head and made the promise she wanted.

"Deefa promised never to leave Mas Raffan," he said, who was greeted with a hug that again felt very strong from a man who clearly had great power away from him.

"Required?" deefa asked, patting her husband on the back.

Raffan nodded even though Deefa could not see but the woman could certainly feel the movements she was doing.

Deefa thought it was she who had to calm herself down, so the man she loved could remain excited even though they knew in their household they might be far from the sound of baby crying, far from taking care of the baby.

The woman sighed remembering the words of the mothers in the vegetable maker earlier, maybe later he will be a turn and be the topic of conversation as he had heard about a neighbor named Aliya who might have his ears buzzing every morning because it became the gossip of women in the housing that's.

"I want to take a shower" said Raffan, who finally calmed himself from his apprehension.

Deefa commented with a smile while nodding her head and took out a plastic bag of vegetables that had been lying dormant on the floor, he should have finished cooking by now and they were having breakfast but what had just happened made their breakfast probably would have been lunch later.

Raffan rushed to take a bath, cleaned his body when at dawn he had taken a shower but because he went back to sleep he felt his body so uncomfortable especially Deefa said she wanted to invite him to shop.

The man entered the bathroom in the room, closing the door and locking it to avoid his wife from entering, of course, he did not want his wife to see the sadness of his face full of regret.

Regretful that he had lied about the actual results of the examination, regret that made his chest feel extremely tight and the two red eyeballs held a guilty cry.

"I'm sorry Deef, sorry for lying because this is all I can do to keep me with you, I know it's wrong and you definitely don't like it but I really have no choice" Raffan said clenching his hands standing face down in front of the mirror, even he himself was unable to see his own face, because he thought it was full of lies.

He himself did not think that until now he could lie very well, did not expect his lie to look very perfect because it was a real sadness he felt.

While in the kitchen Deefa tried not to cry holding back her tears that were not even stifled again made her sit on the floor near the refrigerator with her trembling hands, which made her sit on the floor, since then she tried to be stoic and strong so as not to make her husband feel guilty but eventually she instead became tortured herself, her fear now was no longer about her mother-in-law's demands but how she could make her husband no longer feel afraid that she would leave.

The woman had to satisfy herself to cry but it felt impossible because she had to cook immediately before her husband came down.

Deefa stood up and took a tissue on the table to use to wipe away the tears, removing any trace of sadness from being seen by her husband, even though it feels very unlikely because of the eyes and nose that looks red, anyone will realize that he just cried.

The two humans seemed to be both feeling deep sadness even nature also dissolved in their sadness because the sun that had appeared was again covered by dark clouds, at this moment like the sky is sad.

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After finishing their breakfast at 10 am the couple are now in a car that will take them to a shopping center in the middle of Jakarta, this is a weekend so that the streets are not too crowded by vehicles because those who used to work or activities from the heart of Monday to Friday may now be enjoying a break with family or may be on vacation.

Raffan glanced at his wife who was busy recording what they would buy later, noted in the phone note of the wife, who was busy, the woman looked so serious that Raffan reflexively reached out his hand to stroke his wife's cheek and cupped her with one hand fixed to the steering wheel of the car.

The touch of her husband's hand made Deefa stop what she was doing, looked at her husband and gave a smile and touched Raffan's hand on her cheek, the growing affection made Raffan not willing to part with his wife.

The car continues to ride berayungkan with cloudy skies and wind gusts that blow dust and garbage leaves on the side of the road, continue to take them until finally the car enters the parking lot of a shopping center that looks crowded, such as holidays used by people to shop to set their daily needs.

"A lot of pity," complained Raffan as they were waiting in line to enter.

"Mas want to go home? let Deefa alone later when Deefa has finished the phone ask for a pick-up," Deefa offers, giving her husband a choice because he knows a man will not be happy if he has to waste time shopping, rather than her husband getting bored it would be better if her husband just went home.

But with confidence Raffan even shook his head very sure he would not let his wife shop alone amid the many people who came to the shopping place.

"Relatedly? really not going to be?" deefa asked to confirm, from the look on her husband's face she was very doubtful that her husband would not be bored or bored later.

"Remain, what the hell is like that it's not very trusting with my own husband, I'm the person who easily adjusts wherever it is, let's shop now even run out of it, even run out of it," he said as he glanced at the people who were racing to choose whatever they wanted to buy.

Deefa shook her head and smiled, not understanding why her husband was afraid that they would not get the things they wanted to buy, then following her husband has already breezed by pushing a trolley that they will later fill with various needs they buy.

She followed her husband who was so excited but just look later maybe the spirit will fade and change with complaint after complaint and ask his wife to immediately finish their shopping event.

"We go to where the soap used to be Mas," asked Deefa to line the steps of her husband who nodded then immediately turned his trolley to where the soap was.

Raffan pushed the trolley while his busy wife took whatever they needed at home.

Shelf after shelf they passed so slowly the trolley began to fill and here it looks Raffan's face has begun to change, Raffan's face has begun to change, it was very excited now it has started to slack and his mouth is sometimes made manyun but did not dare to say anything to his wife who was still very busy looking at the notes on his cellphone to make sure anything that was already there in the trolley and anything that does not exist and they have to buy.

"Still a long time, dear?" I finally couldn't bear to ask.

Raffan was getting bored and wanted to immediately finish their shopping and go from a place that was getting more crowded even afternoon.

Now they were in the fruit of the question Raffan then stopped Deefa's hand that was putting apples into a bag that would later be weighed, the woman looked at her husband who showed a bored face.

"Bored yet? what did Deefa say?"

Raffan's feet moved, unable to stand still when his wife brought up what the woman had said and emphasized to him.

"No, you keep buying" said Raffan with a panicked expression, afraid that his wife would ask him to come home first.

"Tante Deefa."

The sound of a call from a petite figure made Deefa and Raffan look back to see who was calling.

"Mas!" deefa's eyes glared to warn her husband not to speak carelessly especially now that he saw Kinara with his mother.

Raffan frowned and tried to put a smile on the woman he knew was the brother of his friend, Agam.

"Assalamualaikum," Dinar said hello to the couple.

"Wa'alaikumsalam," said Raffan and Deefa together while Kinara now had a spoiled struggle in Deefa's hands.

"Where are you guys doing? okay?" dinar asked with curved lips, although Deefa did not long teach at TPA owned by his father but Dinar had met a woman who was already very familiar with his son.

"Okay Ma'am, Ma'am and family how? always be healthy" Deefa said in a voice that always sounds very polite when it comes to hearing.

"Alhamdulillah healthy everyone, oh yes Raffan since marriage has never played home yes, seneng ya have a wife," Dinar sedu with a smile that they.

He knew the woman who became the wife of Raffan was the woman who had wanted them to apply for Agam, but did not make him have to be disappointed with Raffan right? after all, his Agam was also ordinary and maybe now Agam already does not have any feelings for Deefa, it should be like that because it is not good to like other people's wives, especially the wife of his own friends.

Raffan scratched the wrong behavior and did not know to answer what was clearly a question from Dinar was indeed a reality because after marrying Deefa he had never visited his friend's house again.

"Sometimes invite Deefa to play at home," the woman wearing the shar'i clothes asked.

"God willing Ma'am" said Raffan.

"What did aunt buy again?" Kinara with her pomp looked at the trolley that was in front of Raffan.

Seeing Kinara's face made Raffan remember his words first, making regret even come to him, what he said even became reality.

In the past he thoughtlessly said it was better not to have children than to have children similar to Kinara, Raffan's heart felt pinched aches and pains to remember what he had always wanted to say.

It felt like he wanted to go back to that time to retract his words first.

"Mayuran to cook," Deefa replied as she stroked the head of the child standing in front of the trolley.

Raffan's two eyes slowly turned red and continued to pay attention to everything that was done by the little girl dressed in Muslimah.

"Nara," call Raffan to Kinara who looks at him immediately.

"Why Om?" it was unexpected that Kinara who used to sniff and judge Raffan now replied in a very friendly voice and with innocent and sinless eyes.

"You want to go for a walk with Om and Aunt Deefa?"

Raffan's question made Deefa speechless with an expression of disbelief, she remembered how her husband was against Kinara even then was still showing a serious attitude but why now even invite Kinara for a walk?

"You-want," Kinara excitedly gave an answer.

Raffan smiles and talks to Dinar asking for permission to take Kinara for a walk with him and Deefa.

"Sir, can Raffan take Nara for a walk?" asked Raffan, "later Raffan anterin returned home soon," he added, asking permission from Mama Kinara who just nodded his head to give permission.

"Yes take it, Nara was also long ago actually want to play to your house but yes Agam busy Mbak is also busy so no one anterin," I Dinar with a bright face when I found her son soaring with excitement.

"Nara don't be naughty, you have to obey Om Raffan and Aunt Deefa." gave a warning to the boy who nodded quickly.

Deefa still did not understand the change in attitude from her husband even when Dinar said goodbye to go home because he had finished buying what he wanted to buy and Deefa still frowned, even more so when looking at Raffan who is now holding Nara while pushing the trolley.

"Quick Deefa." pinta Raffan as his wife walked very slowly.

Deefa then accelerated her steps to align with her husband and Kinara who had been so carefree, running small when her hands were held by Raffan made Raffan overwhelmed.

Deefa was even more flabbergasted when Raffan who would usually nag now even smiled and tried to compensate for Kinara's movements.

In the midst of confusion, there is also a feeling of gratitude because finally Raffan is no longer tired and fierce towards the little girl who even Deefa thinks is very funny and adorable.

"Alhamdulillah." Deefa gave thanks and then walked quickly to chase after her husband and Nara because again she was left behind because she was so amazed by the scenery she was seeing.

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