
In his house, which was alone, Raffan was only able to sit still without moving, completely silent with the contents of his head who thought of all the possibilities that would happen about his household with Deefa when he revealed the facts about his wife who had a disease in her womb.
Really at this time he felt like he needed someone to calm down all the confusion he was feeling, his mind was too tired since coming home from the hospital and his mother who immediately called to ask for the results of the examination.
Whether the mother did not want to let her child calm down in living the household with the woman that even her mother chose for her, then why now even give demands that eventually make Deefa depressed.
Ah no, if it's like this not only Deefa is depressed but also herself, Raffan Alawi so distressed to think about the situation of his wife later after he informed them the results of their examination, and still to be added by his mother.
So what should Raffan do now? as his husband and wife did nothing wrong he would defend his wife desperately, but what about Deefa herself? is the woman willing to accept what has been set for them? will his wife not make a painful decision for them?
"Astaghfirullahaladzim," Raffan rubbed his face.
This is not going to be the end of their household journey that has not even been a year, right?
Really Raffan did not want it until it happened but as a human who has a feeling of course he will think like this, thinking of scary things that from now on might overshadow him, he said, blowing a wind of fear infiltrated into his soul and body.
The man only moved when he saw the object on the table again lit up and sounded, the ringtone that disturbed his sense of hearing immediately made it.
It was his wife, it was a phone call from his wife that instantly made his heart flutter and his mind that was suddenly worried, the man then hopes that his wife does not ask about the actual examination results Raffan considers it a dream and when he woke up the next morning the results of the examination were never there.
"Assalamualaikum, my dear."
Deefa's voice sounded so melodious that reconciled her agitated heart, Raffan exhaled calmly and replied to the greeting his wife said, "wa'alaikumsalam, honey, how are you there, alright? I miss you, too," said Raffan expressed longing when it felt like just this morning he was parting with the wife, neat only a few hours even missed his wife very much.
"Well Mas, Deefa well, there has not been a day Mas, why have missed," deefa said while smiling shyly in the middle of his eyes which actually still show sadness due to the departure of his father who had returned to his creator.
"The name of the kangen can not be set when the arrival of Deef, want to just one minute apart if his heart kangen yes kangen aja, do not have to separate long ago new kangen," raffan said with a facial expression that shows that he is currently missing his wife.
The woman who is far away is in fact already fully the ruler in her soul and body, no longer rejecting the feelings that once did not exist.
"Yes patient, sooner or later Deefa will also return to Jakarta anyway," said Deefa trying to calm her husband, giving him patience to wait for her.
Is not as a wife she will indeed return to her husband, live together and devote themselves to the husband because it is her duty since Raffan smoothly uttered kabul that makes them halal, kosher, it's just that for now Deefa still wants to be with her mother more precisely want to accompany the woman first until her mother was really used because actually Deefa really wanted to invite her mother to live with her in Jakarta even this morning before Raffan left for Jakarta he had talked about this possibility and Raffan was happy to accept his mother living with the count to accompany them, but it turns out that his mother refused on the grounds that did not want to make the house of the late father's legacy was empty and unkempt, making Deefa could not force her will, too, afraid later his mother did not feel at home because she thought about her home.
"Yes I'm patient, at most if I can't sleep at night."
"Why is that?"
"It's usually you" said Raffan.
"If you can't sleep Mas can teach, let his mind be calm," Deefa suggested to her husband who had already started reading the Koran although it was still rare.
"Yes dear," said Raffan with a voice that sounded heavy because there was something burdensome to his mind.
"Mas," called Deefa to the husband whom she did not know was trying to calm down, suppressing her anxiety so as not to be realized by him.
"Why? you want me to pick you up?" raffan asked her a question that could at least help her calm down.
"Yes, I know I'm just joking around to get rid of the loneliness of not being able to see your face" I'm a man who still hasn't eaten, his stomach was still empty he was really very unappetizing to eat.
"What are you talking about?" ask Raffan later.
"What about our results? I took it, right?"
Deefa's question in an instant immediately managed to make Raffan speechless, he was also a little sorry why he had to ask what his wife would talk about.
Raffan massaged his forehead and moved to the base of his pointed nose with a heavy breath and became very fast.
What does he have to answer now? his wife was far away from being with him if he said that now it really scared him, Raffan was afraid that Deefa would become hysterical and Raffan would not be able to calm the woman.
Because however Deefa is also just an ordinary human who is of course the same as other humans who will be shocked and hit when they know what happened.
"Mas," Deefa again called her husband who had not yet given an answer to the question she was giving.
"Belom darling, I have not had time to take the matter directly to the campus has been truant three days more right." finally Raffan chose to lie.
Lying to his wife for not wanting to when Deefa was sad she was not there, as a husband should she be by his wife's side and give strength to the gentle woman.
"That's it."
"I'm sorry, baby" Raffan said when he heard the wife's voice that sounded not excited, feeling very guilty to the woman he loved because he ended up lying to her.
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