The House in the Middle of Sawah

Disappointment

"And, there's one thing you need to know", Erni seemed to let out a slow sigh.

"What?", I wonder.

"I'm indeed away from you. But it wasn't because of Iwan", once again Erni sighed. He hesitated to continue his sentence.

"Febi asked me to stay away from you" Erni said as she looked at me.

For a moment I was silent. I'm a little unsure of Ernie's words.

"But, why did Febi say that to you Er?", I asked to convince myself.

"Maybe he really likes you Dan. At that time he took me to a jones cafe. He told me to stay away from you, because you guys are already. He knew, at that time I. .I liked you", Erni said softly. A sentence that was like a lightning strike across the hole for me. So, Erni liked me all this time, just like I put my heart on her too?

"But, that's a story that's gone by Dan. Now I have Iwan. Even though it turns out that you have nothing to do with Febi, I might not be able to get too close to you anymore, you understand Dan?", Erni looked at me, I just nodded.

Right now my feelings are mixed, just a moment ago like in a high catapult, and a moment later it has fallen. My knees feel weak no longer support the body, but I try to control myself. I don't want to be seen in front of Erni. I tried to smile at Erni.

"Motormu kayak e spark plug ne deh Er", I this time diverted the conversation, Erni just kept quiet.

I picked up the spare spark plug I had prepared earlier in my bag. A few moments later Erni's motor was on again. I smiled with satisfaction, as if I had become a master mechanic.

"Well done" I patted Erni's motorcycle seat.

Erni is approaching me.

"Diem used to be" said Erni, wiping my left cheek in a tissue.

"Dirty nih", Erni shows a dusty blackened tissue.

I smiled, blushed. My heart beats this time.

"Yes", I answered briefly.

"On that matter, I hope you don't get angry at Febi, it seems that he really sincerely wants to be with you. She's a good girl and. I'm sure you'd be happy if it was her" Erni held my arm.

"Come on Er, I still love you, and I can conclude right now, that Febi is the one who made me so far away from you, can't be the same as you", I looked at Erni, patting the back of his hand that was clenching my arm.

"No Dan, not Febi's fault. Maybe it is not our destiny, do not blame Febi for his efforts to get you", Erni looks eager with her words.

"Okay, I get it", I'm ending this debate, even though in the corner of my heart there's a sense of disappointment to Febi.

"So this wants to nendi ki?", I asked Erni who was already hanging on her bike.

"You know Sociology at Nita's house, once again at a really good time Dan", Erni wears her striking yellow helmet.

"I first yes, I'll buy it sometime" Erni turns on her bike, then lifts her thumb at me.

"Iyess, ngati ati on the road ", sahutku, take off Erni who has been waving her motorbike.

I sat on the sidewalk. Still males moved from this place, even though the sun was getting scorching and stinging.

Drrtt . . .Drtt . . .Drttts

Hp vibrates, there's a phone. Maybe Erni? The bike broke down again?

I saw the HP screen, it turned out Febi was written there. Shit, I'm bad at talking to him. I put my HP on the sidewalk next to where I sit. I just let the HP vibration continue roaring roars repeatedly. I enjoyed the sun's sting on my crown, the heat seeping into my heart.