The Holy Love of Amayra

Chapter 49. Hate root

Bram looked at Amayra who was standing behind Satria. Bram's heart was again stunned to see it, especially when Satria grasped the woman's hand and Amayra also returned Satria's hand.

The feeling Amayra felt for Bram, maybe not just hate, or disgust, but trauma. The trauma scared him to get close to the man.

"I want to talk to you, Amayra." Bram said he dared to invite Amayra to talk.

For the first time Bram called Amayra by her name. Usually Bram calls Amayra as a garbage boy or hey you. Amayra was still hiding beside her husband.

Why are they so close? When was their relationship like this?. Bram looked jealously at the couple holding hands.

"Do you want to talk to my wife?" satria asked ketus and sharp.

The deg!

The word wife that slid from Satria's mouth made Bram's heart uncomfortable."I want to talk about last night's problems."

"If she wants to talk to you, please talk!" Satria turned towards Amayra who was still hiding.

"I don't want to talk to Mr. Bram, it's better that we don't talk to each other anymore" Amayra said without turning to Bram, the woman looking angry at Satria.

The logic is where the victim might want to talk to the perpetrator again. Moreover, Bram has often hurt Amayra, not just one or two times. First Bram rapes her, Amayra gets pregnant and is expelled from school. Not to mention she bore the shame, losing her wonderful future as a teenage girl. Humans have a limit of patience, there are times when angry even to have hatred for someone. Maybe now Amayra's feelings are on the path to hatred.

God, I shouldn't have this kind of feeling for her. I must not be angry, I must not hate, but I cannot stop my heart from hating him. Amayra threw away her face, as Bram stared at her.

"Son't heard, has he? My wife doesn't want to talk to my sister" Satria explained Amayra's words to Bram.

Bram swallowed bitterness, his heart as if stabbed got rejection from Amayra. Even more so when the woman threw her face in front of him. But, Bram did not want to give up he still asked Amayra to talk to him.

"Please, just let me talk to you for a minute. I'm not gonna do anything like last night, I promise." Bram persuades Amayra to talk to him.

"I'll talk to you, if you promise after this talk we'll never talk again" Amayra said, staring intently at Bram.

"Okay, I promise. We'll talk alone,"

"Sister, I'll talk to Bram first."

"Yes, if he does anything to you again. You just yell, I'll see you and mama first," Satria stared intently at Bram and looked at Amayra with emotion. Satria is still angry with her brother over last night's incident with Amayra.

Satria leaves Amayra and Bram in the backyard of the Calabrian family home. Bram and Amayra talked to each other far apart, more precisely Amayra who was away from her.

"Night, I. I'm sorry, I've freaked you out. I was completely unconscious at the time." Bram looked down and looked sorry because of last night's incident.

"Why are you quiet? I'm sorry for you!" Bram asked astonished to see that Amayra was silent.

"Is that all you want to say to me? Sorry about last night?" ask Amayra heartache.

"Oh yes I forgot. I'm also sorry for what happened at the villa, you know I did it by accident. I was under the influence of alcohol, and I couldn't control myself. I'm sorry Amayra." Bram said apologizing easily for everything he did.

Yes maybe by apologizing, my heart will be a little relieved. I will no longer look at his face.

The woman was stunned, her two eyes roundly staring at Bram furiously. Water was pooling under his eyes. "For everything you've done to me, just sorry? What's with sorry all the trouble will be solved?" Amayra's words became sharp and cynical to Bram, he tried to hold back the anger but he could not if faced with the man. It was as if the kindness and gentleness of his heart were frozen in an instant.

"What else do I have to say? Didn't you want an apology all this time? Or maybe you won't forgive me? Allah is forgiving, when you will not forgive me?" Bram wanted to be forgiven by Amayra, but she didn't look sorry at all.

Again Bram's speech even made the woman in the ash hood become more angry. He scrunched his forehead, his eyes glazed over.

"Do you think mistakes will just disappear when you apologize? Even without regretting it?" Amayra gulped, she looked emotional.

Hold Amayra, hold it!. Amayra withholds nausea.

"Where do you know I'm not sorry? You don't even know my heart! I regret it, really! I regret everything I did!"

"If you are truly sorry! You won't let me be in a situation like this! You shied away from responsibility, asking me to kill this innocent child! I lost it all because of my father, my dreams, my ideals and my wonderful time as a teenager! Did you know? When my father left me at the hardest of times, I thought about ending my life! I'm ashamed, but I can still endure it. The only thing I can't stand is the pain in my father's heart. I could not see my father sad and hurt because I had embarrassed him. I began to think narrowly and the devil began to whisper to me, do I have to end my life or is this child's life all I have to end? But, I remember that he was the life and trust that God gave me. When everyone insulted and demeaned me, you just said sorry for everything? For everything I've experienced?! Is it that easy that Mr Bramastya regretted?!" Amayra pointed her finger at Bram, she looked hurt. Tears of the pooled currency flowed down his cheeks.

His heart recalled the moment Bram left himself, embarrassed and in a bad state. While everyone is blaspheming him, Bram goes to find Alexis and refuses his responsibility to Amayra.

Bram was stunned, his heart was sad to see Amayra crying and emotions at him. His eyes also glazed over to see Amayra. The man was unable to reply to Amayra's explosive words to him.

"It's not just that! You don't even acknowledge this boy, you accuse me of teasing you! All that is not enough with the word sorry sir, I am just an ordinary human who has a limit of patience, I can be angry and disappointed!" Shouted Amayra while crying.

The roots of hatred began to appear in Amayra's heart to Bram who had already incised a huge wound in his heart.

"Well, I'll accept your apology! But, promise me that someday never acknowledge this child as a father. This child is just my own child! And there's no connection with the father, keep it good sir!" Emotions have taken hold of Amayra's mind and heart, until she has the courage to speak like that to the man who has desecrated her. "From now on, I hate you!"

Bram was stunned to hear Amayra's words. He was at a loss for words. Amayra left Bram alone there, wiping away her tears. Bram stood there, unconsciously his tears were flowing.

"Damn! Why am I crying? What am I really crying about? Alright, I won't admit the boy either. And I won't regret it either!" murmured Bram while wiping his tears.

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