The Forgotten Asmara

Bringing Asmara Home

"You don't want to know why I left you?"

I gave a cup of warm tea to juna. Juna came to see me this morning. But today I have to work.

"You've come back, I'm more interested in what reasons make you want to come back?"

"I.I....."

"I'll listen to you mara, and accept whatever your excuses are."

"Mas, why are you always like this?"

"Always?? Was I always like this?"

"Mas, you're too good for me."

"Then..."

"Mas juna, you're too kind too impatient. Aren't you tired of always acting like that?"

"Am I boring for you, Mara?"

"Mas, that's not what I meant...."

"I'll change it if you don't like it."

"Don't, don't change what's on you for someone else's sake."

"Then?..."

"Mas, you always just never change.."

"Yes, I've always been like this and I'll never change. Then what about you? Have your feelings for me changed?"

The deg!.....

Dag dig dag dig dug dag dig...

My heart is beating so hard, why do the words juna can interfere with the movement of my heart?

"Mas, for my feelings for you..."

"Mara, I already know. No need to explain if it makes it difficult for you. Right now the most important thing is that you come back first for mom and Randy. After that, all your decisions will be accepted."

"Thank you, sir.."

Juna nodded slowly, so straight thought juna. Is this a mature Arjuna wiranata? He never forced, he could accept whatever he was going to be. He never complained or repeated what had happened. His views and thoughts always lead to the future. He's very nice, and too good for me..

"Mas, what should I explain to mom?"

"Mom won't ask for your explanation, Mara.."

"Why are you so sure?"

"You wanna bet?"

"Well, what's the bet?"

"If I win, you must obey all my will. And if I lose, then I will obey your will."

"Is this about feelings?"

"Yes whatever, whatever it is."

"Well, if I win I'll ask you to leave me how?"

"alright.. That's your right."

"You're so straight, like you'd be happy to leave me."

"I just don't want to force anyone to stay by my side.."

"If I keep wanting to be by your side how?"

"That's good luck to me. And I'll never let you go again. I'll marry you right now."

Hearing juna say that, I just mute. There are no words I have to say to her anymore.

This morning me and Juna went around town. I've been asking for cuty's permission for two days on dika sir. It just so happens sir will allow me.

Czechoslovakia!!

Juna pointed at his cell phone camera.

"You're taking pictures of me again?" I asked while glancing at him..

"Take a look at this, it's funny.." Juna showed me his portrait.

"Your habits are still the same.."

"If my habits concern you, I won't change them.

"Emmm..." I just nodded slowly in response to Juna's words.

"Tomorrow I'll see you again, have you thought of mara?"

"Wait for tomorrow. Didn't you give me two days?"

"Emm, okay. Don't let you choose Mara wrong. That's my hope..."

"Just wait for tomorrow..."

"I can't wait for her to come.."

***

🍒Asmara

"This morning mas?" I opened the door for Juna.

"Should it be night?" Juna shook his shoulders looking at me.

"As for you, you'll be waiting for me, won't you?"

"Emm, well I'll be back later tonight.." Juna stepped out of my apartment.

"Buck...." I pulled the end of the jacket that juna wore this morning until his steps stopped.

"What's mara?"

"Come in..." I let juna back in.

Juna stared intently into my apartment. His eyes were round watching as several suitcases were already lined up.

"Would the suitcase be sold?" Juna seems to be teasing me.

"Hmmm, thrown!" Reply annoyed.

"Thank you Mara, is this a sign that you..."

"Yes, I'll come home with you."

"Mara, are you serious???"

"Does my face look like I'm joking?"

"Well, I'll book a plane ticket now." Juna grabbed his phone.

"Wait a minute, you didn't even ask me." I tried to hold juna's hand.

"Nothing I have to ask mara.." Juna looked me in the eye.

"I've booked the tickets, let's go now to the airport." I let go of my hand that was holding juna's hand.

"Mara, really?? But my things are still left in the hotel." Juna threw her faint smile again.

"All right, we're going to the hotel now.."

"Mara?? You're taking me to a hotel?"

"I'll help you with your stuff! Don't think things out! Come on, we don't have much time." I rushed out, continued to be with juna make sense of uncertain.

Juna followed my steps, feeling very happy today. Even though I didn't say I'd go back to her, at least I went back for mom and Randy.

We stepped together, juna carrying two suitcases of mine. While I only carry a small sling bag that circles my body.

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Inside the plane, either this is a coincidence or God's plan. Juna and I sat next to each other, while agatha and byan sat next to each other. The four of us were on the same plane.

Juna looks very relaxed in dealing with this situation, but I feel uncomfortable. I was just silent, occasionally pointing to the window staring at the ceiling covered in bright white clouds.

There was no conversation between us. Until it felt like we had arrived.

***

I felt at my feet that my mother apologized to him. I just responded with a cry. Mom was sobbing that made me feel guilty too.

"Mom... Sorry mara.."

With a face of regret, I kneeled at mother's feet.

"Here you go, son, don't keep apologizing. You're back, I'm so grateful..."

She held both of my shoulders, then hugged me tightly.

While Randy, he also got carried away. Her clean face was filled with tears. Hugged me and my mom.

"Sir juna, thank you for bringing the romance back.." Mother looked at the juna whose eyes were also reddened.

Juna just nodded quietly without a sound.

"Juna's on a plane?" Randy opened his voice.

"Dear baby, you go home first.." Juna grabbed onto the top of Randy's head and slowly scrambled.

"So careful, thank you for picking up Mara." Randy hugged juna's body.

"Rest mara, mother I'm going home." Juna turned towards looking at mom and then shook her hand.

I thank you, Randy also thanked juna. But I haven't thanked him. I looked at the face of Juna there who had radiated happiness.

It feels to thank you is not enough to repay the kindness of juna to me and my family all this time.

For now, I can only stare at the back of the juna who is now disappearing from view.

"Juna has been seen excited again mara, please don't ever hurt her again." Said mom holding the back of my hand.

"Mom, I'm sorry..."

"After your departure, to sleep there is no time for juna. He just thinks about it and keeps looking for you.. Do you see that not her body is taking care of her? Mother also knew she only ate once a day, even then she had to be forced by aisha".

"Couldn't you?"

"His life is full of chaos, son, you can feel the pain he experienced during your departure. Therefore, finish your business with him. Don't let her down any deeper, have mercy on her." Mom patted my shoulder softly.

"Yes ma'am, mara will." My answer.

"You still love her a lot, don't you?" My mom's eyes looked at me deeply.

"So mom, I love her so much. Even this taste is growing for her, ma'am.." I'm whipping mother's arms. Until the crying between us happened.