The Forgotten Asmara

YES OR NO

"That's not all easy sir...." My eyes turned red, and my memory began to come back in those days when me and Byan.... The more forgotten, the feeling was even clearer and my memories with Byan even more swirling in my brain.

"Mara, are you going to keep doing this?" Juna glanced at me, and refocused on driving his car.

"Sir juna, I don't want to be like this, but my heart is still the same. My heart is still for him.."

"Mara, Don't forget that your heart belongs to the Creator.. That would drive you crazy!"

"A..What do you mean by father? crazy??"

"Yes, over time you will be stressed and end up crazy if it continues like this!"

"Sir juna, it's impossible to get there! That's too much.."

"We can't guess what's going to happen, can we??"

"Don't scare me, I'm not a kid sir!"

"Nobody scares you mara. I just want you to get out of this mess of yours and I hope you can get rid of your love for her soon."

"That can't be easy for me, I've tried everything, sir. But...."

"But it's easy for him to play you mara!"

"Yes, because he was tempted by the woman."

"You sure she loves you mara?"

"I was sure, but after the incident I'm not sure anymore sir.."

"Do you want my help???"

"Help? Mean dad??"

"Say YES if you need help from me, Mara? and say NO if you don't want it.."

I was confused, I don't know why Juna offered help. What kind of help is that?? I don't get it! Is it with his help that I can immediately spare my feelings for byan? Do I have to accept the help that juna offers??

"Mara, if you yourself until now have not been able to change your feelings. Then you need help from someone else. I'm not forcing you, but if you change your mind call me. What's wrong with trying first, many people who fail out there because they remain in their comfort zone, whereas accepting new things may be going to change our situation! Never be afraid to try to get married."

I was silent at Juna's words. There's a point in juna saying, what's the point of me constantly thinking about people who obviously don't think about me. I took a deep breath, until I agreed to help from Juna.

"Alright sir, maybe I need help from someone else. Thank you for helping me, sir."

"So, did you accept my offer??"

"Yes sir, please help me.."

"I'll help you mara, as hard as I can.." Juna commented his smile.

"Thank you for helping me.."

"It's not time to thank Mara, I haven't even done anything. You've been thanking me constantly."

"Hehee.." I scratched my head that did not feel itchy while grinning.

"Tomorrow is there a mara class?"

"Nothing sir. What's up?"

"You sure mara??" Juna couldn't believe it.

"Yes sir, I'm off."

"If you have time tomorrow come with me."

"Where sir?"

"You'll know later. Do you have time??"

"I'll tell you tomorrow."

"Emm, okay... Call me early in the morning.."

"Must be early in the morning, sir??"

"Bather pushy??"

"I'm not forcing you to mara, but I'm forcing you!"

"That's the same, sir! All right, I'll let you know."

"Don't forget the mara, early in the morning!!"

"Yeah.. Alright. It turns out that my father was a forger!"

Haha.. We laughed together. Until it is not felt if juna has parked his car in front of my house.

Juna helped me down my groceries, and both of us were noticed by my mother lurking from the window.

"You live with your mother??" Ask juna.

"My mother and sister." I answered frankly.

"Can I say hello to them?"

"My mom is not home. Maybe we're at home eating."

"But I saw someone in your house." Juno's answer surprised me.

"A.what? Any people?" I was surprised, the mother told me that she was at the restaurant. Where it might be at home.

Juna carries some of my big grocery bags. Juna leads to the house. Until he said hello.

"Asalaminophen..." Juna stood at the door.

"Goddessalam..." I answered from inside and opened the door.

"Mother, Mara thinks mom's still at the diner."

"Mom's home, dropping off your sister seems exhausted." She looked at juna.

"I'm juna ma'am, I'm mara's friend.." Juna put his shopping bag into the living room.

"Yes, please sit down, son. Thanks for bringing Mara." Answer mother.

"We met Mom in the supermarket by accident. Juna sir is my senior in mom's office.." As I answered, I didn't want you to think like that.

My mother smiled to answer me. "Thank you son of juna, must have trouble you huh? Mara is like this. Just understand his attitude, son."

"Yes mom, I've used it a lot and I'm used to it. Don't worry, mother." Juna replied to mother's words casually.

"Thank you for understanding, son.. Wait, I'll make you a drink."

"No need ma'am, I'll just say goodbye. Before that I want permission from Mom. Tomorrow morning I want to take Mara away." Juna blatantly to mom.

"Mom allow, the important thing is to be careful. And go to a good place. Don't you go home with juna." Mother also agreed immediately. I shook my head in disbelief.

"Mommy allows?? Thanks ma'am.. I always remember mom's message."

Junapun pampered to go home. I don't know what happened today. I think juna is getting closer to me. Is it like that?? Or am I getting closer to her??

Mother's attitude astonished me. Why is mommy bosa seramat this on juna. Ah, my mother was always friendly and kind to people close to me. No exception byan, she was very friendly with him.

Lately my mother has asked a few times about byan, but I always say if byan is busy with his work in Jakarta.

I've never told my problems and byan lately to mom.

"He's a good man, son, don't ever let him down.." Mom patted my shoulder that had daydreamed.

"Mother, mara told you, didn't she? He's just a senior mara."

"Mom really hopes that your relationship is not just a senior and junior.."

"Mother, it's not good to decide such a thing. Mara's tired mom, Mara wants to take a shower."

My mother smiled to answer me. Mom always does this. Couldn't it be if me and Juna could do more than that?

I'm going to take away all of mom's thoughts and expectations. I don't want you to wish on Juna like expecting a byan who has now left me. I was abandoned because of another woman. I don't want that to happen to me again.