
"I am not in a state of seducing or hoping to exceed my request to Allah, because the best giver is only Allah SWT not man"
Gao spoke while looking at the woman in front of him.
The age of the woman is still quite young, maybe about 32-33 years, her face is quite sweet with a native European facial line.
"I just want to straighten out your views on my wife or even the Muslim religion"
"For my best woman after my mother is my wife, she is the 2nd woman who most patiently meets all my needs during our time together after my mother"
"He prepared all my needs from clean clothes, healthy food, living in a regular pattern, medicine when sick or grieving, as well as tranquillity when the heart is upset"
the woman seemed silent to hear Gao's words.
"We were never given a chance, ever 1 time, so fast, grow well and healthy, waiting for the birth time like other couples"
"My wife is not the type of mother who demands the sex of her baby should be what, she assures herself, whatever her gender, as long as it is healthy, as long as it is healthy, to grow well and to be born in good manhood is already the most beautiful gift from God to him"
"But a heartbreaking tragedy occurred, We lost our baby, 3 days my wife was in a coma, 3m high she was struggling in her long sleep"
Gao took a slow breath, as if it had just happened yesterday.
"In addition to him being destroyed, obviously I am the most broken person"
The woman tried to guess, it could be that Gao was devastated to lose his baby.
"It may be true that I am devastated by the loss of our baby, but the reality of my broken heart is Destroyed because I was late to protect the people I love, devastated that I removed the smile behind my wife's face according to my promise to her father"
Patred in Gao's memory of the conversation he and his father-in-law Ardhan had
"When her mom was pregnant the first month of Ayana, Ayudia did not realize it at all, until someone said maybe you were pregnant the first trimester"
"You know how our happy expressions are? more like getting a lottery with a prize of billions of rupiah at that time"
"When Ayana was born, after the doctor took her from Ayudia's womb, the first hand that grabbed her was me, you know how I felt son? like getting something even more valuable than gold or jewels"
"My hand is the first hand to hold his tiny hand, I was the first man to be his first love, I was the first man to teach Ayana to walk, also the first man to make her smile happy"
"22 years Ayana is living well and healthy, I was the first man to give her anything she wanted, even for 22 years I never made her cry or disappointed"
"In educating Ayana, my wife and I have good communication and orderly concepts that make children less dissident and more obedient, and the main capital uses the heart"
"Then make sure you can replace me to hold her hand until the end?"
"For many men often have sweet promises at the beginning but end strangely and bitterly at the end"
"22 years Ayana lived with me, got whatever she wanted in a wise way, without ever hurting her heart when we said no or not, all her needs were met well"
"After graduating from school, when Ayana knew how to generate her own income for her pleasure, obviously she enjoyed all kinds of possessions and life, and then can you fulfill all her wishes like us? like she's been fulfilling her wish all along?"
"Because there are many out there, after marriage a woman wants to buy 1 bowl of meatballs only, must hold her heart because of her spicy scorn of her husband"
"Can you not be that kind of husband?"
"Don't make her heart brittle, don't make her shed her tears just like we who once never made her cry, able to hold her hand, able to meet all her needs?"
"Because every time a princess comes home complaining about her husband, it's obviously the saddest burden for her parents, to the point of thinking, that she lived before she married you my daughter was so happy, filled with all his needs, and when married to you our daughter only got an endless sense of pain"
"To ask a husband for something is sometimes like a beggar asking for mercy"
"It's not fair of course"
"Could you keep making her smile under any circumstances?
Gao let out a long sigh, still trying to hold back his feelings, staring back at the woman's face.
"Obviously I just want to make her happiness back, I have failed to make her happy as I promised her parents, 6 years a very difficult time for her"
"Whenever she cried alone in the bathroom, came out with reddened eyes and said it was okay, an animal came into her eyes"
"Or he cried when he saw all his friends and family one by one fondling the baby, he again had to swallow a bitter pill about reality"
The woman remained silent, only to hear that she did not reply or interrupt.
"She was just afraid I was unhappy, because she couldn't fulfill her obligations as a wife, giving birth to healthy children for me"
"Even for the sake of making me happy, he came up with the craziest idea for me to find the third person"
"When the reality is, I don't really think children are the main need, because if God hasn't given them to us, it means that Alalh hasn't trusted us to receive his most beautiful care"
"Just like you, if you haven't trusted my wife to receive your womb, then God willing I won't force it either"
"But I just want to set one thing straight for you"
"Being a mother is not an easy matter because on the shoulders of the children's future is at stake because, in our religion, the first madrassa is in the hands of his mother."
"A woman is indeed noble and my wife Alhamdulillah lives in a good sphere, a family that clings to religion"
"When she was a child, she opened the doors of heaven to her parents, when she was a wife, she became the door of kindness for her husband to always be in kindness, and when she was a mother, she was the door of kindness, he became the door of heaven for his children"
Gao smiled at the woman
"My wife and I will come tomorrow, if you change your mind, we will gladly take care of your trust, take care and bring it to a place that God willing is best for children to grow up to the future"
he said slowly, not long they dissolved in silence, after which they both stepped back to the direction of their respective paths where their feet brought their bodies home.
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Notes \=
From the outhor to the husband who often forgets his obligations, who forgets his sweet promises.