
Ayana took her breath many times, looked so heavy and I don't know.
occasionally staring at Gao who was greedily spending his dinner, as if without burden occasionally glanced at Ayana with a smile, occasionally putting vegetables onto Ayana's rice plate, even pouring a drink for Ayana.
Doesn't she want to talk about her marriage? how is the wife to two? have they done it?
sigh Ayana
he was eager to ask, but the prestige of beating everything, he was obviously reluctant to ask, afraid of even adding to the tightness of his chest.
Ayana again let out her soft breath.
Gao who knew the anxiety of the wife only gave a smile from amusement.
"Gao"
"Hm"
Gao pretended not to stare at Ayana's face, spent the last remaining rice on her plate, then took her drink and then spent it in a few gulps.
"Tell me Gao, why would you prefer Morena over Fitri?"
In the end she asked such a thing, Ayana asked as she stared into Gao's eyeballs.
Gao commented a smile, shaking his head slowly.
"Because I want to raise his degree with the intention to help him not to drown in prostitution"
gao answered quickly, lifting the dirty dishes after they ate one meal at a time to the sink, Gao looked berahan washing dishes in front of him.
"Let me go"
"Not a problem, dear"
Ayana looked silent
"He had long wanted to get out of that place, 3 years a very painful time wallowing in the mud of sin, he plunged there not on his will, he said, but circumstances forced her to not be able to choose"
gao again
"If life could choose, then everyone would have chosen, like us for example"
"But the reality of life is destiny, the journey of life that has been written destiny by God, which we must sincerely live, patiently and remain patient"
"He needs a hand that can take him out of there, and then God gives you an intermediary through your hand without you noticing, dear"
Ayana looked silent
"If he had money of course he would not wallow in the moss of sin, because in reality in life in the world, which became the benchmark of life in all things is a sheet of paper called money"
"Over us, the test of life is more painful, living in poverty, losing a father figure due to a deadly disease, a mother who has to sell herself, she who loses her future, she said, losing her self-esteem and her ideals, but she still kept smiling trying to hide her wounds, even she kept laughing cheerfully and happily, at such a young age"
And instantly Ayana swallowed her Saliva
"Then why didn't you choose Fitri?"
Gao looked smiling
"He still has a long future, still able to achieve his dream, I've taken care of all his father's operating expenses"
"Yes?"
"He still has big and long goals, why should we ditch the expectations of children of that age hmm?"
"So she'd think, if I had a lot of money, I wouldn't be stuck in a marriage like this"
"No human being really wants to be the 2nd dear, nor does anyone really want to be in the two"
Gao washed his hands, turned his body then looked inside Ayana's eyeballs
"Like you"
the instant Ayana slipped, she lowered her head then sobbed.
"Cry, for crying is one of the relievers of resentment and sorrow"
Gao spoke while tightly hugging Ayanas body, gently stroking his head slowly.
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be patient
قُلْ يَا عِبَادِ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا اتَّقُوا رَبَّكُمْ ۚ لِلَّذِينَ أَحْسَنُوا فِي هَٰذِهِ الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةٌ ۗ وَأَرْضُ اللَّهِ وَاسِعَةٌ ۗ إِنَّمَا يُوَفَّى الصَّابِرُونَ أَجْرَهُمْ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ
Say: "O My servants who believe, fear your Lord". Those who do good in this world have good. The earth of God is wide. Verily, only those who are patient are their reward met without limit. (Az-Zumar verse 10)