The Bungsu Princess Inferior

83. Doubt

"Darling, are you inside?"

I pulled the door open and showed Varen smiling with her face towards me, she extended her right hand.

"You wanna go around with me?"

"Sure," I grabbed Varen's hand. We joined hands and stepped together into the courtyard of my residence, the flowers began to bloom, and the trees began to bear fruit.

"Aciel expressed her feelings," I said stopping the move.

Varen came to a stop beside me, "and he didn't ask for an answer?"

I nodded and looked at Varen, I was afraid Varen was angry.

"Then I have to be careful, if I make you cry then Aciel won't stay still" Varen smiled at me. "I know Aciel is a good friend to you, I trust him."

My eyes are starting to glaze over, lately I've been really whiny. Varen took off his hand and with both hands, he held my face. She looked at me deeply and calmed down, "more importantly I really believe in you, baby. I love you" said Varen, bringing his face closer.

He kissed me softly, "I know you gave him space in your heart as the only friend you have, I will respect your decision as long as you don't cross the line."

Varen again grabbed me and kissed me a little rougher than before, this time he seemed to want to devour me, until I was out of breath.

"I can't deny that I'm jealous," Varen looked at me who was struggling to catch my breath due to her slightly rude kiss. "My greed for you I can't control anymore, Aira. I want to have you all."

I looked at Varen who was now expressing her feelings, "Varen, the closer to the wedding, the more scared I am."

"Fearful?" Varen repeated my words.

I nodded slowly, Varen took my hand again and led me to sit on a swing, we sat face to face on a swing that was swinging slowly.

"What scares you, Aira?" Varen held my hands together and held them.

"Loyalty" I said briefly. "I even doubted myself, when I went around I saw a lot of royal families who were having problems due to disloyalty, Varen. I'm afraid you're tempted by another woman."

Varen let out a big laugh, "why do you think that?"

I started to frown because Varen responded to me a little jokingly, he even smiled as if I was adorable, "later after marriage, when I was pregnant, my body would enlarge, she said, when I give birth to my focus will be split between you and our child, I will also lose time to take care of myself, especially you will definitely feel neglected, I'm afraid you can't stand it and choose to get the attention of another woman."

As my anxiety grew closer to the wedding day, I remembered the many kings who had more than one wife, "I wanted to have you completely Varen, I really didn't want to share. I also hate betrayal," my eyes stared intently at Varen's pair of eyes.

"Darling, didn't I swear on my life? I swear that I will be loyal to you, and if I break then I will die, because my vows are bound and I can't take away." Varen looked at me lovingly, "honey, no matter what changes happen to you, just know that I will change with you, stand by you and love you always, for me you are everything. Don't think about the bad stuff, okay?"

"What are you talking about Aira? Why are you so sensitive today?" Varen looked confused to see me.

"I'm afraid I can't live up to your expectations, because I'm still Varen's normal woman, I'm just an ordinary human being who has many flaws, I'm afraid I can't keep up with you well with all my flaws, while there's a lot more deserving of you."

"Honey," Varen looked at me with complete focus, she stopped the time, so the wind was not blowing. "So you're starting to doubt yourself?"

I nodded, I doubted myself more than I doubted Varen, I felt like I was not worth it, Varen had everything in my eyes, he was handsome, noble-hearted, and had a very strong aura, his leadership is beyond doubt, but me? I'm just an ordinary human being.

"There's no reason for you to doubt yourself, let alone feel inferior, Aira." Varen stroked my hair. "All the women of the four riches, admire you greatly. They create trends that come from you, women vying to meet the highest standards that are made based on you, and most importantly your ocean-wide heart, as precious as the universe and more beautiful than a rainbow, how could the most admired woman in the four empires doubt herself like this?"

Varen held up both hands and kissed the two, "my dear Aira, would you like to visit somewhere with me?" Varen took a deep breath, "it seems you need a short vacation."

I nodded, and I saw a smile on Varen's face. Varen came down from the swing still suspended in midair, he grabbed me and held me in front of his chest.

"Varen," called me in a protesting tone, but Varen only replied to me with a smile she looked like. He opened a portal that immediately showed the intended place, when Varen stepped, we had reached the place where Varen was headed.

Varen lowered me slowly, then grabbed my waist, we stood next to each other staring at the amazing sight. My feet felt a little tingled by the sensation of the texture of white sand grains that spread widely. The birds were flying over the blue sea that glistened in the sun, the waves rolled as if greeting the arrival of the two of us. Coconut trees are towering on the shore, the leaves are rustling in the wind, the hair seems to be dancing because of it.

"It's beautiful, I haven't seen the sea in a long time." As soon as I felt a change of emotions within me, and made me wrap my hands around Varen's waist, Varen's hands wrapped around me, she stroked my arms gently.

"Never get bored, because in the future it's this scene that we'll enjoy every day, baby."

I didn't expect Varen's words to take my hand off her, I looked Varen in the eye, "is this the golden ring?"

Varen kissed my forehead, "yes, this is where we live in the future." Varen combed my hair with his hands and placed a few strands behind my ears, "you can see the sun rising and sinking from here, or," Varen turned my body to face a different direction, "or choose one of the highest peaks.

I gasped at what I saw, Varen hugging me from behind and wrapping both her hands around my stomach. The series of mountains stretching from North-West to East looks amazing like an impenetrable high fortress, the expanse of beautiful forest in front of me amazes me so beautiful, many wildflowers on the edge of the forest that I had never even seen before, this was truly an amazing beauty!

I felt Varen's kiss land on the tip of my head, her hand now coiled around my neck. "Do you like it?" varen whispered in my ear.

"It's not just me, but our kids will love it too" I said, turning around until we faced each other. I tiptoed and lightly kissed Varen's lips, "thank you for understanding me completely, Varen."

"I promise to keep trying to make you happy, Aira." Varen grabbed my nape and began to kiss me, he started with a soothing tenderness and seemed to get even more dusty to the end. "I really want to eat you right away, why are you like an opium to me?"

Varen pulled me into his arms, while I still managed to catch my breath because of it.

"I love you Aira, now and forever" Varen's voice was like the wind of heaven in my ears, making my heart beat, I tightened my arms, I wish this happiness would last forever.