The Bungsu Princess Inferior

2. Like Flowers that Cannot Bloom

"My husband, don't ever make decisions when you're angry" she reminded me.

"Aira, what do you think? Do you deserve to be the crown princess?" dad turned the question to me.

I kept staring at my mom and dad, alternating, my tears couldn't stop flowing. Mind fucked. I began to compare myself to my two brothers. Compared to Nala, I am helpless. The first brother has an extraordinary intelligence to be able to deliver brother Aditya to lead the Star Empire to its current glory. While the second sister, Kak Prisa has peerless beauty. Her beauty is like a goddess, I still remember the many men who wanted to propose her, until finally she decided to marry Arya's sister. Kak Prisa became an exemplary empress who built many hospitals and health academies, making the Moon empire famous for its medical prowess.

I fell silent at once realizing my impropriety. There is nothing in me that makes me worthy of the title of crown princess. I'm not as smart as Nala, not as pretty as Kak Prisa, not as noble as father and not as elegant as mother. I was not worthy.

I took a deep breath and straightened my head, trying to look into the eyes of the father who was now waiting for an answer. "Dad's right, I don't deserve it."

I began to judge the eyes of the father, but this time I could not guess the way of the mind of the father who was still silent looking at me.

"Aira, explain what you mean, son?"

I looked at my mother, her eyes looking sad. Maybe you have high hopes for me, I do realize that someday I will have to be the crown princess, but I still did not realize the obligations and responsibilities that I had to carry out until a while ago father made me aware with his words.

"Mom, dad's right. I don't deserve to be the crown princess." Then I sat myself down, standing before my parents. "I, Aira Airlangga swore to accept all the decisions of the Emperor's Father and Empress Mother, I will never obstruct the decision to appoint an heir other than myself, and I promised to accept it freely."

The sound of lightning striking accompanied my vows, the sky sounded angry, but I was truly willing, I would be willing if the sun empire would be led by someone more deserving of me. Samar I heard the sound of his mother's sobs, of course my heart hurts but I can't dwell on the reality that seems real.

"Dad, Aira will also receive punishment according to the decree of the Father."

"Take the two boxes to your brothers, and use the money in the bag for travel expenses." Dad again flicked his hands, as soon as my clothes turned into ordinary folk clothes, my long hair tied in a ponytail, I felt that all the hair ornaments and jewelry that had been attached, were now gone without a trace. "You'll deliver it yourself, without any bodyguards. Take it to your first brother first."

"Is there a deadline that my father gave me?" my question is still calm.

"Nothing, go without going back to your residence first."

My heart ached again, why did you forbid me to return to the residence? Did you mean to throw me out of the palace this time? My eyes glazed back, but I held back as much as I could. I flicked my hand, so that both the box and the cloth bag disappeared into the storage ring that was perched sweetly on my middle finger. I stood up and saluted.

"Aira pampit went to do the task, may father and mother always be healthy."

"Be careful son" said the mother who stood up and was about to hug me.

"Ehm.."

Father's voice stopped the mother's movement. I understood, then turned and walked away. I remembered the words of Kak Prisa before leaving the palace to follow her husband two years ago. "My dear sister, now that you are the sole successor of this empire, strive to be a flower that blooms beautifully, take care of your father yes. Brother can't be by your side as often as before."

I continued walking without looking back until I stopped my steps in front of the palace gate, after passing through the gate later, I would completely leave the palace and blend in with the people. I turned to look at the beautiful palace that I had occupied since birth stood majestically. People call it the golden palace because of the dominance of the golden color in all parts. "I'm sorry, brother, maybe I can't bloom because I've lost my roots."

I turned back and walked towards the palace gate guarded by several guards who looked down respectfully as I passed by. In my heart, I said goodbye, I promised myself to be strong in this.